Showing posts with label Selene. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Selene. Show all posts

Tuesday, August 19, 2014

A Post of Gratitude

This post is for the sole/soul purpose of expressing gratitude! I realize I have so many Spirits around me who love and want to help me. Sometimes when depression/anxiety is kicking my ass it can be hard to remember that. But it is all a part of expansion and the learning process as a human. So they must allow me and all humans to experience the contrast as Abraham-Hicks would call it ( aka the bullshit). They also teach that gratitude and being in nature are the fastest most definitive ways to feel better and raise your vibration. Yesterday my dear friend Fairy, one of the most amazingly gifted and accurate readers I've ever known, gave me a message from Lord Ganesha. He is Hindu God who removes obstacles and consort of Lakshmi, who let me know recently she was around me and offering to help me. Then I felt Yemaya, who I have not felt in a few months. This mornings oracle card was confirmation of that. Then I received a wonderful care package from New Orleans with gifts that filled me with love and appreciation. Just after openeing it, I stepped outside and received a message via the guardians of Air from my precious Selene! So I will start off with thanking Gansha! If this blog doesn't prove to me I need a Tumbler account nothing will lol.

An offering of delicious British single cream to Gansesha. I used the King of Pentacles for the Universal Goddess tarot which features his love, Lakshmi as the King and he is the elephants in the background. He removes obstacles so that she can usher in blessings. Quite appropriate during this waning moon. In front is smoky quartz to remove negativity and depression and citrine to balnce my 3rd chakra which is a out happiness, empowerment, self-confidence, joy and prosperity. Thank you beautiful Lady of the Fae for all the help and guidance you've been giving me. Thank you Ganesh and Lakshmi.

This was what I got in the mail! Creole coffee!!!! Omg, there are so many things I absolutely love about the UK. The coffee situation is fucking horrific! This was the Ace of Cups if ever there was one lol! And this crystal is something I shall treasure forever. The amount of healing and love that Joshua put into it is unreal. It actually vibrates and filled my whole body with a feeling of love radiating from it like electricity! It was like... Like a film of darkness and weight and shit just started to evaporate and was pulled off of me! That man's healing abilities are so powerful. I am so grateful for these gifts. The time he made in the midst of a whole lot of chaos and shit he is dealing with, and the criminal amount of money it coat to send 2 bricks of coffee and a crystal - $24.75 US! That is just robbery. I am so grateful to Joshua for sending me these things and that SOMEHOW, we are able to be friends. I am grateful to the precious gift of healing crystals bring. I am more motivated to get my shit together and get on track with my Hibiscus Moon Crystal Healing Course than I have been since I first signed up!



This is the message Selene asked the sylphs to show me. I'm not sure if anyone else can see a dog running happily other than me LOL! But I had a deep sense of knowing it was from her, sans the questioning my left brain often does. I love you and miss you more than words can say. Thank you for coming to let me know you are happy. That is what matters most of all. I am so grateful for every second you shared with me! Every walk at 3AM in the rain to go potty, every time you took up the entire bed, every time you looked at me with eyes of pure love. You were a gift from the angelic realm.


Yesterday I felt the presence of Yemaya, African Orisha who is the embodiment of maternal love. In the tarot she would be the Queen of Cups. She found my apartment I used to have on Bourbon St. It was so tiny, but I loved that place so much. I dedicated my bathroom to her, a common thing since she rules the ocean. This was my alatar to her. Today I drew the card titled Ocean. Isn't this deck beautiful. I'm so grateful for Dr. Steven Farmer who created it and the artists who brought the illustrations to life. He explains it to mean allowing yourself to feel whatever emotions that are coming up and not judge or fight against them, even if they are sucky ones like guilt, anger and grief. I need to learn that we feel our emotions, but we are not our emotions. Thank you Yemaya for the happy times I did spend in this wonderful apartment. And for the next one I know you are preparing for me. Ashé Mamma.
 
 
The first Goddess aside from Mother Mary I ever worked with was the Norse Freyja. I haven't worked with her for several years, but I've felt her around me since I've been in the UK. I do so love her and this may be my favorite depiction of her. It's from a deck I no longer have, Doreen Virtue's Goddess Guidance Oracle. Don't know why I associate miragolds with her, but I do.
 
 
 
Yemaya has two sisters she loves dearly. One is Oshun. In tarot she is the Queen of Wands. Yemaya rules the salt waters, but her sister rules the sweet waters, or the rivers. This was her altar I had in that same apartment on Bourbon. Thank you Oshun for giving me laughter, music and making me feel pretty.
 
 
 
The third sister is Oya and she can be the storm, the tornado, or the rainbow that follows it, but is the winds of change. Think the Ace of Swords. She told me I had to come of the UK and could not go back to New Orleans until October. I've ignore her words in the past. Won't make the mistake again I tell ya! I took these beautiful pictures that represent her several weeks apart. Both were quite timely I'd have to say. Thank you Oya for helping me to find my inner warrior and to learn that change is the breath of life itself. Ashé.
 
 
My beloved mermaid sister, LaSirene, Our Lady Star of the Sea! It had been so long since I'd felt you and you made yourself known to me in several ways whilst I was in Cornwall. The altar was one of the three I had for her on Bourbon St. Lol! She is the Haitian Lwa who helps us with self-actualization and thus self love. I adore LaSirene. Thank you my sister for the 3 shooting stars I saw several weeks ago. And for the 13 Matthew and I saw in one night!!! Especially after showing yourself in that magickal photograph he took of both the aves and the Milky Way! When I have the money, I will surely purchase it as well as the latest shooting star he saw last weekend.



Last for this post, but definitely not least is the practice of yoga. It tends to show up as The Hanged Man in tarot readings. It has helped me tremendously to move through this very deep depression/anxiety, fear and grief over the loss of Selene. The benfits of yoga are seemingly limitless. I am most grateful for the Heike, a girl I used to fly with who was the first person to drag me quite reluctantly I might add, to my first yoga class back in 2001 when I lived in Ft. Lauderdale. Also to my angel of health and recovery of my spine and often my mind, Marjorie DeJoie and for the two instructors who made the biggest impression on me while in Philly at 12th St. Gym, Chick and Stephanie.
These are but a few of the gifts, people, gods, Goddesses, Spirits and elementals I am appreciative of. To all of them I say thank you! And to those of you who read this blog. Though I have no clue who any of you are, I know there are those who do. And it brings me a lot of healing to know my words matter, and that they bring healing at times to you.
Namaste.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Tuesday, July 15, 2014

Lifting the Fog

I'm pleased to report that my tarot course curriculum is coming along! Not as quickly as I'd like for it to, but it is coming. I've written out the lesson plans for all of the majors, the wands suit, and most of the cups. Today was even slower progress than usual and it has me super frustrated. So I decided to ask th cards how I can improve my progress.

I first asked my Earth Magic Oracle what the energy of the day would be - Fog (veiled) - Well that explains how I'm feeling quite perfectly. As I see the sun's rays shining through and burning it away I realize that I just have to be patient and accept I feel confused and like I can't see where this is going to go, if it will go anywhere. The way will become more clear as I go through the day. Find things to remain positive and excited.

 

Jumper - The Queen of Pentacles - My personal significator jumped out as I was shuffling. This is such a beautiful version of it. I need to stay true to mySelf as I work on this project. It's so important for a Capricorn to maintain a solid sense of integrity with anything that their name is associated. I'm drawn to her plumeria flowers which represent beauty, charm and grace, three traits very much associated with Capricorn females. The beautiful pentacle shines like a star at her third eye chakra. All of this tells me to be patient with myself, be true to myself, and that will allow me to connect with Divine energy and convey messages from Spirit with clarity. This Queen also bodes quite well for the success of any business venture.

1. What will help me? - The Chariot VII - I need to see this as already accomplished. It is done. Like Jesse Jackson used to say, "Keep your eyes on the prize." This is really reinforcing what the Fog card said. When I get frustrated with myself, I get of course. Negative self-talk brings me to a halt. Some days I may make more progress than others, some days less. That's not what matters, only that I stay focused. I think creating a template for how I write each lesson will do that for me as well as my students as they work through each lesson. I also need to know when I need to take a break and do it without guilt. Just like when driving. If you're too tired, pull over and get some fresh air, a snack, take a nap. Then get back on the road feeling refreshed in stead of lethargic and pressured.

2. What's hindering me? - 5 of wands - Waaayyyy too much negative self-talk is just wearing me the hell out! I won't let my students beat up on themselves, so why allow it in my own head?! I'm using my own energy as a weapon against me. The only thing I'm creating is unnecessary drama,mkilling my spirit and getting me no where fast.

3. Bottom line - 3 of swords - I'm still so heartbroken about Selene's death. It is really fucking with my head. I swear everywhere I look I see people with their dogs. I've got to work through the grief, anger and guilt. Maybe I will dedicate the course to her. I won't go into what all that means right now because I don't feel like crying but I can see where it can help me to heal. I think this is the most beautiful 3ofSw of any deck and it really does capture the essence of the cards meaning.

This reading really touched on the issues I need to address and how to do that. I feel a lot more inspired now, thank you very much! And I love the gorgeous, vibrant jewel tones of both of these decks. The sunlight on Fog really draws my eye back to the QofP and the torche on the Chariot. I have to remain an open vessel for Spirit to work through me. Ashé.

 

Sunday, June 22, 2014

Death By Hanging

Tonight's card is just ultra fucked up given the news I received a few days ago.

I'm in the UK for a few months. I made went to great lengths to make sure my dog was well cared for while I'm gone. Long story short, I found out she hung herself. How you ask? Good question. Because that would mean I'd know why the fuck she was outside in the summer in New Orleans in the first damn place after making it abundantly clear she could not be since she has a thick, all black coat. And more over, why in the hell was she on a got damn leash, tied up when she has two very large backyards to fun and play in since my neighbor opened the fence between our yards!? I don't feel like talking about it at all, so I won't go into anymore detail except to say that I had my ex boyfriend who is still a very close friend (if you follow this blog, yes, Joshua and I are great friends lmao. Whoda thunkit!?) go around to check on her since my neighbor was ignoring my phone calls. In the middle of lying saying she was fine, another neighbor comes up and says, "yeah, that's so messed up that dog hung herself".

So this card, The Hanged Man XII, that I've never had a hard time with is now what the Devil and the Tower once used to be for me, a the worst card in the deck to get. Right now it reads like the two of them plus the 9 of swords, 10 of swords, 3 of swords, Judgement and Death. I want the rename it "The Hanged Innocent Belgian Shepherd" . I see the coins falling out of his hand. I've lost something more precious than gold. I thought she was in safe hands. Nope. She's in the ground and the afterlife. I pray she can forgive me. And that I can too.

 

I love you Selene. I'm so very sorry.

 

Like that can fix anything. Ha.

 

LinkWithin

Related Posts Plugin for WordPress, Blogger...