I wanted to share a simple prayer/ritual I did petitioning blessings from Yemaya. Most of you are probably familiar with Chloe's wonderful blog Inner Whispers. Please do take a visit when you can. She usually features a different deck each week. Well tomorrow her eldest son, Big Boy is having a very complicated surgery. I've invoked the Orisha of maternal love and healing for complete success in this. To bless all of the hospital staff, surgeons, nurses, staff and that entire environment of the hospital as well. And for Chloe, her beloved and their young son who is braving this experience. I ask that anyone who reads this send positive energy as well. Big Boy has some on-going, serious health issues that demand constant care, so no matter when you're this, your prayers will be appropriate.
While praying, I had my Yemaya playlist on my iPad. There is sea salt around the candle, as she is the embodiment of the salt waters of the oceans of the world. The photograph behind the mermaid statue is underwater photography my cousin took whilst diving and met a sea turtle, which is one of the most perfect symbols for Yemaya giving their association with maternal instincts.
I used Ocean - Ebb and Flow from the Earth Magick Oracle. The Queen of Cups from the Universal Goddeess Tarot was created as Yemaya, an absolutely perfect choice for that card. I chose The Sun from Doreen Virtue's Angel Tarot Cards to represent complete healing, life giving energy and cause for celebration. It says Uriel, but I called on Raphael since he is my go to angel for healing. And the Ace of Swords from my Legacy of the Divine tarot. It tends to show up as surgery readings and it represents the courage it takes to go through challenging times that we most often would never sign up for but bring about great benfits.
Below is a beautiful video created by a daughter of Yemaya. Thank you Mamma! Ashé!
This post is for the sole/soul purpose of expressing gratitude! I realize I have so many Spirits around me who love and want to help me. Sometimes when depression/anxiety is kicking my ass it can be hard to remember that. But it is all a part of expansion and the learning process as a human. So they must allow me and all humans to experience the contrast as Abraham-Hicks would call it ( aka the bullshit). They also teach that gratitude and being in nature are the fastest most definitive ways to feel better and raise your vibration. Yesterday my dear friend Fairy, one of the most amazingly gifted and accurate readers I've ever known, gave me a message from Lord Ganesha. He is Hindu God who removes obstacles and consort of Lakshmi, who let me know recently she was around me and offering to help me. Then I felt Yemaya, who I have not felt in a few months. This mornings oracle card was confirmation of that. Then I received a wonderful care package from New Orleans with gifts that filled me with love and appreciation. Just after openeing it, I stepped outside and received a message via the guardians of Air from my precious Selene! So I will start off with thanking Gansha! If this blog doesn't prove to me I need a Tumbler account nothing will lol.
An offering of delicious British single cream to Gansesha. I used the King of Pentacles for the Universal Goddess tarot which features his love, Lakshmi as the King and he is the elephants in the background. He removes obstacles so that she can usher in blessings. Quite appropriate during this waning moon. In front is smoky quartz to remove negativity and depression and citrine to balnce my 3rd chakra which is a out happiness, empowerment, self-confidence, joy and prosperity. Thank you beautiful Lady of the Fae for all the help and guidance you've been giving me. Thank you Ganesh and Lakshmi.
This was what I got in the mail! Creole coffee!!!! Omg, there are so many things I absolutely love about the UK. The coffee situation is fucking horrific! This was the Ace of Cups if ever there was one lol! And this crystal is something I shall treasure forever. The amount of healing and love that Joshua put into it is unreal. It actually vibrates and filled my whole body with a feeling of love radiating from it like electricity! It was like... Like a film of darkness and weight and shit just started to evaporate and was pulled off of me! That man's healing abilities are so powerful. I am so grateful for these gifts. The time he made in the midst of a whole lot of chaos and shit he is dealing with, and the criminal amount of money it coat to send 2 bricks of coffee and a crystal - $24.75 US! That is just robbery. I am so grateful to Joshua for sending me these things and that SOMEHOW, we are able to be friends. I am grateful to the precious gift of healing crystals bring. I am more motivated to get my shit together and get on track with my Hibiscus Moon Crystal Healing Course than I have been since I first signed up!
This is the message Selene asked the sylphs to show me. I'm not sure if anyone else can see a dog running happily other than me LOL! But I had a deep sense of knowing it was from her, sans the questioning my left brain often does. I love you and miss you more than words can say. Thank you for coming to let me know you are happy. That is what matters most of all. I am so grateful for every second you shared with me! Every walk at 3AM in the rain to go potty, every time you took up the entire bed, every time you looked at me with eyes of pure love. You were a gift from the angelic realm.
Yesterday I felt the presence of Yemaya, African Orisha who is the embodiment of maternal love. In the tarot she would be the Queen of Cups. She found my apartment I used to have on Bourbon St. It was so tiny, but I loved that place so much. I dedicated my bathroom to her, a common thing since she rules the ocean. This was my alatar to her. Today I drew the card titled Ocean. Isn't this deck beautiful. I'm so grateful for Dr. Steven Farmer who created it and the artists who brought the illustrations to life. He explains it to mean allowing yourself to feel whatever emotions that are coming up and not judge or fight against them, even if they are sucky ones like guilt, anger and grief. I need to learn that we feel our emotions, but we are not our emotions. Thank you Yemaya for the happy times I did spend in this wonderful apartment. And for the next one I know you are preparing for me. Ashé Mamma.
The first Goddess aside from Mother Mary I ever worked with was the Norse Freyja. I haven't worked with her for several years, but I've felt her around me since I've been in the UK. I do so love her and this may be my favorite depiction of her. It's from a deck I no longer have, Doreen Virtue's Goddess Guidance Oracle. Don't know why I associate miragolds with her, but I do.
Yemaya has two sisters she loves dearly. One is Oshun. In tarot she is the Queen of Wands. Yemaya rules the salt waters, but her sister rules the sweet waters, or the rivers. This was her altar I had in that same apartment on Bourbon. Thank you Oshun for giving me laughter, music and making me feel pretty.
The third sister is Oya and she can be the storm, the tornado, or the rainbow that follows it, but is the winds of change. Think the Ace of Swords. She told me I had to come of the UK and could not go back to New Orleans until October. I've ignore her words in the past. Won't make the mistake again I tell ya! I took these beautiful pictures that represent her several weeks apart. Both were quite timely I'd have to say. Thank you Oya for helping me to find my inner warrior and to learn that change is the breath of life itself. Ashé.
My beloved mermaid sister, LaSirene, Our Lady Star of the Sea! It had been so long since I'd felt you and you made yourself known to me in several ways whilst I was in Cornwall. The altar was one of the three I had for her on Bourbon St. Lol! She is the Haitian Lwa who helps us with self-actualization and thus self love. I adore LaSirene. Thank you my sister for the 3 shooting stars I saw several weeks ago. And for the 13 Matthew and I saw in one night!!! Especially after showing yourself in that magickal photograph he took of both the aves and the Milky Way! When I have the money, I will surely purchase it as well as the latest shooting star he saw last weekend.
Last for this post, but definitely not least is the practice of yoga. It tends to show up as The Hanged Man in tarot readings. It has helped me tremendously to move through this very deep depression/anxiety, fear and grief over the loss of Selene. The benfits of yoga are seemingly limitless. I am most grateful for the Heike, a girl I used to fly with who was the first person to drag me quite reluctantly I might add, to my first yoga class back in 2001 when I lived in Ft. Lauderdale. Also to my angel of health and recovery of my spine and often my mind, Marjorie DeJoie and for the two instructors who made the biggest impression on me while in Philly at 12th St. Gym, Chick and Stephanie.
These are but a few of the gifts, people, gods, Goddesses, Spirits and elementals I am appreciative of. To all of them I say thank you! And to those of you who read this blog. Though I have no clue who any of you are, I know there are those who do. And it brings me a lot of healing to know my words matter, and that they bring healing at times to you.
We're back! Damn, when I fall off, I fall OFF!!! Six months to the day! Anyway, let's just get to the point. If you don't follow the girls who do the Tarot Blog Hop, you may want to check it out. I haven't participated in a long time, but I still support them. They do posts based on the Celtic Wheel of the Year. Today is Litha or Midsummer, the longest day of the year when the sun shines the longest it will the entire year. The topic for the hop was "How can I bring more joy into my life?" It's so weird to have the words joy and tarot in the same sentence and not have Arwen saying it lol!
This is a damn good question since I just found out 3 days ago that the "safe, responsible, reliable" neighbor I left my beloved 1 1/2 year old Belgian Shepherd Selene with wasn't such a good choice. I've been gone two weeks. She's dead. I have no words to explain what I feel. Before I start throwing things and crying uncontrollably, I'll leave that topic alone.
So here's shag tarot has to say about how I can find some joy. Although I kinda feel like saying fuck joy and anything to do with it. *sigh*
1. Where can I find joy? - Queen of Cups - By the sea. I'm currently in the UK, close to the coast, and have already been to the water and will spend a week there soon. What's funny is I haven't used this deck in over two years and it is one of the ones I brought with me from he US. And it is the one I brought when I wentt to the beach a few weeks ago. And guess which card I took pictures of lol. I felt so much LaSirene energy and I have heard her gently whisper in my ear today. And here she is. I also feel like this her reminding me of how much joy music brings me, but as I look at the fish, that she wants me to dance. I stopped my morning therapy of listening and dancing to Pharelle's "Happy" at least three times first thing in the morning. Need to get back to that This is also a reminded to meditate.
2. What will help me to find joy? - Page of Swords- As I was shuffling I hear "the anise is by writing/blogging" and here we have a true representation of communication and done in a very raw, speak with no filter kind of a way. And that is the whole point of this blog. I created it as a place where I can speak from a place that is unfiltered and raw. That's why I do nothing at all to promote it. I don't want to be concerned about what I say or who it will affect. It's my haven to say what the fuck I want of need to. It's how I cleaf my head. Very swords-like indeed.
As I look at this boy offering me two swords presented on a beautiful cobalt cushion, one silver the other gold, I'm reminded that happiness IS a choice. Is a difficult one as of late, but I know what happens if I choice not to actively pursue it. It ain't pretty.
3. What will hold me back from it? - Strenght VIII - Ha, this was the very last card that I drew when shit just got ridiculously crazy and I stopped posting. I'll need to go back and see what it had to say back then.
This card has so much solar energy to it, it's Leo. Not recognizing just how strong I am, how much shit I've dealt with and overcome and not giving mySelf credit for diminishes my power. I need to channel Leo energy that radiates pride, confidence. Think Mick Jagger, Lucille Ball and President Obama and his pimp-ass walk. Stop thinking small, embrace feminine, feline power like on the card.
As I'm typing this I guess I got confirmation as sun-colored feline jumped on the cards lol. Meet Ozzy who is a love! Cats. No shame lol!
Hello all, I know it's been forever and 2 days since I blogged on here. It's nice to be back since on the blog where I am 100%, unapologetically Krysten. I've been trying to do more with my CreoleMoon.blogspot.com blog (I'm not as raw, nor is it as personal. If you know about this one, please check that one out, but I'm not publisizing this one over there. If they trip over this one, whatever.) Then there was the shit show that was Nov 27-Dec 24! Omfg! What a fucking nightmare! The short version, oral surgery! Dear Lord Baby Jesus the pain. Cliff Notes: a piece of drill bit from a root canal done 15-20 years ago was left on the root of my lower left molar. Yes.... You read that correctly. So after all these years my body took notice and decided to reject the foreign object. That caused decay very quickly that made the root unsalvageable. Thus necessitating an extraction. And that resulted in the particular brand of hell known as dry socket, pain that my oral surgeon said is on par with kidney stones and child birth. I've only had of the two of those and I must agree. It is mind-numbing-want-to-kill-yourself agoney! And of course she said mine was one of the worst she'd ever seen. Nice... It is basically exposed nerve and bone marrow. I will never use the term "getting on my damn nerves" so casually ever again.
But! I was able to eat something besides soup and apple sauce just in time for my birthday! The night before I was taken to a fabulous birthday dinner by my dear friend Michaelle and her significant other.I took a chance and ordered the fillet and it was tender as a Mother's love! What a wonderful Christmas Eve!
(I do not know what the fuck I'd have done without Michaelle throughout that month long experience in a scene from Hellraiser. I now refer to her affectionately as "my wife". Also eternal gratitude to Willow, Xan, Vernon, Richard, Jay and Levi, Michael, my oral surgeon and her staff of angels, my neighbors, and the recreational drug users who saved my life by contributing to the cause in my time if need before I could be seen by the endodontist and oral surgeon and get my Rx. Do I agree with recreational drug use? Hell no. Am I grateful I know folks who do? Hell yes.)
Another wonderful and amazing thing has been working with the unbelievable TarotDame, Kiki! OMG she has been amazing! I am forever grateful to the life changing skills she is teaching me through our personal coaching sessions! If you want to learn how to manifest the life you are meant to live, don't delay any longer! She is so nurturing, compassionate, and her teaching tools GET RESULTS! And she has the patience of St. Jude! I am so very Lucky to have her! *big smile*
1. First card- Use your Ascendant to explain what you already know
2. Second card - Use your Moon sign to explain what is challenging you
3. Third card - What is being created in general
1. Queen of Cups - My ascendant sign is Aquarius. So the face I show to the world or how people see me as is outgoing, very likeable, a weirdo, eccentric, and a person who sees all of humanity as equals and believes it's my duty too be a humanitarian. As Michaelle would say, I "see the spark of God in even the worst of us". So with this QofC it seems that this month I will be even more nurturing and loving to the masses. The stork on this version also shows the fact that I've been having those crazy baby notions again. At 41! WTF. (and I got some pretty crazy signs today that flipped my wig man! A child came into the shop where i work who was a carbon copy of the child I'd had a dream about a week ago! Oh, and her mom's name was Dreama! Come on now, could I make that shit up?!) Aquarians are also planners and know-it-alls. Funny thing is, they usually do know it all lol. They also come across as fearless and are folks who take action and cut through bullshit. They don't talk about it, they be about it. So I perhaps the person that people will also see is the Me who Kiki is trying so hard to give the skills to take action and get shit done and how sincere I am. I also notice how at peace this queen is. This also has to do with me working with the Lwa LaSirene so much.
2. 3 of swords - My moon sign is a funny one. It's basically on the cusp of Pisces and Aries. Nice huh? So I'm either non confrontational but wish I'd just deal with shit head on, or I nut the fuck up and feel bad that I hurt the other persons feelings lol. I am proud to say I've gotten so much better with this. So what is challenging me emotionally is being kinda sad because I don't have a partner (Really y'all, what word does one use at my age? I mean, boyfriend just sounds ridiculous as shit after 25!) The 3ofSw almost always shows up as infidelity when I do readings. But since I am not with anyone, I'd say it has to do with direct and less than pleasant communication and clearing the air (swords) with the person I was dating for a couple of months. The one who didn't my birthday. He didn't forget. He just didn't do it. He "didn't get any gifts this year for anyone else either." So you want me to be your girlfriend (and he truly did!) but I'm no more important than "anyone" else?! Dude, did you fall and hit your head or are you huffing paint? Do NOT play with me about my Christmas birthday! But not a card, a cupcake, a flower from somebody's yard? I almost never drink, but I do so love St. Germain/soda with lime. Not even a birthday drink from him. BECAUSE YES, I BOUGHT THAT MYSELF WHEN WE WENT OUT! After my friend and her man took me for fine dining. Needless to say,that was the last straw.
I think I need to explore the fact that I left my ex back in 2004 when he broke up with me on my birthday. Until this clown, I'd never broken up with anyone. So this was a huge step for me to take a stand and put my own needs, feelings and worth above someone else's. I'm so glad I finally started to wake up, to take a stand. To not tolerate bullshit because of my bleeding heart and allowing sympathy and/or empathy for other's issues to prevent me from setting boudaries and demand that they are respected. So I guess this card is telling me I need to speak my peace honestly but without going batshit crazy on the other person. Clear, direct communication when my heart has been hurt.
3. High Priestess - God I love tarot lol. Y'all know this is my all time favorite card in tarot! What I'm creating in general is the woman I most admire and strive to be. A woman who is poised and graceful when appropriate yet a force to be reckoned with. A woman that others are drawn to because of my depth and wisdom I've gained through learning from my experiences. A confident, gifted tarot reader who allows Spirit to flow through me via my intuition. I notice how both of these regal ladies who have mastered the art of being comfortable in their own skin have far more important things to focus on than this triad of confusion, suffering and sorrow. One is focused in peaceful mediation (dear Jesus, Isis, and Freyja Kiki, OK, OK lady LMAO). The other is focused on self-reflection. Both are focused on how to be of service to others. This is also the card I associate LaSirene with more than any other. I am we'll and truly blessed. My card for the year is The Wheel is saying that January will start 2013 rolllin' along quite nicely!
You don't know how to start Just look inside your heart You know I feel confused I don't know what to choose
You better take a stand And find out who you are You better make a plan 'Cause this has gone too far
When we went to the wishing well, We thought we saw the light
(If you) Start, start, start to wake up, Scream, scream, scream all you want See, see, see what you've done Start, start, start to wake up
I don't know what to do To make it right for you You tell me I'm no good I feel misunderstood I'm sick of taking blame Playing the same old game
When we went to the wishing well, We thought we saw the light But even though we took that trip, It never came out right
If you Start, start, start to wake up Scream, scream, scream all you want See, see, see what you've done Start, start, start to wake up
Now you
Start, start, start to wake up Scream, scream, scream all you want See, see, see what you've done Start, start, start to wake up Start, start, start to wake up Scream, scream, scream all you want See, see, see what you've done
Start, start, start to wake up Start, start, start to wake up Scream, scream, scream all you want See, see, see what you've done Start, start...
Two days ago I got one of my birthday presents to Me from Me, the Joie-de-Vivre deck by Paulina Cassidy. You all know how much I love my dark decks, but I need one that is a little lighter, a little softer. It's got a zany, fun, child-like feel to it, yet still has slight touches of the macabre. The fine, wee little details are not something that I usually go for, so I've been a little unsure about it. But the more that Kiki posted with it, the more I wanted it. So I went through and started to familiarize myself with each card last night. Then this morning I decided to take it for a test run. I decided that for now I will not read Rx with this deck. I set the very clear intention of asking the deck, "What can you tell me about this morning?" Since I'd only been awake about 2 hours, this was asking it to be pretty specific. The first thought I had was about the horrible cramps/stomach pains I was having at that moment. (Uhh, wth? No cycle, but cramps?? Are you kidding me!?) I wondered if The Chariot VII would show up. It is ruled by the sign Cancer and is associated with the stomach in readings that deal with health. If it gave me the Chariot, I knew we were a perfect match and that communication between us would not be a problem. Here are the cards I pulled:
1. The Chariot VII- LOL! Disco! We have a connection folks! And notice how she is holding her lower abdomen and looking very disgruntled, just like I was lol!
2. Queen of Cups- I had thought about my mother this morning and the beautiful birthday card she sent me that I read again when I woke up. She is a Scorpio, Queen of Cups.
3. Ace of Cups- The card of renewed love and healing. Again, the Mom situation. Letting me know Arch Angel Raphael is working his magick. And this card is so beautiful. Just looking at it makes me feel soothed and peaceful and safe. The little faerie has her lotus blossom to pour her healing water out into Source. Something about her reminds me of Tori Amos. She also makes me think of how when doing a spell, you call in the Quarters, the guardians from each cardinal direction. She looks like the perfect vision of the Keeper of the West. And the lotus flower reminds me of the Nichiren Buddhist law of cause and effect. Nam-Myho-Renge-Kyo. The very short interpretation means dedication to the mystic law of the simultaneity of cause and effect through sound. Renge means lotus flower. It represents cause and effect since it is one of the only flowers that has seed and bloom at the same time. The easiest way to sum all this up is that it is a reminder to me that I can NOT change anyone, starting with my mother. I can only change myself. Choose to act and not react. When you change from the inside, your environment and all that exists it on the outside will change. I am changing the dynamic between us by the fact that I have chosen to not react, but to choose how I act. Very hard, but I think will be very beneficial.
4. 5 of Wands- I pulled the card at the bottom of the deck and had to laugh out loud! I am NOT a morning person!! I was awakened at 8:15 by my two little cousins being SO loud and arguing! I was upstairs doing the reading. The were downstairs, directly below me!
5. 8 of Swords - the very last thing I thought of while I was shuffling was how there have been so many things holding me back from completely committing to the move to New Orleans. Several things that were stressing me out and I kept over analyzing and thus had me trapped in the fear of making the wrong decision, but there is only one thing now that is still holding me hostage. I think this is crystal clear that the Joie de Vivre is listening to me and speaking with crystal clarity!
A friend asked me for a reading on a love interest. I decided to try Rhiannon's relationship spread using her deck the Faulkner Tarot. She has a fabulous YouTube video on how to do it. This spread involves a lot of cards, 16 of them. I had a hard time trying to figure out how I was going to take picture of the cards. Should I break it up with several pictures in groups? I chose not to and to do a shot of the entire spread so we could actually see the cool way she lays the cards out. I just put it in the middle of the reading. If you click on the picture it will enlarge it so you can see the cards in more detail.
1-3. What does Sparkle bring into the relationship? Well, all three cards are swords, so right off the bat that tells me that Sparkle is very stressed about realtionships and that she may need to work on her communication skills. Perhaps she can be a bit cold or use her words as weapons. First card is the 9 of swords- aka "the nightmare card" which reiterates the stress and often times actual nightmares. Being right next to Justice XI this shows her recent divorce is still very fresh in her mind. It seems she was in a relationship that was extremly painful and her heart is still very heavy. Next to it is the 4 of swords, the card that says you need to rest and take care of yourself. All together, this group is telling me that she needs to take time to heal from a whole lot of nasty shit from the past that still haunts her. Letting go of old ghosts that still haunt her. Everything is energy and the energy of her past relationship or her ex is still clinging to her spirit, which makes all the sense in the world. Even though we know it's best to leave a situation it doesn't take away the pain. Right now, I see her bringing a lot of old wounds and a need for self-care and nurturing. It's great to see she has learned to set boundaries, but I fear she has set up walls.
3-6. What Chuck brings to the reationship? He seems to bring a lot more emotion and openness than Sparkle, but he still has his own apprehention and fear. The first card is the 3 of cups. I think Chuck wants a good healthy relationship, commitment, something where he feels safe and supported, but also fun and happy times they can share together. The next card, the Ace of Swords, shows he is still scared a bit shitless but wants to take the plunge, break out of his comfort zone. Is he afraid of loosing his personal freedom if he gets into a relationship? And this next card is the Queen of Cups. Who is she? Is she the woman from his past who may have been emotionally manipulative? Did she not treat him as an equal or does he have some "mamma's boy" tendencies?
7. How Sparkle sees Chuck- Page of wands- Chuck seems like his ass is a whole lot of fun! She sees him as wild, adventurous, and sexy as hell! Chuck really makes her all tingly in naughty places lol! She sees him as a break from the monotony of life and a fresh new start.
8. How Chuck sees Sparkle- 6 of Swords- This makes me think that the Qof C we jsut saw is someone from his past. He sees Sparkle as moving on to a less stressful time. Someone he can do fun and romatic things and who will appreciate him for it. But he also sees her as hiding something. He sees that wall she has up.
9. How did Sparkle first see Chuck? When they first met, what did she think? - The Hanged Man XII- She saw him as a very strong possibility she wanted to pursue, but she saw his apprehention, his need to take things slowly and in his own time. I like how this shows that she has learned from her past to see a person as they are, not who she wants them to be.
10. How did Chuck see Sparkle when they first met?- 2 of pentacles- He saw her stress and trying to find her footing and balance in her life. He saw she needs to take things slowly as well. I also think he saw that she is the type of person who is such a giver and that she gave so much of herself in the past yet never had it balanced out with recieving from her ex that she is just tapped out at the moment and needs to continue working on her own needs. I like that, it shows he thinks about others and not only himself.
11. What are Sparkle's fears that could block this relationship?9 of pentacles- Well Chuck ain't the only one who fears loosing his independence huh. The 9ofP is all about someone who has worked long and hard to get to wear they are. A person who has learned to love themselves and is very independant. They like the company of others, yes, but they do not need anyone else! Her fear of loosing herself in the relationship in another person could block thngs.
12. What are Chuck's fears?- Knight of Cups- I think he fears getting all caught up in the romance of it and I also think he fears rejection. Is there a shy aspect of Chuck? Or is it again that QofC from his past who kicked his ass emotionally and made him insecure? This man needs a lot of emotional reassurance.
13. Outside influences in Sparkle's world-The Lovers VI- I feel this goes back to her divorce since this card often has to do with marriage. It also has to do with choices and balancing the head with the heart. Are there issues other than the ones already mentioned that are major choices in Sparkle's world that are making her have to choose what road to take?
14. Outside influences in Chuck's world?The Knight of Pentacles- Is work or money making and planning for the future in a slow methodical way a major factor in his world that would infuence him? Or does he see that this relationship would be a lot of hard work and he is trying to go very slowly to see if it's worth it. Not in a cruel way or that he is seeing Sparkle in a negative light, just a mature assement of of his life and what is best.
15. Outcome-5 of swords- I hate to say it, but I have to be honest in my readings. The 5ofSw is just a nasty card that really doesn't have a good side to it. I see the two of them just rubbing eachother the wrong way and things getting nasty and stressful, bringing out the worst and not the best in each other. The 5ofSw is about gossip, and shit-talkin', and empty victories. Shit hits the fan and the gloves come off and people fight unfairly.
16. So I jsut had to check another card to see if there was anything else we could find out. I did the card at the bottom of the deck which sums it all up, the bottom line of it all.--Damn... 10 of Swords. I hate like hell to say it, but it does not look very promising to say the least for this relationship. 10ofSw is another one of the most nasty cards in the deck. It shows starting over, but from a place of a lot of pain and stress and emptiness. Which I guess kind of comes full circle from the first cards we laid out to begin with.
I DID IT!!!
I did it damnit all to hell! I FINALLY carried my ass down to the French Quarter (FQ) to Jackson Square (JSq) and read cards!
I was so nervous, but I finally made up my mind because it was just before Halloween and what better time and place for Goddess sake!?! New Orleans, LA in The FQ, on Halloween! If not then, WTF man! I went to my cousin's room and told that ballsy Leo chick to kick my ass. And she did lol! I had no idea how the frick I was gonna get me and all my shit from A-B. It hit me, *ding* use your rollerboard flight attendant! So I packed up candles, put newspaper and prayer in and around the glass holders, my pillow, blanket, cards inscence, 3 decks of cards, and pretty cloths for my table, shoved a wad of bread and a Motrin 800mg down my gullet, slapped on my screaming whore red MAC Russian Roulette lipstick and rolled on out the door. My cousin had gotten the cloth fold up chairs out for me. I threw it all in the back of his beat up pick up truck his wife The Leo named The Green Goblin and carried my ass to the store to get a table. I'd looked it up online, called and they said they had it. I drive to the FQ and decide to go to pay to park so I knew I'd find a space. I knew I could not have even the slightest thing be even a remotely possible reason for me to punk out! I drag my shit to JSq and start to set up and stop short. WTH.... The freakin' table is SO NOT the one I saw online!! It barely came as high as my knees and was like 1' X 1'! Was this intended for a 3yr old's tea party?! My heart sank a bit, but I was just so proud I had even got this far. I was jsut about to pack up when the husband, Xan, of the nice couple I have become friends with comes over and is looking at me like WTH is that LOL? He then goes over and Willow, his wife who gave me a wonderful reading a couple of weeks ago and encouraged me to come out there, was so kind and let me use one of her tables! They are the nicest people, I'm really happy to be building a friendship with them! Long story short, no sooner than I lit the candles did a woman come and sit down. I was so so nervous, that I was too nervous to remember I was nervous LMFAO! I ended up doing 3 readings. I'd set a goal of leaving by midnight and not without $100. Well, by 11:30pm, I had exactly $100! I'm so pissed I forgot to take pix of my first big night because I had a ball! I've done readings before, but not anything like this. This was the most brave I may have ever been about my tarot career. I'm still in shock. I have had the most f*kd up stomach flu so I haven't been back yet. But on Oct 30, 2011, (the birthday of my mother who would so not approve- tee-hee-hee!) I popped my tarot cherry LMFAO!
So my inner "Yeah But....." is all like, "well... what if that was just a fluke and you totally suck next time hmmm??"
So my I'm going to pull some cards to address that. I will use my Faulkner Tarot since all 3 peeps chose that one out of the 3 decks I had to choose from. (I just knew someone would want The Tarot of Vampyres on Halloween for Pete's sake, but nope)
This is so direct and to-the-point it's as ridiculous as I am about being such a chicken-shit LOL! We got 2 Major arcana and one face out of 3 cards. The elemental dignites are water/water/air. Which in this reading I'd say are perfect; intuition and emotions mixed with logic and communication. Bam.
1. How do I need to see myself as a professional reader now that I did this?- Queen of Cups- This is water of water. She is the nurturer, the compassionate woman who's intuition is almost always spot on. If you ever wanted a card to represent who you are with regard to anything in the psychic realm, other than the mighty High Priestess Herself, this is it!
2. What is blocking me from seeing myself that way?- The Hanged Man XII- The first thing that came to mind was the word " bullshittin'!" As in wasting time, hanging out, not being direct and waiting until I'm under the gun to do shit while I'm all stressed out. This card is ruled by Neptune. Many of us involved with the spiritual side of life tend to not be successful because we get stoned on the big pink smoke machine and glitter of the esoteric like a bunch of 1930's jazz musicians. We just float along and don't remember that time is money, so use one wisely and you will create more of the other one! --- Omg--- It's 00:10 and someone's alarm clock jsut went off, surely by accident, but while I am looking at this card! Talk about your wake up call! Wake up and get my shit together! Treat this as the real profession it is and not like a hobby to pass the time!
3. What card should I focus in whenever I start to doubt mySelf as a professional reader?The Magician I Ruled by Mercury, planet of speed and communication. Card that is the Godsmack of a golden opportunity. It says you have everything you need right at your hot little hands to create the result you want. Just focus, believe with every fiber of your being and make the shit happen. It means an amazing new job opportunity. I have amazing chemistry with people more often than not. I make them feel at ease and not judged and am very easy to talk to. I see the path and the bend in it. I don't know where this will take me, but if I don't keep moving I'll neer find out. And the brightness is almost like I'm really outside in the sunshine. There is the path, the boat, the bridge; this will all lead to numerous opportunities that far reach what my narrow vision can see right now. It will take work, but it will be SO worth it!
Synchronicity never ceases character to blow my mind lol.
So ya know I love myself some Criminal Minds (just about as much as Dexter I may have to say, and believe you me that is saying a hell of a lot!!) And ya know how a freakin' adore the character Garcia. (I recently did a post on her and another character Morgan to interpret The Lovers VI card). The show is about FBI agents who do criminal profiling. So I was thinking that I should profile the characters I love so much since I want to make a list of them from various books, tv shows, and movies to apply to all 78 cards. Then today I found this fantastic teaching tool from Tarot Eon that blew me away! (link will be below) It sounds like it is gonna help me take my tarot skills to a whole 'nother level. And I'll be dog-gone if he doesn't use the word "profile". He basically says to create profiles on imaginary clients. You can also use people from the media, but Doug says that kinda goes against the whole point, which is to use your imagination. But I'm gonna go ahead and do it this way first as he advises you take a lot of time to create each profile and I just wanna get started. I am one be all fired up about something and then just flake out on it. But you want to act like it is a real live client who you are reading for.
Penelope Garcia
Very highly skilled computer expert. So good she hacked into the federal governments computers. So they took advantage of her skills in stead of imprison her and she works with a team of FBI criminal profilers called the BAU-Behavior Analysis Unit. Mid 30's and lives in a 2 b/r apartment in N.E. DC. She often shops in DuPont Circle and Commander Salamander and can be found at Eastern Market scoping out the most awesome vintage stuff on any Saturday she can possibly have time off to get there.
Though she is a total tech geek, she does believe in readers and astrology.
She's married to her work like all of her co-workers and they are her family, but she would love to be married and have a family to come home to. She needs as much normalcy as she can get.
She has a very deep emotional and romantic connection to her co-worker Derek Morgan, but they both choose to not act on it. Partially because of the conflict of interest at work where they are part of a team who saves many lives and can not be compromised, partially from their own fear of each other. From the outside, they are total opposites in every single way. Inside, they are as much alike as any two people can possibly be. They are two sides of the exact same coin and couldn't possibly be better matched. She
She needs to have as much around her that helps her escape from the horrifying realities she faces at work, so she dresses in an over-the-top whimsical fashion that is a cross between goth, vintage and her own very bright and fun style.
She's an extremist at everything. At being fun, outgoing, charming, witty, intelligent, compassionate, loving, loyal, and nurturing.
She easily connects with others and makes them feel safe with her warm and inviting, comical demeanor, yet feels safest from behind a computer screen. Her childhood was a rough one bouncing from one foster home to the next. She shields herself emotionally with her intellect and very sharp wit.
She is the best at her job and she knows it. She's absolutely beautiful yet has no idea of it. She is like a ball of sunshine with moon beams shooting out and a circle of stars sparkling in orbit.
So let's just say I gave her a general reading. I'll do the Celtic Cross spread, but the way my first actual teacher Glenda does it. Sorry that I will have to show the cards out of positional order. Lord and Lady I can not wait to have a scanner. So here's me, as Garcia's trusted reader that she sees a few times a year.
I chose the Gill Tarot because of it's bright fun colors and of the decks I have with me, this one seems like one she'd choose. If I had Tarot of theSweet Twilight I'd have chosen it. The majority of cards are either fire or water. A lot of passionate emotion, and thus at odds with herself on a lot of things. This shows how strong your are to not give in to impulses, but is it at the expense of your happiness? I do see all four elements are present so I think you are doing a decent job of balancing all of this. Three Majors are present, so we need to look at the karmic patterns that keep replaying in your life.
1. Where the cards want to start talking: 10 of pentacles- It seems you've been thinking a lot about your future and wanting to something of value to leave behind. I'm looking at that QofC and the 3 of cups plus the AofW.... Girly I gotta ask if your pregnant??! No you say? Are you SURE!? Cause if you're not, you may want to use some serious birth control. In fact if I were you, I'd use two or three forms from the looks of these cards LOL! But anyway, Did you get a pay raise? Cause I see that as a possibility. That 10ofP says to me how happy you are at your job, and what a ray of sunshine you are around there in spite of all the darkness you guys are submerged in. You give so much of yourself and bring a lot of healing to everyone around you.
2. What's is either helping or hindering the issue in question one: Queen of Swords-Even though you are not this particular Queen, she is such a strong part of you of you since you have Gemini rising. *I'm making that up* She is who you are at work, all tech and super-duper brainiac. This is you sitting at your desk and that mouse pad and keyboard is your weapon of choice. The pen is mightier than the sword lol. Again that bright yellow background showing the bright light you are that. Your presence is so powerful to make everyone around you better at their job because you take away the doom and gloom. Your contagious joy is like the voice of reason when you all are constantly analyzing situations that are so dark and seem to make no sense whatsoever. And this makes the people who sign your paycheck inclined to make sure you are well compensated because they know how much you deserve it and how much they need you.
3. What is root of the issue: Queen of Cups- I gotta come back to this baby issue. I think you are missing JJ a whole lot since she left the team. I think you are also thinking about when she had the baby. That 6ofP keeps calling me back to it. It's like you are the unconditional love that is a constant give and take that she and her son share. Both of you are such mammas at heart who nurture everyone on the team. You are a woman who's life is so based on logic and tangible results, yet in this card your emotional side seems to being looking into that cup and feeling empty, yet she is surrounded by so much water.
4. Recent past: Ace of Wands- In the resent past you had some bright ideas in how to spend your birthday a few months ago. Oh you took that knitting class you wanted, how cool! I think you've also been thinking about some other bright ideas I'll touch on in a min LOL!
5. What's on your mind": 6 of pentacles- This card is about give and take, exchange of money. Oh you went to one of those clothing swap things, how was it?? I hear they are so cool! You say you got lots of great stuff huh, more of your rainbow colors you love to wear. I know you can't wait for the warm weather so you can go down to Eastern Market. You should give Suzette a call and meet up with her there. Maybe you guys can go for lunch and swap stuff because you know she has some awesome really fun pieces of costume jewelry. I think that raise will come in the next 6 weeks.
6. What's possible in the near future: 4 of wands- Now... on to those other bright ideas I mentioned LMAO. Ok Chippy. In one reading you got the AofW, 4ofW, 3ofC, and The Hierophant!??!! I mean can we say "Married With Children"?!! Now let's stop faking moves, because it's just you and me here. I know how you feel about him and how he feels about you. You know the cards show what is most likely to happen based on what is going on in your life at this time and if you continue to do things the same way. Well I say keep on keepin' on because I see that 10ofP as what you will have to leave the children you and Derek will have LOL!! There looks like there will be a whole lot to celebrate!
7. What you don't want: 7 of wands- I see this card as what you don't want because doing "the right thing" sux. It's like that hooded cloak is how you have to cloak your feelings for Derek and vice-versa.
8. What's in your environment: King of Swords- I think this is both a person and a situation. How is Hotch doing? I know he puts on a good front because he is the team's leader, but he is still hurting so much from his wife's murder. I also see that this means your pay raise will also mean they are expecting more from you, as if that were possible! Oh yeah, that's right. You did start working with the other team on Suspect Behavior huh.
9. What you do want: Hierophant V- Again, since The Hierophant is the pope, and I see the AofWand the 4ofW so screaming marriage. And stop denying it woman, I'm your damn tarot reader LOL! And don't think that the icing on the cake of that King of Cups went unnoticed LMAO. But this card is also about your highest guide speaking to you and telling you to get real with yourself. As many shades of grey as there are in life, some things are black and white. Hang on a sec. Let me check something I saw online earlier.....Aha! This lady has such a great site!! She is awesome here's what she has to say about that staff that he is carrying: 'Nuff said Penelope! LMAO
"Alchemy is rife with Tarot symbols including the staff which represents polarity sulfur (male) and quicksilver (female) in alchemical iconograpy. This symbol also infers the union of of opposites woth the goal harmonization and transformation."
*this was a direct quote from an amazing reader who's site I will put a link for called Tarot Teachings*
10. Outcome if things stay as they currently are: (this is done as a story line with 3 additional cards) - King of Cups, Temperance XIV, 3 of cups, The Moon XVIII- So we top it all off with that Scorpio man's card at the end. Like the king is pictured here on King of Cups, Derek tries so hard to be so controlled and even, but that man is all raw emotion. And those fish just show me how his subconscious mind constantly goes back and forth with how he feels. And next to it we have Temperance XIV. It shows that patience you both exhibit given the situation. It also shows me that you are his angel that gives him hope in the middle of a constant shit-storm. Didn't you tell me that after that incident where he drove that ambulance with the bomb to save everyone and it was you on the phone who gave him the route to get to a safe space for when it went off, he said, "Woman, you are my God-given solace"? And there you are,his angel under that rainbow. And this card also represents inter-racial couples ya know. HelloOOo! The 3ofC shows the the joy that is possible when you two get together, drinking champagne at your wedding. And that baby! Now The Moon XVIII at the end shows me that you two will get together, but still keep it under wraps for as long as you can. But the emotional pull between you two is to strong to be denied or hidden for long. And that if you two let this slip through your fingers you will have the deepest of regrets.
This was so much fun to do! The Tarot Eon's blog has taught so much about letting go of my issues of "am I gonna do it right?" and the "rules" you are "supposed to" follow. I have got to remember that tarot is all about using our imagination to tap into the subconscious mind. The only rule is to not get caught up in rules. The only "wrong"way to read cards is read from a place of doubt and insecurity.
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