Rollin' With Good Fortune - Day 55

The Dark Angels shuffled out The Wheel of Fortune X. A golden sky forces back dark thunder clouds. To the left and right are two stone walls with a bull and a lion respectively. Dead center is a dark magician type fellow standing in front of a massive stone wheel with a huge stone gryphon. On the one hand there is brute force or doing things out of habit (the bull), on the other hand there is reacting out of anger, foolish pride, or ego (the lion). Between them us the gryphon and the human. Gryphons symbolize great wisdom and protection. Buddhist philosophy teaches the "Middle Way", which in extremely basic terms is about living with a sense of balance that is found through meditation as opposed to extremes. Because therein lies true happiness. Ultimately ones external conditions are a reflection if the internal.

Major changes are in the air. I can feel it and am starting to see evidence in my physical reality. And this card is a 10 which means the cusp of endings and beginnings. There is a profound theory of the 10 Worlds, which I won't event attempt to go into but you can go here to explore on this award winning blog my dear friend does to learn about. If I can continue to view life through the eyes of the gryphon and accept that life is constantly in flux and just because really fucked up shit happens, it doesn't necessarily equate with punishment. In fact, literal shit is also known as fertilizer. It's not really good or bad inane of itself. It's just shit. Depends on what one does with it, and that may be seen as good or bad perhaps. But shit (aka Life) is just shit. The lotus flower is used to symbolize Nicherin Buddihsm for several reasons, one being the fact that it is such a gorgeous flower that grows in the murkiest water. That's what is really meant by the phrase, "It is what it is..." The title of this card says it all in Buddhist terms. They do not say "blessings" but instead use the word "fortune". NO cause is ever wasted in Buddhism, meaning no effort made. Effort can be action, but equally as much one's thoughts or intentions even if no action is taken. Say for example you had a friend in the hospital. You really want to go sit with them. It will bring them joy to have someone to spend time with them. It will bring you joy from doing something that makes you feel like a compassionate person. But it's butt-ass cold outside and you just want to go home. In Buddhism, fighting through the feelings of not wanting to go and going based on doing something kind, will amas good fortune. But say you don't want to go because you feel a cold coming on so going is harmful to you, thus you decide not to. The honor of your intention will still bring you good fortune. It's still considered "making cause". This card is reminding me to keep making good causes and due to the law of cause and effect, I will experience good fortune.

It's also worth mentioning the fact that there is no such thing as coincidence and Buddhism is a very prominent force showing up the past few days. Out of nowhere I chanted Nam-Myoho-Renge-Kyo one day last week. Then I came across my beads and prayer book totally at random. Yesteday's card was the QofW as Tina Turner who has been practicing Nichiren Buddhism for like 40 years or so, and today a wonderful woman I used to practice with in Philly called to let me know she is in town and wants to get together. Seems the a Universe has significant changes in store that have been building up from the many causes I've made. (Of course now I have "Proud Mary" playing in my head lol! And we're rollin'!)

 

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Person of the Week - Queen of Swords - Day 34

So I've had this idea for weekly posts since like, forever. But because I am the most ridiculous procrastinator God ever created, I have not acted on it. Well in keeping with the theme of getting my shit together and having some kind if discipline by making a post, I will implement my new idea tonight. It's the "Person of the Week". In an attempt to focus on the court cards and gain a deeper understanding of them I will select a court card and make the comparison of it with an actual person. Sometimes I will choose a particular card after shuffling, sometimes I will intentionally pick a specific card. So with no further ado, let's meet this week's...

Person of the Week - Queen of Swords as Chelsea Handler - What better example for this suit than a talk show host. The QofSw is the type of woman who is very logical and her greatest asset is her sharp mind, equaled only by her razor sharp toungue and often times cutting, dry whit. She takes no shit and cuts to the core of any topic. That woman has no board of censors on duty in her head lol. It's like word vomit with her lol! And just like the QofSw, she can be a total asshole and not care how badly she hurts someone's feelings. But how freeing it must be to not keep your true feelings bottled up. And if you go up against someone who is a QofSw type of person, have your shit together because I promise you she will. Her delivery may suck, but she is honest, effective and you'll always know where you stand.

Now often times when I do a reading and a court card comes up it will match up with the person's zodiac sign. If that is the case, she would be an Aquarius, Libra, or Gemini. But I've learned the hard way that that isn't always the case and Chelsea is a prime example. I cannot believe this woman is a Pisces!? I'd have totally pegged her as a Gemini! She is the most outspoken, crass person and she cracks me up!

The QofSw from the Dark Angles deck has always made me go "Huh??" Now the blue makes me think of the throat chakra. But her demeanor is so calm, almost meek. Or maybe she is actually pausing to think before she speaks. Maybe she is being a good communicator by listening more and talking less. I will take these things into consideration tomorrow. I will be direct in my communication, think before I speak and listen carefully.

 

 

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Loosen Up, Earth Queen - Day 31

Using my Dark Angles, 1. What am I moving away from? 2. What am I moving toward? 3. Bottom line.

The first thing I notice is that I have all earth cards. This shows how extremely important having a sense of security that is long lasting is to me, but that I must also be more flexible and accepting of change. Next thing is that both the Page and the Queen of Pentacles (my significator card as a Capricorn) are here. I have to find that balance between behaving like a mature adult yet honoring and my inner child and not judging her. My friend Stephanie who is such a gifted reader just told me earlier this week that I needed to take time to do work with my inner child. Thanks Stephanie!

1. Page of Pentacles - Again I am warned against holding onto things that I think give me security. Look at how she is clutching that disk! I feel like it represents past mistakes and old resentments toward myself and others (Joshua). I am starting to see all of these things as learning experiences and put them to rest.

2. The Heirophant V - I'm moving toward becoming more disciplined and structured and increasing my faith. Proof being that I ordered my Leonie calendars couple of days ago and toning to got a beautiful indigo/violette 2014 day planner.

3. Queen of Pentacles - I love this version of the QofP. Her facial expression says how strong she is and that she will kick your ass if you cross her yet her posture shows how open and flexible she is. I'm actualizing the true essence of who I am, which is a loving, nurturing woman who needs security and also structure. If I can be half as loving and nurturing to myself as I am to others, I'll be very pleasantly surprised at what I can create for myself. But I must be more flexible and patient with myself.

 

 

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Dark Angel Rises -Day 22

Tonight I pulled out a deck I haven't used in quite a while, my Dark Angles deck, and drew The Hanged Man XII Rx. (I just pulled this card upright in for a post I made last week!) see a graceful, black-winged angel soaring through the night sky. (Yet another sign I need to get back to being a flight attendant...) Her hair billowing freely overhead and the most peaceful look on her face as a beam of moonlight illuminates a path just for her in a sea of darkness. This says to me that in the darkest of times there is always hope, that The Goddess speaks and guides us when we pause to hear Her voice while meditating. Let our emotions be our indicator as to wether or not we are on the path that leads to emotional healing and joy. There is a rope at her waist tethering her to an unseen source. Something about this card makes me think of The Dark Knight series, both the first and third installment when Bruce Wayne has to face his greatest fears and literally as well as figuratively climb out of a pit of despair and darkness.

[after seeing the dead bodies of the special forces men hanging from the cables of Gotham Bridge shown on TV, we see Bruce doing sit-ups in his cell, the blind prisoner says something in his own language the other prisoner translates]
Prisoner: He says the leap to freedom is not about strength.
Bruce Wayne: My body makes the jump.
Blind Prisoner: Survival is the spirit. The soul.
Bruce Wayne: My soul is as ready to escape as is my body.
Blind Prisoner: Fear is why you fail.
Bruce Wayne: No, I'm not afraid. I'm angry.
[Bruce carries on doing sit-ups]

---

[later Bruce attempts to climb the prison wall again, but a rock slips under his hand and he drops smashing into the wall, as he dangles on the rope unconscious he dreams of when he was a young boy and had dropped down the well and his father coming to rescue him]
Thomas Wayne: Bruce, why do we fall?
[we then see Bruce waking up with start in his prison cell]
Blind Prisoner: You do not fear death. You think this makes you strong. It makes you weak.
Bruce Wayne: Why?
Blind Prisoner: How can you move faster than possible? Fight longer than possible? Without the most powerful impulse of the spirit. The fear of death.
Bruce Wayne: I do fear death. I fear dying in here while my city burns with no one there to save it.
Blind Prisoner: Then make the climb.
[Bruce laughs dryly]
Bruce Wayne: How?
Blind Prisoner: As the child did. Without the rope. Then fear will find you again.

---

[as Bruce packs supplies folds into a makeshift pack]
Prisoner: Ah, supplies for your journey? Oh, that's...that's wonderful, that's...
[as Bruce walks out of his cell he hears the other prisoners chanting the word "deshi basara"]
Bruce Wayne: What does that mean?
Prisoner: Rise.
[as Bruce moves to climb the wall, the tattooed prisoner offers him the rope, but Bruce puts up his hand]
Bruce Wayne: No.
[Bruce starts climbing the wall, the other prisoners gather beneath and continue chanting as they watch, as Bruce gets to the precipice suddenly a bunch of bats circle above him, Bruce then makes the jump to the other ledge and manages to grab hold of the edge, the other prisoners cheer as Bruce climbs to freedom]

---

[at City Hall building, Fox watches as Stryver gets dragged upstairs by Bane's men]

Stryver: There's been a mistake! Take...take me to Bane! I wanna see Bane!From The Dark Knight:

Alfred Pennyworth: Took quite a fall, didn't we, Master Bruce?
Thomas Wayne: And why do we fall, Bruce? So we can learn to pick ourselves up.

Alfred Pennyworth: Why bats, Master Wayne?

Bruce Wayne: Bats frighten me. It's time my enemies shared my dread.

From Dark Knight Rises:

[after seeing the dead bodies of the special forces men hanging from the cables of Gotham Bridge shown on TV, we see Bruce doing sit-ups in his cell, the blind prisoner says something in his own language the other prisoner translates]
Prisoner: He says the leap to freedom is not about strength.
Bruce Wayne: My body makes the jump.
Blind Prisoner: Survival is the spirit. The soul.
Bruce Wayne: My soul is as ready to escape as is my body.
Blind Prisoner: Fear is why you fail.
Bruce Wayne: No, I'm not afraid. I'm angry.
[Bruce carries on doing sit-ups]

---

[later Bruce attempts to climb the prison wall again, but a rock slips under his hand and he drops smashing into the wall, as he dangles on the rope unconscious he dreams of when he was a young boy and had dropped down the well and his father coming to rescue him]
Thomas Wayne: Bruce, why do we fall?
[we then see Bruce waking up with start in his prison cell]
Blind Prisoner: You do not fear death. You think this makes you strong. It makes you weak.
Bruce Wayne: Why?
Blind Prisoner: How can you move faster than possible? Fight longer than possible? Without the most powerful impulse of the spirit. The fear of death.
Bruce Wayne: I do fear death. I fear dying in here while my city burns with no one there to save it.
Blind Prisoner: Then make the climb.
[Bruce laughs dryly]
Bruce Wayne: How?
Blind Prisoner: As the child did. Without the rope. Then fear will find you again.

This dark angel is here to show me the lesson Bruce Wayne had to learn is key to my growth and moving forward through this (and any future) dark time in my life. Fear has to be used as a fulcrum as we find that delicate balance of it either paralyzing or empowering us. In order to do so, I must face it and respect its power but not let that keep me prisoner because it has power over me. This is where my true freedom lies.

This version of The Hanged Man Rx shows that I have had to make some extreme sacrifices, learn to have patience, be far more flexible than I knew I could and to be at peace with the fact that as shitty as it is, this is the place I am on my journey through this thing called life. The moonbeam reminds me of the Bat-Signal. Sometime I have to fight my own battles, but sometimes I have to call on forces far more seasoned and indomitable than I am in this human form. I'll take this a confirmation that my ancestors, angels, Orhsias and Lwa that I've petitioned for help are fighting on my behalf. The number 12 breaks down to a 3. It reminds me to have patience and treat mySelf with love and kindness, nurture mySelf as I am growing and things are coming together. Sometimes I have to be put in very VERYuncomfortable positions in order to see things from a more useful perspective. This elegant, winged ballerina is letting me know it won't be long before I experience the bliss of freedom. Yet I can't focus on that end because it is experiencing each present moment that allows me to actually move ahead.

Something moved me to pull the card at the bottom of the deck, which for me sums up a reading or is the bottom line of what it is all about. I got The Tower XVII. How perfectly apropos.

My fortune cookie I got tonight.

 

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Happy Birthday Amy

I just traipsed home after spending time in my favorite den of debauchery. I decided to take a nice hot shower to unwind. For some reason Amy Winehouse came to mind, and then I remembered that she is a Virgo so her birthday must have just passed or be coming up soon. So after slipping on my jamas I Google to find out when her birthday is. It is today! September 14th. Now I haven't listened to Amy in forever, so I have no idea why it was made clear to me that today is her birthday. Nor why it is important for me to make a post about it since I haven't made any posts on here since July. But it is, and so I am. I was also called to use my Dark Angels tarot. Perhaps because Amy is a beautiful dark angel.

I have chosen to select the Ace of Cups. I pray that Amy has transitioned to a beautiful new state of being that is filled with peace, contentment and love. That she realizes how deeply she touched so many hearts, and that she is missed both body and soul. RIP sweet Amy.
Since either iPad sux or I'm just not tech savy, I am not able to post the video I want to, so here is the link to a beautiful duet she performed with Tony Bennett as well as a link to the post I made last year when she passed.

Can't Wait to Get My Hands On This!~ New deck from Tarot Dame!

I'd like to make you guys aware of a new self-published oracle deck that will be available to us soon and I can not WAIT to get my hot little hands on it! I'm sure all of you are familiar with the Tarot Dame. She is a wonderful reader who has an amazing blog where she does daily draws and cameos a new deck each week. I have learned a lot from reading her blog and am happy that I can now say I think of her as more than just a fellow reader but as a friend I just haven't met face-to-face yet lol. Well wasn't I shocked when I saw her post the other day that she has been working on this gorgeous new creation. The images are already speaking to me loud and clear and I am so excited to know when the deck will be available!

It makes me think of The Magician I. This card is all about a golden opportunity that has come your way and you have to jump on it. I have chosen the Magician from the Dark Angels Tarot. I love how even though he has all of the tools at his disposal that he needed to manifest a specific desired result, even he is in awe as he watches it unfold. I'm sure this whole process has been a magickal progression for her as she brought her vision to light and it is now a reality.

Please head over to her blog and you can see several of the cards and you will see a link to email her so she can get a good idea of how much interest there is in it as she is doing a limited amount.

Congratulations Kiki!!! 

Should I Drive Today?

I didn't realize that my drivers license has been exprired for quite some time now and I'd forgotten to renew it. Well I figured I'll just do the limit or 5 miles below and if I should get stopped I'll just play dumb or play the girl card. (don't act like you haven't played the girl card and won't again lol!) I heard my guides tell me clear as day "don't drive today". I was going to blow it off but then I remembered my cousin's b/f told me to be really careful. We are like 45 min outside of New Orleans and there are so many little towns where the speed limit changes from 35 to 50 to 45 to 55 then 45..... WTF?!?!  They are just setting you up for failure! And that they could actually put me in jail for that! And being a black woman out here??? Shhhit! But jail, that is beyond extreme to me! I mean for real!?? Fucking jail?? It's a piece of plastic that needs two of the numbers that make up the year to be changed! It's not a damn DUI due to a fifth of Kettle One and a lit blunt! And from the state that has DRIVE THROUGH DAQUARI STANDS!! That's a frozen beverage with rum and you choice of additional alcohol!!!  Are you kidding me!?! 


 Then I heard, "Ok tarot reader, go pull a card.  So I did.


This is what everyone who reads means when they tell you to listen to your guides and your intuition and they will speak to you." So I ask, "Should I drive today, will it be ok?"--- 4 of Swords. I was like dang, ok. But let me just pull 2 more out of habit. The fucking 3of Sw and The Tower  XVI for Goddess' sake!!! I kept my ass out of any driver's seat that day and didn't drive today. May not tomorrow either lol! 

Yes, I'll have my arse on a plane next week to give the state... excuse me, the common wealth of PA their $60. Yes, 60 freakin' dollars because I have a motorcycle endorsement! Damn thieves! But the staying out of jail?? Priceless!

The King of Swords Still Gives Me Butterflies

This is actually Saturday's draw. I just asked "what would be the energy of the day". I got the King of Swords as the rockstar and the backup singers were the Magician I and the the Moon XVIII. I got from this that I need to bring out the energies of the KofSw, his logical, direct, to-the-point decisiveness which Goddess knows I lack! Look how confident this KofSw looks. That would play perfectly off the Magician. He looks like even he is in awe of the magick he is creating. Both are ruled by air and the Magician by the planet Mercury which is all about communication and speed. I need to learn to process my thoughts more quickly so I can take more decisive actions and trust myself more to make good decisions. The Magician can show my inner KofSw I have everything it takes to create the results I want. A certain someone who's card is the KofSw and still has a place in my heart (if you've read my blog for a bit then you know who I mean, the one who moved to Australia. You can plat catchup here if you'd like to know more) popped in my head. I thought about his personality and certain risky but very rewarding decisions he made and how they paid off big time. I need to follow his lead in that respect. I just need to calm the negative Moon aspects of fear of the unknown that keep my emotions in control instead of assuming a commanding presence who cuts through the shit, makes moves and gets results. This is also shown by fact that the cards are the elements of air/air/water. This was the message I got when I did the cards early in my day.

While I was out and about I got two signs with regard to that certain someone who was my King of Swords. First sign was a street in Uptown New Orleans that is his first name. About an hour later I got sign number two. One way my guides speak to me is through license plates and I saw one from Colorado, the state he lived in before moving to The Land Down Under. As I drove around Lee Circle I thought about the night we met in the French Quarter and how there was that instant spark of electricity. And I felt it again from thinking about the strong connection we had. Then I felt the pang of dissapointment that there was just too much E.S. (extra shit) going on in both our lives that kept things from working out. Before he moved, we had a really good, very open and honest talk and he made it clear to me that he was really sorry things didn't work out and he knew I'd always be in his heart. I admitted the same. When I got back to the house that night and was puttzing around on FB I saw these really crazy, really cool black boots with the skeleton of a leg and foot on them, like it was an X-ray. I tagged my dear friend Seleus who does the Lotus Flower blog on Nicheren Buddhism in the post. I'll be damned if said Aquarian KofSw didn't click "like" on it! We don't really communicate anymore. He has a g/f and I am very happy for him that he is doing so well and is happy. But I think that we both still have feeelings that stem from all of the "What if's??" so it's just not possible for us to have an actual friendship. But every blue moon he will "like" something I post and I know that is his way of saying hi. It also shows that the connection is still there. And everytime he does, I still get butterflies and think of the night we met and everything that we shared. And I still hear my heart ask, "Man....What if..."

Mabon 2011

I am still such a witch at heart. I practice Nichiren Buddhism now, but I will always be a witch. The word "sabbath" comes from the Celtic word "sabbat". In the Wheel of the Year there are eight sabbats, or days of high celebration based on the seasons. Most years September 21st is called Mabon, but this year it will fall on the 23rd. This holiday is  the Autumnal Equinox and marks the beginning of fall and is the witch's Thanksgiving and special rituals are performed to give honor to the God and Goddess. For more information, check out Rowan Pendragon's wonderful blog. So I decided to do a spread based on the meaning of this holiday.









~Magickal Graphics~

1. Where am I now in my life?                                                                                
2. What do I need to be most thankful for right now?
3. What do I need to respectfully let go of?                                            
4. What else is still left for me to harvest?                          
5. What do I need to complete before Samhain (Halloween)?
6. How can I get the best possible results?    
      
                                                          2    

                                             4             6          5




                                                  1             3                                            
(laid out in the shape of a star)

1. King of Wands- ok, this is most definitely one of the last cards I would have thought I'd have gotten in this position because kings are all about success and accomplishment. And right about now, I ain't too accomplished or successful. But as I studied the card, I see the mirror behind the king. I am now doing a lot of reflecting on ways to create the life I want, one lived with passion and joy. As I look at this king's face, he looks kinda sad and depressed. I'm not sad or depressed now, but I dang sure am not setting the world on fire. I'm going to have to give more thought to why this card came up in this position. Maybe it means I'll get hired for the flight attendant position I applied for.

2. Queen of Swords- I think this is my trainer/physical therapist who is a QofSw/Aquarius. I am so thankful for how far she has brought me in regaining my physical health and strength!! She's an air sign, assertive and very focused and goal oriented. I know my earth sign, much slower paced behavior can drive her crazy!! She is a wonderful friend to me who has been an angel in so many ways.

3. The Hierophant V- I need to let go of worrying so much about getting things "right"!! What will others whom I see as being in positions of authority think of me. I need to let go of any guilt I feel for not being where I "should" be in my life. The yellowish-brown sky is making me think I need to do work with  my solar plexus charkra. That is the chakra of personal power.

4. 8 of pentacles- The first thing I notice is the castle wall; I need to have a safe haven, a true home for myself. For some reason the blocks looked like bones for a second. I need to continue working on strengthening my spine. The 8ofP is also about training, education. I think this shows me getting invited to go to F/A training, which would be fantastic.

5. 3 of wands- I first notice that this angle is looking back and card 4, looking back at training, and the 3ofW is about things coming together, signing a contract, a deal made, creative forces coming together. Since training is 5 weeks, I can't be finished with it by Oct 31. I notice the steps the angel is on and her beautiful clothes. I need to take all necessary steps to be ready for training. Practice interview techniques, learning the 3-letter city codes, and having a couple of interview suits. I also wonder if that means I am going to the Witches Ball in New Orleans on Halloween and I need to get my ball gown.

6.Chariot VII- Be more decisive and stop letting my emotions run me ragged. I've got to stop getting all caught up in how things are going to work out when I can't see the how and just focus on why and how awesome it will look and feel when they do.
                                          

Gitter dun!

I recently got the Dark Angels Tarot and let me tell you, not only do I love it but my guides are doing backflips! I will have to do an interview with the deck later today. Right now it's hard because in addition to the usual problem of not having a scanner, now I have the additional issue of being kinda far out so my cell reception is all but non-existent, so I can't usually upload the pics from my phone. *sigh*

So I do asked my guides what they wanted me to know today. These cards really seem to want me to do the Rockstar reading when I use them (center card is the focus, the other two support it). I got the 3 of pentacles, Ace of Swords, and 10 of swords. I laid down the 3ofP before laying the other two. The first thing I noticed was the 3 pentacles are at the top of the card and that made me hear Snoop Dogg saying, "I got my mind on my money and my money on my mind". This card is about the completion of a project and the recognition earned from doing so. This hits a few points for me. I needed to take care of some financial stuff, and had just done so before I did the cards. The angel on here has started a sculpture, but to me it doesn't look finished. And the lady in the background is like she is saying, when are yo going to finish because I want to purchase it! I need to finish setting up the FB account for Creole Moon Tarot and send out Twitter invites. Ferol over at Living Tarot just gave me a huge compliment the other night on the comment I wrote on her nightly FB question. I've had some very pressing shit to worry about as of late, like, a place to live and all, so this has made me more scattered that the usual (God and Goddess, scary!)  I need to master the art of not getting so damn side-tracked. I am the worst at not finishing projects.
The AofSw (and aside for Rhiannon Faulkner's, this deck has my favorite now) has been on my mind a lot lately. I need to do a post just on it. But this cracked me up and then even more so when I pulled the 10ofSw! I mean, can you get much more of a neon sign that you need there are things that may be very challenging or scary, but I need to see to the end, start to finish! In stead of the usual dread that goes with the 10ofSw, in this reading it just said what one of my dearest friends says when he completes a task, "Done and done!" These two cards show cutting the bullshit and getting it over and done with so you can rest without stressing that there is still more to do. Get'er dun!