Night of The Dancing Flame

I woke up this morning and saw something walking sideways on the window screen..... I knew I needed coffee, but damn. Then I realized that this was not just caffeine deprivation, but that a very large  moth was trapped in between the window and the screen. Now as nocturnal of a creature as I am I could only imagine what a true creature of the night was going through, trapped in an east-facing window, the direct sunlight burning it and acting like kryptonite on the poor thing, or like sunlight to a Vampyre! So I opened the window and patted on the screen and the poor night angel fell down on its back on the window sill. I realized time was of the essence for her because she was almost dead. I got a papertowel and it grabbed hold and I placed it in a cup. Then I cut a piece of yarn and dampened it with water so it had food and drink and went downstairs and put her outside. I was so afraid she was dead, but then she let me help her on her feet. I think she will be ok, I sure hope so.

So the question of the day is what is the message to me in all of this? I went to a site that a very cool and knowledgeable lady named Avia Venefica has, http://www.symbolic-meanings.com/ to read over the symbolism of moths. Wow does she have a ton of great info! (Btw, I only just realized last night that all of the time I have spent adding links to the end of posts and NONE of them seem to have EVER taken...WTF man. Anyone who can let me know what I'm doing wrong, or how to---shit I don't even know the proper computer speak....to make it so when you click on words it takes you to another page, like it does when you type in www. I would SO appreciate it!!!)

So as I was getting the night flyer ready to be released, a few things came to mind. How I too hate feeling trapped. How I have always hated morning but a learning to embrace it since I have to get up early anymore. How I FINALLY set up my new blog last night (YAY ME!) that will be public and this winged lady of the night confirms the name I have chosen for it. How breathtakingly gorgeous the moon was last night!!! Huge, full, and orange, like a picture of Gotham City. How she made me think of vampires, creatures I love so much. How when I was a flight attendant I always tried to work red-eyes. I knew I had to use my Halloween Tarot which was a very special gift from a wonderful lady I met in the French Quarter 2 years ago on what proved to be a very special night. I wonder if any Sword cards will come up since moths have to do with air and because in this deck they are on the face cards. Let's see...

6 of Imps(wands), 8 of Bats(air), Queen of Imps(wands)

The first thing that strikes me is the elemental dignities- Fire/Air/Fire-  Whatever I think of or imagine happening will happen because of what is motivating me. Less talk, more action though. The 8 of  Bats catches my eye first and this is how I feel in a lot of ways, and how my moth friend was, trapped. To me it looks like bats are tyring to help the woman get free from the extreme limitations holding her back from the safety of her home in the background. And look at where she is! Talk about between a rock and a hard place man! Just like the moth was. And today those strips of white are not the usual cloth I've always seen them as, but feel like toilet paper. Surely she can just bust through that, or she can fall into the water so it can just dissolve where she can swim to shore or her bat friends can carry her back to dry land. Like my moth, sometimes we need a little help to escape awful situations before we can gain our freedom and independence. I've been made very aware of angles lately. Another elemental creature of the realm of Air. And Black Cat is already helping---follow my intuition. Once she removes the paper from her eyes, she will see that everything around her is awesome! The 6 of Imps is victory an the Queen of Imps is the woman who can do what 10 people can do with style, grace and laugh the entire way. It's like the little imp from the 6 who held Black Cat is bringing her hope and joy in the form of that sunflower. My moth was here to keep me inspired to not give up.
Now, the card at the bottom is The Lovers IV. Since I am having to make posts from my phone and someone else's computer, loading photos is a pain in the ass lately! So it may or may not get pictured. (I took a picture of Lady Moth after I had taken her outside so lets see if I can post it. Maybe she can bring my ass a scanner lol. Corse, I do have MUCH bigger needs these days lol!) A brief description is that a  woman is laying in her bed, Black Cat over her head, and a Vampire is coming in her window. She seems quite shocked, yet quite calm and he looks very excited. Her German Shepherd is looking at her, not him, and not barking, just very calm. Ok...with regard to the question at hand, the bottom line is that Lady Moth was sent or maybe even drawn to me. The candle on her night table says this, and reminds me not to get distracted. And she is reminding me I have to use my intuition (Black Cat) to guide me toward the right choices. Change is something that I have never liked, but this says that this is a time for drastic change, a whole new way of life. It will be very different, maybe scary. But change is happening and if I allow it to, it will transform my very stagnant way of being into a life of true happiness.

This card also makes me think of an old flame, for a lot of reasons. The moth to a flame metaphor, which is exactly how it was when said person and I met. In New Orleans. A man who loves Vampyres as much as I do. Who walked in on the very night and in the same bar while I was talking to the woman who gave me this very deck of cards. Who is an Aquarius, or in this deck, the King of Bats. Which has a huge moth that has lit on his throne just above his head.--- I won't even get into the other signs I have had in the past few days including today with regard to him..... wtf man.

The Lovers VI

Derek Morgan: Good morning princess.
Penelope Garcia: [quickly says] Good morning.
[and keeps walking]
Derek Morgan: Pump, ya breaks.
[Derek beckones Penelope back to him]
Derek Morgan: Every day I say 'Good morning' and every morning you say 'I'll show you a good morning, hotstuff.' Everyday. But not today?
Penelope Garcia: I hate profilers. Do you know that?
Derek Morgan: Spit it out.
Penelope Garcia: ...Fine. I met a guy. 


I love to the tv show Criminal Minds. I've been known to watch 3 or 4 episodes back to back. I guess it comes from that need to know that there are people who work to keep the bad guys away. And I really love the characters. I remember seeing a deck of tarot cards online some years back where the creator used actors or people from the entertainment industry on the cards. So I decided to come up with a list of my own in order to help me connect with the cards on a more personal level. I had to start this with my favorite character of all on the show, Penelope Garcia. In fact, she is gonna be on at least two cards so far. Another of my favorite character is Derek Morgan. If you watch the show, you'll totally see how I chose them together for The Lovers VI card.

The Lovers card is about, well...love. It's also about choice. The love aspect is beautiful, wonderful passionate, romantic love. The choice aspect is one that must be made and is a huge decision that you face, and you feel quite passionately about it too. My two favorite characters on the show are so truly in love, it's like everything you ever (well, everything a least that I ever) dared hope for. They know each other so well, maybe even better than they know themselves. The connection of friendship between the two of them is so strong, the desire and passion is palpable! They trust each other implicitly and in their line of work as FBI agents who profile and track some of the most horrible criminals imaginable, that says a whole lot. The good times we share with people so often form our relationships, but the hard times are what can make them iron clad. These two have shared both extremes and the bond between them just keeps getting stronger. Yet they continuously make the choice to not act on what they feel and actually take things to the next level to an actual relationship. It drives me completely nuts but I can kinda understand why they choose what they do. There is so much at stake if they did choose to act on what they feel. Careers could be lost, maybe even lives. I feel pretty passionate about these characters, so I choose to keep watching them. I'll bet my bottom dollar that the producers of the show will choose to finally let them get together when the viewing audience no longer chooses it to be one of the top ranking shows on tv.

I've chosen to pull out The Lovers VI card from a few different decks I own and love to show some of the various interpretations of it.