A Message From the Goddess Rhiannon

So I asked my guides and angels, "What do you want me to know right now?" (I am so sorry for the crappy picture! Scanner/printer gods, hear my plea! lol) Since I am supposed to have been at the gym, the first things that this says loud and clear is to get off my ass and put it on the EFX lol. I really do not like to exercise, but  the benefit can not be denied. Mental clarity as well as physical action, swords. This is the Goddess Rhiannon. So this is now telling me a couple of other things. First, I needed a refresher on Her, so I found some cool info at this site, http://www.goddessgift.com/goddess-myths/celtic_goddess_rhiannon.htm  The author summed Her story up like this: The story of the Celtic goddess Rhiannon reminds us of the healing power of humor, tears, and forgiveness.  The goddess Rhiannon is a goddess of movement and change who remains steadfast, comforting us in times of crisis and of loss.

I definitely am still in a time of crisis and lots of changes I need what's interesting is that when I did my morning prayers, I specifically focused on accepting and welcoming change and that needs to change with my thoughts and attitude. So a Swords card makes all the sense in the world and even more so this particular one now that I have learned even more about Rhiannon.

The other thing this says is that I need to pull out my Faulkner Tarot, which was actually gifted to me my Rhiannon Faulkner herself. I am planning to go to Washington DC this weekend to do some professional readings, please pray that scheduling goes off without a hitch so this can actually happen. It's a big step for my scaredy-cat ass, so wish my luck lol! I will make sure it is one of the decks I bring.  Also that I need to take her up on her offer to be an approved instructor for her deck.

3 Cards, All 3 Are 10's

I'm so tired, but I had to ask the cards about a situation. I wrote an email today and the very very short version of the story is that I  told certain someone today that I needed to distance myself from him because I feel more for him that he feels for me or is capable of showing. I was a big girl and made sure that I was very honest but not all "girl' and melodramatic and doing the emotional blackmail crap. So I asked the cards just now what is going on with him in light of that. I tried a little trick Rhiannon taught me where as to imagine a huge sailors rope coming from around me and crossing in a figure 8 and looping around him to feel his energy. (If you try this always be sure that at the end of the reading you are doing, imagine a huge pair of scissors cutting the rope and free the connection. You do not want to remain pulling and carrying around another's emotions like that! It's not healthy for either party.) Since there is such a strong bond between us, this was not at all hard to do with him. I instantly felt sick to my stomach and very heavy and confused. I used my Universal Goddess deck which is one of my very favorite decks and became the one I used for readings about him or us. Here are the cards:
 10 of Swords, 10 of Pentacles, and The Wheel of Fortune X

3 cards, all 10's. WTF.

An ending, a new beginning, and a cycle that continues. The 10 of Pentacles shows what I want. I'm 39, no kids and never been married. He's 37,  has 3 kids and is an amazing single dad. I want to get married. To him?? Not sure, but I at least want a serious, committed relationship with him to find that out. I love how warm and inviting the Japanese goddess Ben Satien is and that's what I want. A warm home filled with love and family and friends. We both love to have people over and eat and hang out. And this card is about family and legacy. I told him today that "I am not happy with how my life is going and that at 39 I need to get my head out of my ass and get my shit together". 10 of Swords shows how we both feel in a lot of ways. I'm not at all a victim in this, but I am sad because I don't want it to be this way. Take note of the gold ring in the water. He's sad because to quote the LWB "I am the innocent victim of a cruel curse. I am alone, afraid and desperate in this gloomy forest." Now though he would never in a million years say this, it describes a lot of what he feels. In addition to other personal issues, he is an Iraq War Veteran. That kinda says it all. And then there is The Wheel X. The those white flowers Arianrhod has floating about makes me think of how I threw caution to the wind by being extremely upfront in telling him what I did without any expectation. Hope? Yes, but no expectations. I live as the complete east coast and he one the complete west. If I were still a flight attendant, this would be totally workable. But as of the foreseeable future, I'm not one. She looks so free, and there is a certain freedom from taking the weight off of myself by being so upfront. The Wheel of Fortune is about karma and fate and the ups and downs of life. We have had many many ups and downs and there is an extremely strong karmic connection between us. One way is the fact that his mother who is on the other side talks to me so often. But I had to say what I did today. And I feel like those flowers are saying "let the chips fall where they may". The blue of her dress says be at peace with whatever happens.

I wonder what getting three 10's means!? I know 10's are all about starting over, re-generation. For me they are also about a transition. I see 9's as an ending, and 1's as a new beginning, but 10's as that in between phase of regrouping and transition from one phase to the next. Kinda like Purgatory for Catholics. And I am tired of feeling like I'm in limbo with this cat.

The bottom card is one that I so very often get with him, the 9 of Wands. (So we have three 10's and one 9......) I absolutely love this interpretation of this card! It is by far my favorite 9ofW in any deck. It is the goddess of the winter solstice, Angerona. The LWB says it so beautifully, " Silence is the mother that never asks questions but welcomes you silently between her benevolent arms when you are tired and uncertain." How beautiful is that. And since he lives in Portland, those evergreens covered in snow are so fitting. The snow on the wooden fence post to symbolize the rods is like telling him it's ok to stop fighting, lay down your arms, the war is over my baby. I see myself posed as Angerona is, welcoming him home, not asking pointed questions or forcing him to discuss anything, though I know he needs to free himself of the pain in his soul. And most of all, not judging, just greeting him with acceptance and love.

As far as E.D. , there is one


For shits and giggles, I decided to turn over another card. Don't you know it was the King of Wands. He's a Sag.

The Lovers VI

Derek Morgan: Good morning princess.
Penelope Garcia: [quickly says] Good morning.
[and keeps walking]
Derek Morgan: Pump, ya breaks.
[Derek beckones Penelope back to him]
Derek Morgan: Every day I say 'Good morning' and every morning you say 'I'll show you a good morning, hotstuff.' Everyday. But not today?
Penelope Garcia: I hate profilers. Do you know that?
Derek Morgan: Spit it out.
Penelope Garcia: ...Fine. I met a guy. 


I love to the tv show Criminal Minds. I've been known to watch 3 or 4 episodes back to back. I guess it comes from that need to know that there are people who work to keep the bad guys away. And I really love the characters. I remember seeing a deck of tarot cards online some years back where the creator used actors or people from the entertainment industry on the cards. So I decided to come up with a list of my own in order to help me connect with the cards on a more personal level. I had to start this with my favorite character of all on the show, Penelope Garcia. In fact, she is gonna be on at least two cards so far. Another of my favorite character is Derek Morgan. If you watch the show, you'll totally see how I chose them together for The Lovers VI card.

The Lovers card is about, well...love. It's also about choice. The love aspect is beautiful, wonderful passionate, romantic love. The choice aspect is one that must be made and is a huge decision that you face, and you feel quite passionately about it too. My two favorite characters on the show are so truly in love, it's like everything you ever (well, everything a least that I ever) dared hope for. They know each other so well, maybe even better than they know themselves. The connection of friendship between the two of them is so strong, the desire and passion is palpable! They trust each other implicitly and in their line of work as FBI agents who profile and track some of the most horrible criminals imaginable, that says a whole lot. The good times we share with people so often form our relationships, but the hard times are what can make them iron clad. These two have shared both extremes and the bond between them just keeps getting stronger. Yet they continuously make the choice to not act on what they feel and actually take things to the next level to an actual relationship. It drives me completely nuts but I can kinda understand why they choose what they do. There is so much at stake if they did choose to act on what they feel. Careers could be lost, maybe even lives. I feel pretty passionate about these characters, so I choose to keep watching them. I'll bet my bottom dollar that the producers of the show will choose to finally let them get together when the viewing audience no longer chooses it to be one of the top ranking shows on tv.

I've chosen to pull out The Lovers VI card from a few different decks I own and love to show some of the various interpretations of it.

ATL-PHL: Moving Day 2/15/11

I'm on the plane right now on the way back to Philly. Today's message is  instantly clear to me. Don't worry about the things that have brought me down or could keep me in a state of depression because I have so much to be grateful for. I have created a lot of good fortune and I will be receiving a lot of it today.

I got the 4 of Cups, 6 of Pentacles, and the 9 of Wands. (very surprised there are only minor arcana.) When I look t the 4ofC today it's like I see myself seeing things that I want but I don't have. I have to believe that I can acquire anything I want, I just have to believe that it is possible, focus, and work for it. It's also saying to me that I can not sit around the house anymore, I have got to be active and go do things in spite of how broke I am right now. The 6ofP is the fact that Helen has offered for me to stay with her. And hell, I won't have to every say again that I actually live in fucking New Jersey LOL!! Ugh!!  I also feel like that may be her mamma Carol saying she wants Helen to do it. And not just Helen, but how many wonderful people who love and care about me and are so kind a gracious to me! I am one lucky ass chick!!! The 9ofW says for me to not be defensive and angry or bitter, but to use my energy to get my life on the track I want to be on.  I do have somewhere to go for now. In this deck, this card represents the Winter Solstice; it's always darkest before the dawn. That now is the time to let go and release old patterns that aren't good for me and plan for the future I want to create. 9's are about transition and wands are energy, creativity, drive, work, passion. I have a lot of hard work ahead of me, but I also have a whole lot to be grateful for.

Lessons Learned

The first thing I thought of when I saw the first card was my sister in Atl who I have been visiting. It's the Chinese goddess NuKua (my sister is half Chinese). The 8 of Pentacles is all about learning, education and promotion. As I looked at the picture I thought of how I taught her about Nichiren Buddhism. Also how much I have learned about my life while I have been here and how much she has taught me, especially about the amazing, unbreakable bond we have after almost a lifetime of friendship. Of how she helped me to pull myself out of the nasty mud of depression I was in, and put up with my crazy ass and still loved me through it . So I decided to look up some more info in NuKua and will add a link to that. Thalia Took, creator of The Goddess Oracle Deck, said, "She is the tempering influence that calms situations and brings level-headedness." (I have been watching the creation of this deck for years and can NOT WAIT for it to be complete so I can be one of the first to purchase it!) This really sums up how my sister has helped me deal with the craziness that has just unfolded in my life. I also notice the huge bright light that looks like a portal that the people are walking into as they leave Her. It says to me that I am leaving ATL to walk into a very bright future.

The next card says the choice is mine, the 2 of Swords. It also says not to be angry with my old room mate, to choose to bury the hatchet that I literally have been feeling with the stabbing pains between my shoulder blades.  Also not to forget the lessons learned and to make much better choices about my life. The presence of earth cards and an air card shows I need to not be so fixed and be more flexible so I can take decisive action, something I suck at.

The  on the bottom of the deck says the bottom line is to see how very fortunate I am and actually have always been throughout my life in so many ways no matter how dark things may have been and to be grateful for all the many blessings I have been given and the good fortune I have created.
Also how very fortunate I am that my sister found me after all these years!!!  Aces are all about new beginnings, and we have a whole new beginning to our relationship. And I have a whole new beginning to my life. The A of P is all about something firmly rooted that continues to grow and prosper and produce tangible results that are quite valuable.

This woman's quilting I found on Flickr is so beautiful and I really like her interpretation on the Goddess NuKua.

Like Night and Day

I am really trying to go more with an intuitive approach to my readings as opposed to the standard book meanings. So the cards today instantly made me think of the situation with my room mate. The 2 of Pentacles instantly said to me "like night and day" which is what I have been saying about her actions. This is SOOO not like the person I've known so well, lived with and shared so much with!! I see the balancing act going on in her going back and forth inside to make this decision and the back and forth that she has been going through with the "who" that I know is at the root of this decision. Her head is spinning. And that mutha fucker's card is the other one I pulled, so that confirms my though process. The King of Cups. It's like the king on the card is sitting on a pedestal, which she puts him on, the cup raised like he is expecting her to fill it. If I still did reversals, I know this would have come up reversed! The K of C at his negative aspects is a very moody, emotionally manipulative, selfish, controlling, vindictive person. (Ask me how I know!! Only mine was a Scorpio not a Cancer! Yikes!) The look on her face is somber, and God knows his ass is always so miserable and grumpy! Which sux because she is so vivacious and full of love and life, but he sucks that right our her her, and that's what the waterfall looks like to me. Her energy just being sucked and drained. The bottom card is the 8 of Wands, which explains how fast this all jumped off. It confirms that I have to be a very big person and get over my hurt feelings and stay in communication with her, that it's not about me right now, crazy as that sounds. I don't like this shit. Not one bit. I think that oddly enough, this is all gonna be a good thing for me, but a very bad thing for her. Hell, maybe the butterflies even mean that it will transform both of us to something even better. 

Let My People Go!

I got this spread from a wonderful blog I've been reading from the Tarot Dame and give her 100% of the credit for it. It's the Law of Attraction spread.

1.What am I currently attracting right now? (due to how I am currently vibrating)

Ace of Wands Holy shit! For someone having as crappy a day as I've had this is quite the pleasant surprise! It's the Bast, goddess of cats. She is telling me it is time for me to start out on the path of independence and bravery. To hold my head high and see all this crap as a golden opportunity to spark my creativity on how I want to make the life I want. I hear to things: the 70's disco song Fire In the Sky and the bible quote "let my people go!" I've been leading a dry barren existence and all this is really a way out. I wonder if those pyramids mean Vegas??

2. What do I need to do to raise my vibration to the next level?

Princess of Swords Be direct and clear! SET GOALS AND KEEP MY EYES FIRMLY FIXED ON THE POINT OF VICTORY!!! The new moon says to me that new opportunities are on the rise. The Goddess is watching over me. Don't be afraid of the uphill battles, don't be discouraged! 

3.What will I attract when I do?

Justice XI A firm grasp of the life I truly deserve. I will not have to bow down to anyone again! And I will change my karma. This is Ma'at the goddess of justice and karma. And since this card is here and it's next to the Pnc of Sw I really think that my whole court case crap will be ending sooner than I thought. Actually, Rhiannon said in 10 weeks and that was like 3 weeks ago, so we'll see what happens.

A Tale of Two Queens

"I am the Queen of Swords and this is my tale.

I have high expectations for my children. Equally high are my ideals for the people of my kingdom.

It takes a certain rigidity to face the gravity of my responsibilities. This kingdom of Swords is often a place of conflict. I wield my intelligence and discernment to gain justice.

And justice is my aim. I am no stranger to the darker sides of the human mind. I know how errant thought can bring about weakness, scandal and rot in a society. My watchful eye is vigilant.

I have a gift in seeing all injustice and dishonesty, even if it is a faint flicker on the horizon.I view corruption in others as a personal assault. Thus, I will root it out, extinguish it and will have order restored.

As the Queen of Swords I must hold myself with high dignity. I demand compliance for the better good of the kingdom, and I will be respected in my authority.

The reward for loyalty is my kindness. And, those who are in my favor are among the most honored in my realm.

It is my nature to be kind, although I do not have the luxury of revealing this facet. In my position, showing softness is considered a sign of weakness, and I must always gird myself, remaining regal and strong to my subjects.

As the Queen of Swords, my station is a lonely one. However, I am accustomed to solitary. Indeed, my isolation has caused me to be extremely independent.

Because of my independence, I rarely seek counsel from outside parties. I trust my own intuition implicitly. I am rarely wrong about my instincts.

When I am not governing or consumed with the responsibilities of my family and subjects, I spend my time in academia. A sharp and trained mind is a sign of a well-developed and skilled woman.

One of my children once commented that I seem distant and sad. This cut me to the core. Truth be known, deep beneath my waters moves an unbridled heart, filled with passion and sensitivity. To be sure, my waters run deep.

But the warmth of my love must often be cooled in the face of my duties and obligations. If, having a streamlined, organized and effective rule means trading a bit of emotion for austerity - so be it. As the Queen of Swords, I cannot compromise.

My advisors have told me that in my elderly years I will be able to devote more attention to the softer aspects of living that churns within me. Until then, the tending of the gardens of my tenderness will have to wait. For now, being the Queen of Swords permits nothing to prohibit the proper rearing of my children and kingdom.

I have dark hair with equally dark eyes. I am told I am beautiful, but I give this little attention unless it serves me in royal negotiations. I have noticed I have a strong jaw bone (mirroring my strong will). I tend to be heavy-set, but this is to my advantagebecause it gives me more presence. I seem larger than life when I walk into a room. My presence is such, people would be compelled to bow to me even if I were not queen.

Should I visit you in the cards, I will tell you get your affairs in order. Set about organizing your thoughts. Untidiness, disorder of any kind is unacceptable. The time for play and farce is after the tasks at hand is accomplished. You may balk at my austere ways, but I tell you, they are effective in results. Further, my tactics, although forceful, always command respect."

"I am the Queen of Cups and this is my tale. What does matter is love, and family. I love my children, and am an excellent mother, devoting plenty of time and nurturing to them. I selflessly provide them with the motherly care necessary to their wellbeing. I see to it they lack for nothing. Part of that selfless love comes from a deep knowing that all life comes from love. Love is life, and life is love. Most of my actions come from this understanding, and this creed has served me very well.

           I am all these things and so much more.....

Daily Reading 2/7/11

The first thing I think of as I see these cards is about this blog; emotional communication. The Moon XVIII is such a powerful card for me. I've never understood why a lot of readers don't see all the wonderful positive things I feel with it.  For me it does hold the traditional meanings: hidden situations and issues not yet seen or about to come to light, emotions, karmic patterns, hidden agendas, even the deception. But for me I feel so much more! Romance and sensuality, and mysticism! I think of New Orleans and how seductive she is, of deep emotional connections, of passion, be it with regard to a person or something else that moves you deeply. I love how peaceful and at ease with confidence the goddess Selene is pictured here and the almost irridescent glow of the moonlight on her skin and dress.

Being next to the 8 of Wands I  feel the positive sides of the Moon confirmed. And especially so as Tisa and I sit here watching True Blood lol! Or maybe it's for another reason from today ;) lol.... I'm still in a state of pleasant surprise.

Daily Reading

Using my U. G. deck this is what I got for today. 6 of Wands. Wait...I just noticed the cards are 6,7,8 and in that order so that suggests a clear progression of things. I see in the 6 of wands, the card of victory, the gorgeous warrior Goddess Andraste. As I her shield Joan of Arc comes to mind, a fierce warrior who fights for the rights of her people who clearly admire and respect her. She is like a phoenix rising. As I see Bleodwyn in the 7 of Swords next to her I'm first thinking of my inner Dominatrix lol. And with the 8 of Wands being communication and shit jumping off quick, fast and in a hurry, I wonder how this could possibly pertain to today?? Is it me remembering the outfit the drag queen Jealouse' had on last night lol? Maybe since it's SuperBowl Sunday and my Stillerz are playing, it is showing our victory and how we are gonna kill the Packers and celebrate and I'll be communicating a lot with people via phone and text and FB. The fire and celebration in the first card, the gold draped on Bloedwyn who was a killer (although I hope the officials are fair and there isn't any cheating since the 7 of S is the sneaky bastard card! Maybe it just means we will win by playing not only hard Steeler football, but by playing smarter!) and then in card three we are happily on the green of the field. So the it would read: Victory by cunning and well planned execution ends in celebration. Hmm. 

Oh my Goddess!

Omg, I just sat here and chanted for an hour!! I'm SO proud of myself!! (an emotion I REALLY need to feel with regard to my Self far more often than I do!) It was only supposed to be for 15 min, but before I knew it, I'd rocked out an hour! Anxiety was really starting to creep up on me again. My roomate has never not talked to me, unless of course her fucking b/f was somehow involved in it. But I've always been there, and I am now in Atlanta. So I have no idea what the hell is going on that has her not speaking tome other than to say she is in her Cancerian shell. Well, actually I guess I do have an idea. Dude is somehow involved. Now exactly how, that I don't know. But it has my paranoia working overtime! So I chanted on it. I also chanted on trying to narrow my focus, be specific in my prayers: I want my own home. Fuck the how it's gonna happen, just that I want it so make it happen! Also for strength, clarity, and trust in myself and that the Universe supports me and will open my life up to receive all the things I need and a hell of a lot of what I want. And for the love of God for the fucking energy and drive to get off my trifflin' ass and DO! Do what it takes. I kill me with how I will pray, but can't get the drive or the balls to take action! Like just cause I want some shit I ain't gotta work for it!! For real?!! So of course went to my girl LoFlow's blog and got the guidance and support it always provides.

So as  was just about at 55 min, I grabbed my Universal Goddess deck and asked what did my guides want me to take away from the past hour of chanting. Why did they give me all major archana.  And don't you know the first damn card is the High Priestess II! My favorite card of the tarot!   
I've been know to not buy a deck just based on whether or not I like that person's interpretation of her. As Rhiannon says, I live my life by that card. For me she is The Goddess, the epitome of what I think a woman is/ought to strive to be. And I think that having Isis shown in this deck is brilliant. She was a mistress of magick,  healer, wife, mother, lover, friend, homemaker, equal companion to her husband, leader, loving, dominant creatrix.  The first thing I notice is the gorgeous ultra-violet color of the sky. I think this whole Violette Kitty blog is gonna be so much deeper in my healing and growth than I can possibly imagine. Then I was drawn to her arms uplifted to the violette sky. I always hear the song by Groove Theory, "lift your head to the sky and keep trying. Believe in you and it will take you higher". I posses all of these qualities within myself. I have got to first believe that with every fiber of my being and then make the moves to bring it to reality. When I looked at the pyramid I could see Criss Angel hovering over it. I also heard Florence & The Machine "Heavy In Your Arms" I freakin' love that damn song!! I'm gonna have to listen to the lyrics to see how it applies.

Next is Judgment XX (didn't  I just get this card the other day in my LotD deck??) This daimoku just caused a major shift, moved some major crap! A new dimension just opened up and I need to trust my guides and my inner wisdom to get my ass to the to the next level. Which perfectly flows to the next card,  Strength VIII. The red sky at the top of card makes me think of the power of one's mind and the chariot about the fact that I got The Chariot card the other day and I need to get control of my emotions and get out of my own head so damn much, and that will give way to having the strength to face my fears and yoke them up like she has this snake on the card. I can hear her saying, "Look bitch, I'm not having your shit no more! I"M running shit from here on out! So don't fuck with me!"

Free ya mind, ya ass'll follow!


*now WHY the bloody hell will it only take the code for the H.P.!!?! So in spite of the past 1/2 of life I just used to get the other cards pictured on here from the site I found them on that has a share button, that's why she is the only card pictured! Really!? I mean...really...! But I did figure out how to ass links! Yay! So if you'd like to see the cards in this deck which is one of my all time favorites, go here:
http://taroteca.multiply.com/photos/album/442/Universal_Goddess#