A Post of Gratitude

This post is for the sole/soul purpose of expressing gratitude! I realize I have so many Spirits around me who love and want to help me. Sometimes when depression/anxiety is kicking my ass it can be hard to remember that. But it is all a part of expansion and the learning process as a human. So they must allow me and all humans to experience the contrast as Abraham-Hicks would call it ( aka the bullshit). They also teach that gratitude and being in nature are the fastest most definitive ways to feel better and raise your vibration. Yesterday my dear friend Fairy, one of the most amazingly gifted and accurate readers I've ever known, gave me a message from Lord Ganesha. He is Hindu God who removes obstacles and consort of Lakshmi, who let me know recently she was around me and offering to help me. Then I felt Yemaya, who I have not felt in a few months. This mornings oracle card was confirmation of that. Then I received a wonderful care package from New Orleans with gifts that filled me with love and appreciation. Just after openeing it, I stepped outside and received a message via the guardians of Air from my precious Selene! So I will start off with thanking Gansha! If this blog doesn't prove to me I need a Tumbler account nothing will lol.

An offering of delicious British single cream to Gansesha. I used the King of Pentacles for the Universal Goddess tarot which features his love, Lakshmi as the King and he is the elephants in the background. He removes obstacles so that she can usher in blessings. Quite appropriate during this waning moon. In front is smoky quartz to remove negativity and depression and citrine to balnce my 3rd chakra which is a out happiness, empowerment, self-confidence, joy and prosperity. Thank you beautiful Lady of the Fae for all the help and guidance you've been giving me. Thank you Ganesh and Lakshmi.

This was what I got in the mail! Creole coffee!!!! Omg, there are so many things I absolutely love about the UK. The coffee situation is fucking horrific! This was the Ace of Cups if ever there was one lol! And this crystal is something I shall treasure forever. The amount of healing and love that Joshua put into it is unreal. It actually vibrates and filled my whole body with a feeling of love radiating from it like electricity! It was like... Like a film of darkness and weight and shit just started to evaporate and was pulled off of me! That man's healing abilities are so powerful. I am so grateful for these gifts. The time he made in the midst of a whole lot of chaos and shit he is dealing with, and the criminal amount of money it coat to send 2 bricks of coffee and a crystal - $24.75 US! That is just robbery. I am so grateful to Joshua for sending me these things and that SOMEHOW, we are able to be friends. I am grateful to the precious gift of healing crystals bring. I am more motivated to get my shit together and get on track with my Hibiscus Moon Crystal Healing Course than I have been since I first signed up!

This is the message Selene asked the sylphs to show me. I'm not sure if anyone else can see a dog running happily other than me LOL! But I had a deep sense of knowing it was from her, sans the questioning my left brain often does. I love you and miss you more than words can say. Thank you for coming to let me know you are happy. That is what matters most of all. I am so grateful for every second you shared with me! Every walk at 3AM in the rain to go potty, every time you took up the entire bed, every time you looked at me with eyes of pure love. You were a gift from the angelic realm.

Yesterday I felt the presence of Yemaya, African Orisha who is the embodiment of maternal love. In the tarot she would be the Queen of Cups. She found my apartment I used to have on Bourbon St. It was so tiny, but I loved that place so much. I dedicated my bathroom to her, a common thing since she rules the ocean. This was my alatar to her. Today I drew the card titled Ocean. Isn't this deck beautiful. I'm so grateful for Dr. Steven Farmer who created it and the artists who brought the illustrations to life. He explains it to mean allowing yourself to feel whatever emotions that are coming up and not judge or fight against them, even if they are sucky ones like guilt, anger and grief. I need to learn that we feel our emotions, but we are not our emotions. Thank you Yemaya for the happy times I did spend in this wonderful apartment. And for the next one I know you are preparing for me. Ashé Mamma.

 

 

The first Goddess aside from Mother Mary I ever worked with was the Norse Freyja. I haven't worked with her for several years, but I've felt her around me since I've been in the UK. I do so love her and this may be my favorite depiction of her. It's from a deck I no longer have, Doreen Virtue's Goddess Guidance Oracle. Don't know why I associate miragolds with her, but I do.

 

 

 

Yemaya has two sisters she loves dearly. One is Oshun. In tarot she is the Queen of Wands. Yemaya rules the salt waters, but her sister rules the sweet waters, or the rivers. This was her altar I had in that same apartment on Bourbon. Thank you Oshun for giving me laughter, music and making me feel pretty.

 

 

 

The third sister is Oya and she can be the storm, the tornado, or the rainbow that follows it, but is the winds of change. Think the Ace of Swords. She told me I had to come of the UK and could not go back to New Orleans until October. I've ignore her words in the past. Won't make the mistake again I tell ya! I took these beautiful pictures that represent her several weeks apart. Both were quite timely I'd have to say. Thank you Oya for helping me to find my inner warrior and to learn that change is the breath of life itself. Ashé.

 

 

My beloved mermaid sister, LaSirene, Our Lady Star of the Sea! It had been so long since I'd felt you and you made yourself known to me in several ways whilst I was in Cornwall. The altar was one of the three I had for her on Bourbon St. Lol! She is the Haitian Lwa who helps us with self-actualization and thus self love. I adore LaSirene. Thank you my sister for the 3 shooting stars I saw several weeks ago. And for the 13 Matthew and I saw in one night!!! Especially after showing yourself in that magickal photograph he took of both the aves and the Milky Way! When I have the money, I will surely purchase it as well as the latest shooting star he saw last weekend.

Last for this post, but definitely not least is the practice of yoga. It tends to show up as The Hanged Man in tarot readings. It has helped me tremendously to move through this very deep depression/anxiety, fear and grief over the loss of Selene. The benfits of yoga are seemingly limitless. I am most grateful for the Heike, a girl I used to fly with who was the first person to drag me quite reluctantly I might add, to my first yoga class back in 2001 when I lived in Ft. Lauderdale. Also to my angel of health and recovery of my spine and often my mind, Marjorie DeJoie and for the two instructors who made the biggest impression on me while in Philly at 12th St. Gym, Chick and Stephanie.

These are but a few of the gifts, people, gods, Goddesses, Spirits and elementals I am appreciative of. To all of them I say thank you! And to those of you who read this blog. Though I have no clue who any of you are, I know there are those who do. And it brings me a lot of healing to know my words matter, and that they bring healing at times to you.

Namaste.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

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Person of the Week - Queen of Wands - Day 54

Tonight I shuffled my Hanson-Roberts deck for my Person of the Week. I got the Queen of Wands and Tina Turner is a perfect example of this court card. The woman survived an abusive childhood and then marriage yet was a loving mother and one of the most successful women non the planet. The picture above is her making the cover of Vogue Germany at age 73 and looking like every bit the sex goddess she did in the 60's! The QofW is a fiercely independent and bold woman who grabs life by the balls and makes no apologies for it. She wants to experience all of the joy and possibility it has to offer. She can do 37 things in one day and make it seem effortless. As a mom she is absolutely amazing. She is the woman who will get up and make sure her young ones get a good breakfast. It may be instant grits or Eggo's, but they'll get fed. She will not only be at their football games, she'll most likely be on the field helping them practice. The woman seems to have an endless source of energy and her laughter is And she is almost always a total sex kitten. As a matter if fact, she often comes up as the "other woman" in readings. Boy could I tell you a story about the first to me that happened lmao! Holy shit was that awkward considering the client's wife was sitting right there!

The QofW can have a wicked temper. She will get right up in your face and rip you a new ass. She can be pushy, brazen and bossy, but she is one of the most wonderful and true friends you can have.

 

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Wonder Woman Challenge

I have so much respect for those of you who can post everyday, the lovely Chloe at Inner Whispers being the first who comes to mind. I swear that woman would give Linda Carter a run for her money. I'm in awe of her seemingly effortless energy given the multitiude of responsibilities she has. So I've decided to attempt to challenge myself to make a post a day. This means I'd do wise to keep my posts very short and not go into too much depth when interpreting the cards. Not at all my style. But I think this will prove to be extremely beneficial, maybe even imperative. As a professional reader, I always go way over the scheduled time. Combined with the fact that my readings tend to go very deep, it's killing me y'all. I. Am. SO fucking burned out! And given the many challenges in my personal life, some of which include getting hit by a taxi while riding my bike and my brother being killed two weeks after that, I am about to fall apart - and not necessarily at he seams. But I digress... This whole giving-till-it-hurts bullshit really comes down to my own insecurities and not feeling like I'm giving enough, which I suppose means not feeling like I'm good enough. So on that note, I'm gonna hush with explaining myself and start my new discipline.

Question: Should I start doing a post a day?

Card 1. If I do? - Queen of Wands - Ha! My "Wonder Woman" card! I will have such a rewarding feeling of accomplishment and pride. It will prove to me what everyone else seems to see so clearly, that I am an amazing reader. I will think more highly of mySelf, adopt more of a Leo attitude of confidence and get back to see tarot as a joy, not drudgery. An awful truth, but that's what it it on the verge of becoming. Look how that candle to the right (the future) is almost melted to nothing.

*Crystal Visions Tarot from U.S. Games

 

 

Card 2. If I don't? - Knight of Pentacles - Dear God look how tired this guy and his horse is! I need to work smarter, NOT harder! Nothing more need be said!

 

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Reading For a Client: To Trust or Not To Trust?

A client wanted to know if she should or should not trust a certain person  she knows. I used the Faulkner Tarot because it is black and white photography and my client is a very give-it-to-me-straight kinda girl. And boy did it! There isn't even a question about the answer to this!

1-3. If you do trust said person, what will be the result? 8 of swords, Queen of Wands, The Tower XVI- Dammnnn Gina! (a quote from the show Martin lmao) I mean dang. The short answer; aww HELL NO!!! But let's break this down as to why.

1. 8 of Swords- This is a sneaky, sneaky person who likes to play the victim card. I feel like if you trust her you will be giving her power or authority over you and she will use this against you and somehow make it look like you are to blame. Or if she gets caught playing her deceit, she will say that she had no choice *doe-eyed look* That she couldn't make everyone happy and she is so sorry but she was only doing what she had to. The situation was out of her hands. But that is a load of crap! This 8ofSw is saying to me that need to be very cautious who you say what to about this person or situation. She or someone else eavesdrops or reads emails or listens in on conversations when no one is aware. If you trust her, you are leaving the door wide open for her to hit you with some kind of surprise attack, and judging from the rest of the cards in this set, it will really bite you in the ass! But we'll get to that in a minute.

2. Queen of Wands- I keep feeling like this is a work situation, office politics crap. The person in question is a climber. You know, one of those who would say they would hand in your report to the boss since they are going into her office *smile like Brie from Desperate Housewives*. And on the way there, replace your quotes or spread sheet with the wrong info. Or they would answer your phone and "be sure that you get the message asap!" *Brie smile* and transpose the numbers or just never even write them down. Then go and handle the situation herself. You look like an ass, she looks like a rock star. Why? Because she A. took care of the situation and made sure the customer was happy (so the boss thinks she is so pro-active and efficient, a problem solver) and B. she just went ahead and took care of that for you since she knew you were just swamped! (aka you are an incompetent employee and she is all of those obnoxious corporate America terms that make us want to puke like "team-player" and "crew resource management" *Brie smile*  (dear God I hope this about work since I keep feeling that so strongly. Either way, do NOT trust this person!!) She fights nasty. She is smug and she is a liar. But do not underestimate your opponent! She is one very very sharp cookie! She is power-hungry and loves to be right. She totally enjoys making others look foolish so she can come out smelling like a rose. Think that chick from The Hand that rocks the Cradle or Eli Gold on The Good Wife. Or, although I love this character, Constance from American Horror Story. Vindictive, cunning, and duplicitous. Nasty!

3. The Tower XVI-  Man.... whew! Just keep one eye open at all times and steer clear of this person! Do not give them even a slight hint that you are nervous about them, that will only fuel the fire with a personality like this! This person is a predator man, very destructive. But not everyone else may see her that way. She may appear to be harmless, "oh, you know how she is. It's not big deal." Uhh... yeah, it is a very big deal! Again, that whole sweet little victim routine. They are very destructive and if you let your guard down and trust them, it will somehow be worse than what you can see right now. Something will catch you totally off guard and will blow up in your face and there will be hell to pay. Do not goad her into a battle, but like they say when you think a predator is following you or in a elevator with you to make eye contact. Don't start any fires, but let them know that you have got their number "Hi there. How are you today? I'm well thank you." *Brie smile*

If you trust this person, you will rue the day!

4-6. If you don't trust this person, what will it get you? The Lovers VI, The Star XVII, Knight of Cups- This whole set speaks to making choices based on intellect as well as gut instincts and being happier for it.

4. The Lovers VI- This card is so often about romantic relationships. So if I am wrong about this being a work situation, still don't trust her. She is a divide and conquer sort. The Lovers is ruled by the planet Mercury, the planet of communication and intellect. It is also about blending the intellect with what you are passionate about, making choices that ring true in your head but also in your heart. I feel like you already know you can't trust this person and you have had an experience or two that substantiates your suspicions. If you don't trust her, there is some relationship that will be much better for it. No matter how much someone else thinks she is harmless, she ain't! If it's a co-worker, a boss, a lover, a family member, they may be blind to this person's true nature. You aren't and I think you know why. Don't forget it.

5. The Star XVII- The Star is all about hope, faith, trust even when you can't see why. Trust your gut! I also think that there is someone else who has got your back in this situation, acts as your guardian angel, a true friend. Maybe they know how she really is and will give you heads up on things. I still would let that person do more of the talking and you do the listening though. Not trusting her will keep you safe and somehow not let your faith in someone, or something be tainted. Maybe your faith in humanity, that not everyone is out to get you and it is ok to allow certain people in. Again, go with your gut.

6. Knight of Cups- You will be much happier and have emotional contentment if you don't trust said person. Peace of mind is priceless.

7. What is hidden that you need to know?- 8 of pentacles- Ok the dang card is an office scene with a coffee cup that has the word "Boss" written on it. Again, is this a work situation? Is this chick trying to take your job, or get a promotion so she has authority over you? Or even if it isn't work related, she wants to have you at a definite disadvantage. I keep hearing that there are lies and something to do with communication that is sneaky.

8. Advice- King of Wands- Again, just keep acting like it's all no big deal, she is no big deal and she doesn't even phase you. Look her in the eye and smile when you see her *Brie* but don't make it overly obvious that you know she is a wench. She is the type who will never ever let anyone see her sweat! She is cocky and loves to be in control and she is very quick on her feet. Always keep the upper hand by doing what you need to but ignoring her. She will hate that lol. But do not let either her or this situation consume you. Stay focused on what is most important, and that is your own happiness and peace. If you let this be at the forefront of your thoughts all of the time, then she has won in all actuality. Because you know her game, treat her as no more than the annoying gnat at the picnic that she is.

I hope this is helpful and gives you the information you need to make the best choices.

So the Queen of Wands Called

I've been on the fence for about a month as to whether or not I will move to New Orleans. I got the most amazing reading fro the Stephanie The Quirky Empress that screamed in no uncertain terms what would be the best course of action. But as so often with me, fear and doubt keep me in limbo. Quite often that fear is related to what others will think or will I somehow let them down. When will I ever start living for ME and stop thinking that doing so makes me an asshole or ungrateful for any kindness others have shown. It keeps me in a vicious cycle of putting myself in the position of needing help. Or maybe the false belief that I do because I owe someone. What the hell ever....

So out of the blue, one of my most trusted, loyal and wise g/f's calls, Victoria. Her name is perfectly suited for this strong Leo Queen of Wands,  Domme, victorious and regal. She always seems to sense when I am going through some shit that she can offer her words of wisdom and the wonderful confidence she always brings out of me. She reminded me that I am 39 with no kids and no job; the world is mine to shape and create into whatever I want and anyone who doesn't like it or approve can kiss my ass. Or not so much even kiss my ass, because that infers hostility, and it's not about that. That would be wasted energy. It's about me doing whatever will make my soul truly happy and not what will make OTHERS happy at my soul's expense. I've done it so many times. I've got a completely fresh canvas to create the scene I want to experience everyday. She reminded me of how she put all her shit in her car and moved to Miami. And the time she bought a oneway ticket and moved from Connecticut to San Diego with on e suitcase. She is one of the most dynamic, powerful women I've ever known. And one of the most wonderful things about her is that she loves helping other people find and cultivate their own power as well. It took me years to see that just like every single human being, she has fears and doubts. Even when we were room mates, I didn't see that. Now I see that the difference between her and the masses is that she faces shit head on and she doesn't let anyone else govern who she is. When people are foolish enough to question her about what she is doing or why, she will start of with saying, "I think I'm minding my business..." You'd be advised to quit while you're ahead at that point LOL!

Another thing she pointed out is that I should move here because I truly want to, not because it's familiar and I'm too fearful to move anywhere else. She also reminded me of how much I love makeup artistry and that I am very good at it. (WHY is it still so hard for me to compliment myself??)

So of course, just as I am about 80% committed to the calling my soul feels to move home to New Orleans ( I do realize how melodramatic that sounds, but it really is how it feels), Victoria calls after not talking to her for like 3 or 4 months. Since I just opened my brand new Tarot of Vampyres that I absolutley freaking adore, I have to use the QofW from that deck to tell my friend/big sister/confidant how much I love and appreciate her. 

An Interview With the Tarot of the Sweet Twilight

I just got my Tarot of the Sweet Twilight and couldn't be happier with it! The colors are so vivid and gorgeous! I'll be so glad when I have a scanner so the true beauty of the cards can be seen. They are so dream-like, so rich and vibrant! Looking at them is not like looking at still pictures, but at very slow motion videos. They remind me of a Johnny Depp/Tim Burton colaboration. I think I may have to start reviewing my decks because I have so many and I love them all. But I can say that this one will remain very high on my list of favorites! Anyway, I remembered a spread I saw on the blog of a wonderful lady (a fellow Capricorn--tee-hee hee!) names Lisa from the UK. Please check out her blog, as I have included a link to it. She has created two other blogs and doesn't update this one very often anymore which I am very sad to say because I learned so much from her. But she has tons of entries and is very passionate about tarot as means of healing. This spread is really cool because it gives you a chance to explore what a particular deck has to offer and how to best communicate with it.


        An Interview With the Tarot of the Sweet Twilight
8 of Pentacles: This card jumped out as I was shuffling. This deck will make me a stronger reader, give me the training I need to advance my skills and to finally take it pro. It has a lot to teach me. The pentacles that are buried show my potential for improving my skills. I need to relax and soak up the knowledge.

1. What is your most important characteristic? The Wheel of Fortune X
I own so many decks, had so many ups and downs, been round and round with myself about if I am or ever will be a "good" or "qualified" reader. The first thing that stands out in this card is the little girl's ears. I will be able to hear my guides even better. It will force me to have to listen to them and to trust that they won't let me fall. The Wheel also has a strong association to money, so I'm really feeling that I will use this deck to make money. Is that a broken heart or a set of lips at the bottom of the tree?? It will enable me to speak to people with compassion to bring healing and honesty. This is also my card in numerology that is the sum of my birthday (I forget what it is called) so I have a strong connection to it and the Magician I. This deck is going to prove to be very important to my growth as a reader.

2. What are your strengths? Ace of Swords
Well if this doesn't make all the sense in the world lol. This Ace is all about a new beginning that you may not think you are ready for and may even be forced upon you, so it is kinda scary. But you will be so glad you went for the ride. This deck is so bold, look at the explosion of vibrant colors and the raw emotions. This gorgeous woman is so calm and so confident as she pulls her sword out of its scabbard. This deck is confident so it expects I will honor it by being so as well. It's strength is in cutting through the shit that causes me to doubt myself.

3. Limitations? 9 of Wands
In the LWB it says "the joy of actually making it pushes tiredness into the background." I'm not sure is if this deck has any limits except any that I impose upon it. The girl has the sword in her hands. It's like she has gone from in the Ace of Swords to this place carrying her confidence, or it has carried and sustained her. She has come from those clouds in the background, the dark times of mot having a clear mind or not always knowing where she is going to end up, but she persevered and now she is on top. This woman says there are no limits once you work beyond your fear and doubt.

4. What are you here to teach me? 4 of Cups
Stop moping, get of your ass, and take action. She's sitting on top of the house. I've got to get out of the house and do readings and not just sit here and to them on my computer. Or if I do, branch out and do reading over the web. She has wings, yet she refuses to fly!! And she is fishing from a tiny cup and not from a lake, river or ocean; stop selling myself short and limiting myself.

5. How can I best work with you? Queen of Wands
This Queen is the mover and shaker. She's active and alive. She is all about work and energy. She is a career woman who can balance all the various aspects of her busy life. Here she looks so sad because she is alone and just standing there. This Queen thrives on being busy. The flowers around her head say she has so many beautiful thoughts that deserve to be expressed and shared with others. It reminds me of the most beautiful compliment any man has ever given me, and he is the King of Wands (maybe more of the Knight--grow up please), but he told me "you have the most beautiful mind of anybody I have ever known." I can best work with this gorgeous deck by seeing my own beauty and by by embracing the fact that this is a viable source of income!

6.Potential outcome: Death XIII
Something big is gonna jump of in the next three months. This card is associated with the sign of Scorpio, which is the sign of depth and passion. I am so passionate about tarot and helping others to empower themselves through it. This may be the most beautiful Death XIII card I have ever seen. It's like she is just sleeping and the Grim Reaper is more like experience and wisdom that is carrying her to the next phase, getting her away from the barren surroundings that are so desolate. The potential outcome is awakening me, transforming my gift and breathing life into my readings.

Bottom Line: The Hanged Man XII
Break free from my own self-imposed restrictions. I've been bullshitting for to long. This can be the dawn of a new day for me as a reader, so stop reading damn tarot books and just read the damn cards woman!

Going to See the Queen of Wands, the King of Pentacles, and 3 Princess of Pentacles today

LOL!! Well if this isn't crystal clear confirmation! I'm going in a few hours to see my g/f Jacqui and help her for a day while she has lasiks surgery. She is a Sag. She actuaclly has 3 daughters whom  I love and adore, and this cards meaning and the interpretation with Nathalie doing ten things at once is dead on lol! Her husband is a Virgo who drives a really sweet little sports car quite similar to the one on the card. She just told me about an amazing possible new bussisness opportunity for me that could be pretty profitable! I see myself getting off the dark island and going toward the end of that rainbow.