Dark Angel Rises -Day 22

Tonight I pulled out a deck I haven't used in quite a while, my Dark Angles deck, and drew The Hanged Man XII Rx. (I just pulled this card upright in for a post I made last week!) see a graceful, black-winged angel soaring through the night sky. (Yet another sign I need to get back to being a flight attendant...) Her hair billowing freely overhead and the most peaceful look on her face as a beam of moonlight illuminates a path just for her in a sea of darkness. This says to me that in the darkest of times there is always hope, that The Goddess speaks and guides us when we pause to hear Her voice while meditating. Let our emotions be our indicator as to wether or not we are on the path that leads to emotional healing and joy. There is a rope at her waist tethering her to an unseen source. Something about this card makes me think of The Dark Knight series, both the first and third installment when Bruce Wayne has to face his greatest fears and literally as well as figuratively climb out of a pit of despair and darkness.

[after seeing the dead bodies of the special forces men hanging from the cables of Gotham Bridge shown on TV, we see Bruce doing sit-ups in his cell, the blind prisoner says something in his own language the other prisoner translates]
Prisoner: He says the leap to freedom is not about strength.
Bruce Wayne: My body makes the jump.
Blind Prisoner: Survival is the spirit. The soul.
Bruce Wayne: My soul is as ready to escape as is my body.
Blind Prisoner: Fear is why you fail.
Bruce Wayne: No, I'm not afraid. I'm angry.
[Bruce carries on doing sit-ups]

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[later Bruce attempts to climb the prison wall again, but a rock slips under his hand and he drops smashing into the wall, as he dangles on the rope unconscious he dreams of when he was a young boy and had dropped down the well and his father coming to rescue him]
Thomas Wayne: Bruce, why do we fall?
[we then see Bruce waking up with start in his prison cell]
Blind Prisoner: You do not fear death. You think this makes you strong. It makes you weak.
Bruce Wayne: Why?
Blind Prisoner: How can you move faster than possible? Fight longer than possible? Without the most powerful impulse of the spirit. The fear of death.
Bruce Wayne: I do fear death. I fear dying in here while my city burns with no one there to save it.
Blind Prisoner: Then make the climb.
[Bruce laughs dryly]
Bruce Wayne: How?
Blind Prisoner: As the child did. Without the rope. Then fear will find you again.

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[as Bruce packs supplies folds into a makeshift pack]
Prisoner: Ah, supplies for your journey? Oh, that's...that's wonderful, that's...
[as Bruce walks out of his cell he hears the other prisoners chanting the word "deshi basara"]
Bruce Wayne: What does that mean?
Prisoner: Rise.
[as Bruce moves to climb the wall, the tattooed prisoner offers him the rope, but Bruce puts up his hand]
Bruce Wayne: No.
[Bruce starts climbing the wall, the other prisoners gather beneath and continue chanting as they watch, as Bruce gets to the precipice suddenly a bunch of bats circle above him, Bruce then makes the jump to the other ledge and manages to grab hold of the edge, the other prisoners cheer as Bruce climbs to freedom]

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[at City Hall building, Fox watches as Stryver gets dragged upstairs by Bane's men]

Stryver: There's been a mistake! Take...take me to Bane! I wanna see Bane!From The Dark Knight:

Alfred Pennyworth: Took quite a fall, didn't we, Master Bruce?
Thomas Wayne: And why do we fall, Bruce? So we can learn to pick ourselves up.

Alfred Pennyworth: Why bats, Master Wayne?

Bruce Wayne: Bats frighten me. It's time my enemies shared my dread.

From Dark Knight Rises:

[after seeing the dead bodies of the special forces men hanging from the cables of Gotham Bridge shown on TV, we see Bruce doing sit-ups in his cell, the blind prisoner says something in his own language the other prisoner translates]
Prisoner: He says the leap to freedom is not about strength.
Bruce Wayne: My body makes the jump.
Blind Prisoner: Survival is the spirit. The soul.
Bruce Wayne: My soul is as ready to escape as is my body.
Blind Prisoner: Fear is why you fail.
Bruce Wayne: No, I'm not afraid. I'm angry.
[Bruce carries on doing sit-ups]

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[later Bruce attempts to climb the prison wall again, but a rock slips under his hand and he drops smashing into the wall, as he dangles on the rope unconscious he dreams of when he was a young boy and had dropped down the well and his father coming to rescue him]
Thomas Wayne: Bruce, why do we fall?
[we then see Bruce waking up with start in his prison cell]
Blind Prisoner: You do not fear death. You think this makes you strong. It makes you weak.
Bruce Wayne: Why?
Blind Prisoner: How can you move faster than possible? Fight longer than possible? Without the most powerful impulse of the spirit. The fear of death.
Bruce Wayne: I do fear death. I fear dying in here while my city burns with no one there to save it.
Blind Prisoner: Then make the climb.
[Bruce laughs dryly]
Bruce Wayne: How?
Blind Prisoner: As the child did. Without the rope. Then fear will find you again.

This dark angel is here to show me the lesson Bruce Wayne had to learn is key to my growth and moving forward through this (and any future) dark time in my life. Fear has to be used as a fulcrum as we find that delicate balance of it either paralyzing or empowering us. In order to do so, I must face it and respect its power but not let that keep me prisoner because it has power over me. This is where my true freedom lies.

This version of The Hanged Man Rx shows that I have had to make some extreme sacrifices, learn to have patience, be far more flexible than I knew I could and to be at peace with the fact that as shitty as it is, this is the place I am on my journey through this thing called life. The moonbeam reminds me of the Bat-Signal. Sometime I have to fight my own battles, but sometimes I have to call on forces far more seasoned and indomitable than I am in this human form. I'll take this a confirmation that my ancestors, angels, Orhsias and Lwa that I've petitioned for help are fighting on my behalf. The number 12 breaks down to a 3. It reminds me to have patience and treat mySelf with love and kindness, nurture mySelf as I am growing and things are coming together. Sometimes I have to be put in very VERYuncomfortable positions in order to see things from a more useful perspective. This elegant, winged ballerina is letting me know it won't be long before I experience the bliss of freedom. Yet I can't focus on that end because it is experiencing each present moment that allows me to actually move ahead.

Something moved me to pull the card at the bottom of the deck, which for me sums up a reading or is the bottom line of what it is all about. I got The Tower XVII. How perfectly apropos.

My fortune cookie I got tonight.

 

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3's -Day 13

I decided to pull two cards.

1. What am I moving away from? Hanged Man Rx - Being in limbo. We see the clock and from this perspective it looks like it's 5 or 45 min until midnight/noon. It ain't over yet, but very soon a major turning point will be reached.

2. What am I moving toward? - 3 of cups - the first thing I think of is the brilliance and the solid nature of a diamond. I will have joy will have a strong foundation based on a commitment to loving and honoring mySelf.

I notice both a cards are 3's. This speaks to me of nurture, love, creativity and completion. *big smile with a glimmer of hope in my heart*

 

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Beltane 2012 ~ Stoking the Fires of Passion Part I

Today in the Northern hemisphere we celebrate the sabbat Beltane. It is all about creation, energy, passion and fertility. These things are celebrated in the broad sense, but it is also about primal energies aka hot, passionate sex! It is also a very good time to connect with loved ones who are deceased, second only to Samhain. I have decided to do this as a two-part posting. Part I will be what the Universe wants you all to know in terms of celebrating and learning from this sabbat. Part II will be specific to me. But first is a list of some of the things used to represent Beltane:

Things associated with Beltane                                                  
• fire
• passion
• love
• fertility
• sex
• marriage
• union
• health and beauty
• primal energy
• divination
• pleasure
• connecting with those on the other side
• dancing
• water


 Symbols of Beltane
• oats
• fire
• honey
• a May pole
• Faeries
• flowers
• the colors red, white, yellow
• bees
• roses
• meat
• orange carnelian

I always wonder how it works to address the masses when do a reading. So I have said a prayer asking that whoever reads this post will get the message from it that is intended specifically for them. Again, this reading is NOT about me. It is for YOU. I am using my LoScarbo deck. No idea why it called to me after about 5 years.

*this post contains mature subject matter, adult content, and sexual situations. Viewer discretion is advised*

1. How can you best utilize my creative energy? -  Hanged Man Rx - Just Dance by Lady Gaga just popped in my head. Now I don't think it means go out and get blind drunk as she is in the song, (unless you really wanna and have money for a taxi home) but like she says, "Just dance, gonna be okay". You may have been in a bit of a rut or doing a lot of soul searching lately but the energy of the 3 of this cards says things are now ready to come together but you must get moving! Do things that encourage your soul to live out loud. Take up yoga. Pilate's, chi-gong, ballet classes. Anything that gets you outta the house and moving! The snake brings to mind kundalini yoga in particular. Here is what seems to be a very interesting website I just asked the Universe to direct me to for you. And what the hell.... maybe you should go out and tie one one with your friends or beloved! The bottom line is movement of the physical body will activate the creative, spiritual body. A body at rest tends to stay at rest (ask me how I know lmao) a body in motion tends to stay in motion. Get up off your arse and go shake it! Shake like a Polaroid picture!! You know what to do!


2. What do you need to do to stoke the fires of passion in your life? -  King of Pentacles -  This is the king of Earth. He is a Taurus, Virgo, or Capricorn. Earth signs are ALL about having their earthly needs met! Think I'm joking? Withhold food or sex from a Capricorn or Taurus! Lemme know how that works out for ya! Food, drink, sex, life's creature comforts make this king feel grounded and secure. Are you secure with these things? I see the huge orange sun behind him. Get out of the house! It has been a really weird winter here in the US, especially up north. I know many people are so sick of winter and being cold they are about to go nuts! If you are in the Southern hemisphere then it's about to start getting cold and the days are getting shorter. So get outside, breath in fresh air, spend time in the sunshine. Even if you are unwell and cannot get out, find a window with some sunshine and sit in it. It will do wonders for your mood and help combat depression.
For many of us, money is an issue, but know that you are worthy of those creature comforts! Maybe it's a fabulous Micheal Kors hand bag. Maybe it is curling up with some brie, a glass of port and the latest copy of Allure or Red magazine. Maybe it's a .99¢ download of that song that makes you smile and sing out load every time you hear it. You can get a gorgeous shade of nail polish for $1.99. Wet-n-Wild makes some nice colors y'all. Whatever it may be, go out and get it for yourself!  A king never wonders, "hmm... should I do this for myself??" Uhh, no! A king KNOWS he deserves the things that act as fuel to keep him and inspired. Thus he has the energy and desire to share that enthusiasm with those around him. I also feel that going out in nature and journaling will help. Do you even remember or know what you are passionate about?? Also, you may want to meet with a financial planner so that you can set goals that may seem lofty or beyond your reach, but with lessons or how to budget, they may be more tangible than you think.


3. How can I ensure that I have a healthy sexual belief system? -  Empress Rx - Wow... I get the feeling that there are a lot of us who are need to address this given that she is Rx. I have a ton of messages coming at me all at once, so here we go:
You were not put on this earth for the exclusive purpose of breeding. If you want children, of course, have them! But do not make that your soul sense of identity! Do it for the right reasons? Have you ever even wondered what those may be? Were you taught that sex is for procreation and not pleasure? Does that ring true for you now? Does your mind tell you one thing but your body and spirit another? Or do you use sex as a weapon, to manipulate another's will? If you have children but are no longer with their other parent, do you use your child as a pawn to manipulate your ex? Do you need to do very difficult but necessary work to heal from the trauma of rape or sexual abuse/incest? Is your biological clock ticking and causing you to see sex as a job that must occur on a set schedule with no passion? Has a miscarriage changed your view of sex and you need to learn how to begin the healing process from that tragedy? Are you having safe sex or do you not think of the possible consequences of your actions and not use protection? Do you have good sex? What does that term mean for you? Can you and your partner or spouse speak openly about what that means? Have you read 50 Shades of Grey and are dying to try things you dare not speak of? Or is insanely hot, freaky, passionate, mind-bending sex keeping you in a relationship who's ending is long overdue? Do you know how to talk to your children about safe sex, or sex at all for that matter? Is there someone with whom they may come in contact that... you can't put your finger on what it is, but something about them just ain't right...? (LISTEN TO YOUR MAMMA RADAR!) Do you know how to ensure that they grow up having a sense of morality and common sense, but not a prudish, frigid disconnect from healthy sexual behavior? Are you homophobic? Why?  If your child were homosexual, transexual, transgendered, or heterosexual, how would you feel about that? Could they talk to you openly about that? If so, do they know that?? If not, do you want to think about that?


4.  How can I shed light on the pleasures life has to give? - 3 of cups Rx - Ok people, y'all really gotta get out the house and shake a leg! Go out! Have fun! I don't care if it is the club 'till 4 am and then the after-hours bar, or a girls night at home! Just for God's sake, let loose people! I just realized this is the 3rd 3 (Hanged Man, Empress now 3ofC). As I think about that KofP, I feel like many of you are so set in your ways you aren't willing to change your routine to allow time for life's pleasures. Ok. Then schedule it in your calender!   Ex. *Note: Wed@18:45 ~ have fun*
 Remember that episode of I Love Lucy were Lucy and Ethel were stomping the grapes? There is something or someone right at your feet that waiting for you to throw caution to the wind and allow yourself to have fun! Maybe go to one of those lingere' parties, or adult toy parties, huh, huh?! Or have a big girl slumber party. Everyone make a dish and bring a bottle of wine, Coke or juice for those who don't drink, and stream movies on Netflix. The Wtiches of Eastwick, The Help, Bridges of Madison County. Or The Hangover. Or Thor  or Takers for some yummy girl eye-candy. Or The Secretary if you're groovin' on 50 Shades of Grey lmfao (and no, I have not read it. I lived it! ahhhh... those were the days... *wistful smile* I need to make new days like those, but I digress..) The rule is bring food/drink, an over-night bag, and all car keys go into a bowl that is kept by your spouse (who needs to make his or her own plans to go out) or by a D.D.

5. How can I strengthen my union with my partner? - Rx 2 of pentacles - Again, I feel like finances are causing the waters of love to be turbulent and wash out the flames of  love and/or passion.  Do you have poverty conscious issues that mirror your partners? Does one bring in more money than the other? If so, are things fairly divied up? I mean if one makes $250K and the other makes $37K, how are things divided? Do you know what fair is in that scenario? Check out Suze Orman who will teach you the formula of what fair means. Or Dave Ramsey who is just as awesome. Most people think the number one reason for divorce is infidelity. It's not. Money is.
The other aspect I see with this card is are you making time for intimacy? Is everyone having their needs met? Sex is not just physical, it is far more mental, emotional, and spiritual. (again with the snake and kundalini energy)  Is there equal give and take? Are you getting back what you are putting in? Are you putting in what you are getting back?
Or do you have two sides? The one who is so nice and sweet to everyone else, but then you talk to your partner like they ain't shit. Lash out with a venomous tongue in a way you'd never speak to your friends or family. Or worse, a total stranger in line at the Winn-Dixie or Primark?.... I'm jus sayin'.

6. What magnificent creation in my life am I not aware of? - Rx Ace of Cups - Love. what's going on with you and love? Are you blocking it from coming into your life and if so, how? Why? Old hurts? Is your partner paying for crimes she/he never even committed? I see that Rx Empress. Do you have issues with your mother (or father) that need to be healed? You may be shocked by how profound an effect that can have on all of your other relationships? Or do you have abandonment issues that need to be healed? Do you not feel worthy of love for some reason? Are you too harsh with yourself, therefore you attract others who are not kind or compassionate? Is there a potential new relationship on the horizon but you are questioning if you are ready for it? I think you just may be if you could see your own beauty and what you have to offer. Not what someone else thinks you don't have, but what you do have to offer. Hey, wait a minute. Do you even know what that is? Why don't you think on that one. If you need a jumpstart, look at the qualities of those around you that make you love them. They are a reflection of you. Or are you not speaking to God/the Goddess right now? He/She loves you no matter what. Period! Spend time near water. I don't care if it is the Atlantic Ocean or your bathtub. Light a candle, spend time near water, ask for your angles or guides to bring healing and know that you are loved. Even if you don't love you, Spirit does. All day, everyday.

7. How can I exhibit more Self love? - 7 of pentacles Rx - Have more patience with yourself for Pete's sake! Stop looking so hard at what's "wrong" with you an start looking for what's "right" with you. Why are you more nurturing and patient with others than yo are with your Self? Take time, make time, to tend to your own needs first. This does not make you selfish!! It makes you smart! What happens when you give your all to everyone around you until you are too fragile to nurture yourself? Even if you are a parent, take some Me time. Check in with your Self and ask how can you take better care of You. Or let those around you know what they can do that will make your job easier. Like RuPaul says, "If you don't love you, how the hell can anybody else?!" Now sashay, away. LOL

I struggled on what song for this post. I think this one covers it!