I spent the day in London Saturday. I asked my guides to just lead me to wherever I was supposed to go. I found myself in an accupunturist's office by the end of the of the evening. I felt like hell and was in so much pain it was ridiculous. Given the past 7 years of working toward healing 9 damaged disks in my spine, please understand how much trust this took!!! In mySelf, my guides and Dr. Wang, who I just randomly found. Long story short, it was a very positive experience. Of the many things he advised me to do was to go back to yoga everyday. (Because my intuition, my former trainer and dear friend who did SO much to bring me healing over th years, and the tarot had never suggested the importance of this...) I knew beyond a doubt I'd get the 10 of wands/swords/the Hanged Man. Here is how this will benefit me.
Mind - 6 of wands - Those neurotransmitters will start firing properly and I can tell my old buddy Depression and Anxiety to miss where the sun don't shine! I will have more clarity and confidence and see myself as the amazing woman I am. Go me.
Body - Magician - (I chose to place this card at the bottom.) I will feel so much stronger and physically adept. This speaks to the mind/body/spirit/heart connection that Eastern philosophy addresses. To treat the entire being, unlike how in Western medicine the focus is symptomatic treatment which is so fucking foolish. But that generates more $,€, and £ baby. I think this card shows I'm in very capable hands with Dr. Wang. I am excited to be able to show him that I've progressed when I return next month.
Soul - The Empress III - (placed in the middle, where my soul is) My central focus needs to be on self-care. I have such a tendency to nurture everyone else but me. I'm instantly drawn to the swan and her cygnet. I had an amazing experience this past Sunday where I got to see Her Magesty's Royal Swan Warden tag swans! The purpose is to asses the health of the swans and ensure their population increases. They are gorgeous creatures and extremely protective of their young. Witnessing this was pure medicine for my soul. And yoga will be as well.
Bottom line - 10 of wands - Lol, and there it is. One of my primary indicators of back pain and accupressure. being a wand this shows me that yoga will help aliviate stress due to the fact that I feel the weight of the world is upon me most days. I'll be getting my energy/qui moving and feel far less lethargic and more revitalized.
Here is the nice YouTube lady I chose to follow for the 30 day yoga if you'd like to try it as well and a video on proper form for planking.
I am so sleepy, kinda like last night (if you couldn't tell with the three sentence post lol). I stayed until 6:30AM to watch President Mandela's memorial. So the past two nights have been quite a challenge to keep my commitment to a post a night. I pulled The Magician I from the Robin Wood deck. He stands here with his hand extended as though he is offering a magickal gift to me. The yellow background speaks to me of the arch angel Jophiel again and also the crystal citrine. Maybe I need to start carrying a piece with me. It is so good for the solar plexus chakra, the power center. I've been thinking a lot of trying my hand at a crystal grid. Citrine is great for money. For some reason the number 1 is making me think of the month of January, which is interesting because if I'm going to draw a connection to a particular month, I always associate this card with late March through April for Aries .
So to sum it all up, I need to remain optimistic because I will be offered a magickal new opportunity or gift in January that will bring money and a feeling of joy and empowerment. Hmm. I guess we'll see.
As I was writing the date in the title, it hit me that today is the 28th consecutive day of me making posts. They say it takes 27 days to form a habit. I think my buddy the Magician is here to escort me over the threshold of life as a daily blogger. Maybe the devilish spark in his eye hints of things yet to come as a direct result.
I did it!!! I made a post back in December about buying a Groupon for flight lessons. Well last week on Friday April 27, 2012, I did it and it was one of the most amazing things I have ever done! What's even crazier is that an old friend that I haven't seen since before Kartrina is the owner of the business! What a wonderful surprise it was to see him after so long and know that he is doing well. (His wife? Not so thrilled lol! Grow up lady)
I am posting several pictures at the end. You know I always post the song/video at the end, but this video is just too damn funny to miss! It is so perfect for this post, and as a former flight attendant for 10 years, I have to tell you that though exaggerated, this is in many ways a very realistic take on the behavior of airline people! As for the beginning of the video and the very end, yes, that is very loosely based on an actual incident that occurred at American Airlines a few years back! (And yes, most pilots really are that damn corny!)
So I am posing the question is "What do want me to take away from this experience?" I'm doing my RockStar reading with the addition of a new member to the band. I am using the same decks I used in the original reading, my Sweet Twilight Tarot and my Oracle of Shadows and Light that to tell me a message from Freyja.
Lead Singer - The Tower XVI- Ah, one of those rare treats where the Tower is actually good thing! Doing this was a mind blowing experience that I will never forget! And just like this girl, I was high above it all looking off into the horizon, far removed from anything negative. As she sits here with her teddy bear, it confirms what I already know, and that is that my daddy was right there with me! And I know he was beaming with pride and excitement for me!
Back-up #1- 2 of pentacles - The first thing I notice is how this chick is standing. She is feelin' herself! (that is American street slang for one having extreme confidence lol). I even have an actual photo where I am standing in this same pose! You can't tell her that she ain't tha shit! She sees herself as the woman she wants to be and therefore is. I love that red hat! Very I'm-attending -the-Royal-Wedding. It says I deserve the finer things that bring me joy so it's time to make sure I have them. And the water reminds me of us flying over part of the massive Lake Pontchartrain. I think this card reflects the going back and forth on whether or not to make this purchase given my finances. I did the cards and followed their advice. And don't you know I went to The Quarter the next day and made just what I needed! I am so glad I took the leap of faith and did this!
Back-up #2 - The Lovers VI - A number of things come to mind with this card. First and foremost, to always choose the things that I am most passionate about, that make my heart soar. Flying is divine experience for me that is thrilling beyond words. Even as a passenger or working the flight as a F/A. i freakin' love it! I love how this deck shows them floating above Earth in their own dimention of time and space. Another thing about this card is the connection between the couple on the card. It reminds me of my instructor Lance. There was no romantic connection at all, but the bond of friendship and compatibility was instantaneous! Like we had known each other forever and hung out together everyday. He was hilarious! He told me about a girl in high school who used to say, "I got Lance in my pants and I need to dance!" LMFAO The same wrapped, dark humor and unorthodox behavior as me. Loved him! We both made note that anyone in any aviation is twisted and perverted lmao!
The other thing about this card is that it is ruled by Gemini, an air sign. My dad was a Gemini. *smile* I love and miss you Al.
Drummer (bottom line) - The Magican I - It is no surprise to me that there are three majors in this 4 card reading. And yet another one ruled by air, the planet Mercury no less, the winged god. The bottom line is to know that I have the power to manifest all the things present in this reading that will allow me to continue with my passion for flight. The fire and passion from the Tower will make me find a way to get the pentacles I need for future lessons. And know that I have what it takes to be a great pilot, so do not doubt myself!
Message from Freyja- Fairy of the Highlands #20 - There were times when I was afraid. I mean, the man turned the controls of a freakin' airplane to ME! WTF LMAO! And the fact that I have never been in an itty-bitty lil plane like that before. When you have to untie the aircraft so that it doesn't blow away when not in use and yell contact to make it go... come on. For real?! And that little flimsy door! I have seen soda cans that were sturdier than this thing! I swear it was held together with duct tape and spit! And I love sitting by the window when I fly. I always request a window seat. I love looking down at the countryside or cityscapes as we zip past. BUT THE WINDOW HAS NEVER BEEN OPEN BEFORE! WTF MAN! lmao That was SO freaky! This little fairy reminds me that I was brave and should be proud of myself. And I have to do this again! I can't chicken out and think I can't do this, because I totally can! *note to Self*
Fuel? Check.....
Dear Jesus, I am flying an airplane...(note, my hair is windblown. Know why? THE DAMN OPEN WINDOW IS WHY! LOL LOL)
Lance, my flight instructor. He was the coolest cat ever!
Yep, that'd have been taken out of that window that was cracked open!
the very controls I sat before!
She is feelin' herself here ain't she?! LOL
In stead of telling him to say "cheese" I told him "Lance in your pants!" Sicko-whack-jobs! tee-hee
the following were taken in the simulator
"Holy shit! I just flew a freakin' plane!"
I did it Dad!
Amelia, goddess of flight, is enshrined in the hallway
Ok, so if you are in any way involved in the tarot community, then surely you are no stranger to the very public situation with regard to Janet Boyer and the extremely disturbing material she has written and published. I had no idea that she had ever written or said anything ugly about anyone until last week. Now have I known of her for many years and assumed she was a very well respected name in tarot who has written a number of books. I guess she does a lot of reviews and prides herself on being known as a very tough reviewer. But I had never heard anything negative about her. Actually, I'd never really heard anyones opinion one way or the other about the woman until about a week and a half ago. I was on one of my favorite FB pages (I honestly don't remmeber which one right now) and a lady I'd never heard of named Abella asked a question with regard to getting people to either visit your blog or to make comments on it, or something like that. (As you can tell there is a bit of paraphrasing going on, but I will make it obvious if I am directly quoting anyone) The next thing I know Janet Boyer made some really fucked up comment to the effect of Abella being stupid and therefore no one would be interested in anything she had to say. My mouth fell open, and I thought to myself what a harsh way of joking she had. Surely she was not serious...? Long story short, it became quite clear that no, she was not joking and several people came to Abella's defense, one of whom I'd love to meet one day. I think his name is Jordan. Mannn, he lit into her ass like a firecracker on the 4th of July!!! And he was very smart about it by putting out there certain facts that Janet Boyer could have used against him. (Smart cookie Jordan! Disarm the bully and they don't have any ammunition. I know I'd never want to get cussed out by you lol!) I responded how surprised I was that anyone would make such a hurtful and uncalled for comment, then just sat there with my mouth still hanging open catching flies. The shit was going down in that thread of comments!
Ok long story short, I then was made aware that as bad as this was, it was nothing in comparrison to other things she has said about various members of the tarot community, in particular Donnaleigh de LaRose of Divine Whispers and the Blogtalk radio show Beyond Worlds . Things that are ridiculous, insane, dare I say, evil and most probably illegal. And she made said these things public knowledge in a book she wrote!
Look, we all have had people we didn't like. Hell, maybe even hated. But putting pen to paper to graphically express your visions of murdering someone, at a damn tarot convention (?!!), who is a real person and not a fictional character (maybe if she ahdn't used a variation of her victim's real name she could have possibly argued it was a work of fiction and not personal desires journaled and published) and then going on to describe defecating on the body of said murdered individual while hanging her ass over the lady's grave is some not only fucked up, it is homicidal and I'd venture to say illegal.
I've done about 3 readings on this. I wanted to make sure that the Tarot was talking, not me projecting my own opinions, which I admit, are pretty strong. I intentionally used two different decks that are both considered "dark" so as to not show any bias. I even did each row based on alphatetical order of their names. Hell, I even used reversals (Rx) which I almost never do!
I used Ferol Humphrey's 5 Card Commentary spread.
Row A = Donnaleigh
1. Short answer: Ace of Pentacles~ Well Donnaleigh, I'd have to say that my suspicions about the legality of this issue are correct and you will be having some financial compensation headed your way, not that any amount of money is worth all of this hell. It also shows how scary and huge of a beast this all is for you to have to slay.
2,3, and 4. Long answer: Queen of Wands Rx, The Tower XVI, The Magician I, 7 of swords Rx: Please don't let this turn your creative process upside down or drain you of your vibrant energy that is so bright and the reason so many people are so drawn to you. Hold on to what is sacred to you and know that you are leading the way for others in this situation. I do wonder with that Tower if there are more unpleasant surprises headed your way unfortunately. I suppose a nasty court case would explain that. And you clearly have been under fire by some very nasty blows. But you are an extremely intelligent woman who has everything you need to fight back, cut through all this shit and get your life back. And again I see money. And a lot of people as you know have rallied around you in support.
5. Advice: 7 of swords Rx~ My advice though is to please be cautious, which I think you know. The 7of Sw is often called the "sneaky bastard" card. There is something or someone I think who is not trustworthy or feeding Janet information.
Row B= Janet Boyer 1. Short answer: 10 of Scepters Rx
2,3, and 4 Long answer: Judgement XX, 3 of Grails, Ace of Grails Rx~ Janet I'd have to say that it is about to be judgement day for you lady and it looks like a fiery pit awaits. You dug your own grave. This card for me also means re-thinking ones career or a second chance at a career you always wanted. I'd say a new line of work may be the way to go since you have burned most of your tarot bridges. The 3ofC says to me tht jealousy and wanting to be the center of attention got you into a lot of this trouble, Being next to the Rx AofC I wonder if she have a drinking problem. At the very least it shows she does not know how to play nice with others. 5. Advice: 10 of Knives Rx~ Damn lady. Another 10 that is Rx. With swords being about communication and also conflict, this again shows me the death of your writing career. I also feel like she is going to play the innocent victim. And the Gemini glyph of the woman's necklace makes me think of severe bi-polar issues.
Though I am just making this post, I decided early on to take a stand and did so in several FB posts. And I am proud to say many others whom I like and respect did so as well, in particular Lisa of Tarotize and Hannah of Tarotmantica, and the lady who writes the really cool 78 Notes to name a few. As a Capricorn, bullying, injustice and cruelty are things I have always spoke out against. Even as a kid in grade school when other kids where picked on. I even went toe-to-toe with my Adv Foreign Policy teacher in high school for picking on another student. I can't stand a mean asshole. But you ain't seen a meany until you have encountered an unstable, pissed off, vengeful, mean Scorpio who talks openly about killing somebody! (And I am actually speaking from personal experience with one of them. Dear Jesus you have no idea the level of crazy those people can reach) Oh hell no! So for these reasons, I am choosing to boycott Janet Boyer. I personally feel this bitch is crazy as a shit-house rat and want no parts of her.
But the good that I can say that has come out of this madness is getting to meet and know so very nice people. Unfortunately it happened because of all this.
*if you are not comfortable with harsh language, you may not want to watch Eminem's video that follows. But I think the lyrics couldn't be more perfect.*
I'd like to make you guys aware of a new self-published oracle deck that will be available to us soon and I can not WAIT to get my hot little hands on it! I'm sure all of you are familiar with the Tarot Dame. She is a wonderful reader who has an amazing blog where she does daily draws and cameos a new deck each week. I have learned a lot from reading her blog and am happy that I can now say I think of her as more than just a fellow reader but as a friend I just haven't met face-to-face yet lol. Well wasn't I shocked when I saw her post the other day that she has been working on this gorgeous new creation. The images are already speaking to me loud and clear and I am so excited to know when the deck will be available!
It makes me think of The Magician I. This card is all about a golden opportunity that has come your way and you have to jump on it. I have chosen the Magician from the Dark Angels Tarot. I love how even though he has all of the tools at his disposal that he needed to manifest a specific desired result, even he is in awe as he watches it unfold. I'm sure this whole process has been a magickal progression for her as she brought her vision to light and it is now a reality.
Please head over to her blog and you can see several of the cards and you will see a link to email her so she can get a good idea of how much interest there is in it as she is doing a limited amount.
I DID IT!!!
I did it damnit all to hell! I FINALLY carried my ass down to the French Quarter (FQ) to Jackson Square (JSq) and read cards!
I was so nervous, but I finally made up my mind because it was just before Halloween and what better time and place for Goddess sake!?! New Orleans, LA in The FQ, on Halloween! If not then, WTF man! I went to my cousin's room and told that ballsy Leo chick to kick my ass. And she did lol! I had no idea how the frick I was gonna get me and all my shit from A-B. It hit me, *ding* use your rollerboard flight attendant! So I packed up candles, put newspaper and prayer in and around the glass holders, my pillow, blanket, cards inscence, 3 decks of cards, and pretty cloths for my table, shoved a wad of bread and a Motrin 800mg down my gullet, slapped on my screaming whore red MAC Russian Roulette lipstick and rolled on out the door. My cousin had gotten the cloth fold up chairs out for me. I threw it all in the back of his beat up pick up truck his wife The Leo named The Green Goblin and carried my ass to the store to get a table. I'd looked it up online, called and they said they had it. I drive to the FQ and decide to go to pay to park so I knew I'd find a space. I knew I could not have even the slightest thing be even a remotely possible reason for me to punk out! I drag my shit to JSq and start to set up and stop short. WTH.... The freakin' table is SO NOT the one I saw online!! It barely came as high as my knees and was like 1' X 1'! Was this intended for a 3yr old's tea party?! My heart sank a bit, but I was just so proud I had even got this far. I was jsut about to pack up when the husband, Xan, of the nice couple I have become friends with comes over and is looking at me like WTH is that LOL? He then goes over and Willow, his wife who gave me a wonderful reading a couple of weeks ago and encouraged me to come out there, was so kind and let me use one of her tables! They are the nicest people, I'm really happy to be building a friendship with them! Long story short, no sooner than I lit the candles did a woman come and sit down. I was so so nervous, that I was too nervous to remember I was nervous LMFAO! I ended up doing 3 readings. I'd set a goal of leaving by midnight and not without $100. Well, by 11:30pm, I had exactly $100! I'm so pissed I forgot to take pix of my first big night because I had a ball! I've done readings before, but not anything like this. This was the most brave I may have ever been about my tarot career. I'm still in shock. I have had the most f*kd up stomach flu so I haven't been back yet. But on Oct 30, 2011, (the birthday of my mother who would so not approve- tee-hee-hee!) I popped my tarot cherry LMFAO!
So my inner "Yeah But....." is all like, "well... what if that was just a fluke and you totally suck next time hmmm??"
So my I'm going to pull some cards to address that. I will use my Faulkner Tarot since all 3 peeps chose that one out of the 3 decks I had to choose from. (I just knew someone would want The Tarot of Vampyres on Halloween for Pete's sake, but nope)
This is so direct and to-the-point it's as ridiculous as I am about being such a chicken-shit LOL! We got 2 Major arcana and one face out of 3 cards. The elemental dignites are water/water/air. Which in this reading I'd say are perfect; intuition and emotions mixed with logic and communication. Bam.
1. How do I need to see myself as a professional reader now that I did this?- Queen of Cups- This is water of water. She is the nurturer, the compassionate woman who's intuition is almost always spot on. If you ever wanted a card to represent who you are with regard to anything in the psychic realm, other than the mighty High Priestess Herself, this is it!
2. What is blocking me from seeing myself that way?- The Hanged Man XII- The first thing that came to mind was the word " bullshittin'!" As in wasting time, hanging out, not being direct and waiting until I'm under the gun to do shit while I'm all stressed out. This card is ruled by Neptune. Many of us involved with the spiritual side of life tend to not be successful because we get stoned on the big pink smoke machine and glitter of the esoteric like a bunch of 1930's jazz musicians. We just float along and don't remember that time is money, so use one wisely and you will create more of the other one! --- Omg--- It's 00:10 and someone's alarm clock jsut went off, surely by accident, but while I am looking at this card! Talk about your wake up call! Wake up and get my shit together! Treat this as the real profession it is and not like a hobby to pass the time!
3. What card should I focus in whenever I start to doubt mySelf as a professional reader?The Magician I Ruled by Mercury, planet of speed and communication. Card that is the Godsmack of a golden opportunity. It says you have everything you need right at your hot little hands to create the result you want. Just focus, believe with every fiber of your being and make the shit happen. It means an amazing new job opportunity. I have amazing chemistry with people more often than not. I make them feel at ease and not judged and am very easy to talk to. I see the path and the bend in it. I don't know where this will take me, but if I don't keep moving I'll neer find out. And the brightness is almost like I'm really outside in the sunshine. There is the path, the boat, the bridge; this will all lead to numerous opportunities that far reach what my narrow vision can see right now. It will take work, but it will be SO worth it!
This is actually Saturday's draw. I just asked "what would be the energy of the day". I got the King of Swords as the rockstar and the backup singers were the Magician I and the the Moon XVIII. I got from this that I need to bring out the energies of the KofSw, his logical, direct, to-the-point decisiveness which Goddess knows I lack! Look how confident this KofSw looks. That would play perfectly off the Magician. He looks like even he is in awe of the magick he is creating. Both are ruled by air and the Magician by the planet Mercury which is all about communication and speed. I need to learn to process my thoughts more quickly so I can take more decisive actions and trust myself more to make good decisions. The Magician can show my inner KofSw I have everything it takes to create the results I want. A certain someone who's card is the KofSw and still has a place in my heart (if you've read my blog for a bit then you know who I mean, the one who moved to Australia. You can plat catchup here if you'd like to know more) popped in my head. I thought about his personality and certain risky but very rewarding decisions he made and how they paid off big time. I need to follow his lead in that respect. I just need to calm the negative Moon aspects of fear of the unknown that keep my emotions in control instead of assuming a commanding presence who cuts through the shit, makes moves and gets results. This is also shown by fact that the cards are the elements of air/air/water. This was the message I got when I did the cards early in my day.
While I was out and about I got two signs with regard to that certain someone who was my King of Swords. First sign was a street in Uptown New Orleans that is his first name. About an hour later I got sign number two. One way my guides speak to me is through license plates and I saw one from Colorado, the state he lived in before moving to The Land Down Under. As I drove around Lee Circle I thought about the night we met in the French Quarter and how there was that instant spark of electricity. And I felt it again from thinking about the strong connection we had. Then I felt the pang of dissapointment that there was just too much E.S. (extra shit) going on in both our lives that kept things from working out. Before he moved, we had a really good, very open and honest talk and he made it clear to me that he was really sorry things didn't work out and he knew I'd always be in his heart. I admitted the same. When I got back to the house that night and was puttzing around on FB I saw these really crazy, really cool black boots with the skeleton of a leg and foot on them, like it was an X-ray. I tagged my dear friend Seleus who does the Lotus Flower blog on Nicheren Buddhism in the post. I'll be damned if said Aquarian KofSw didn't click "like" on it! We don't really communicate anymore. He has a g/f and I am very happy for him that he is doing so well and is happy. But I think that we both still have feeelings that stem from all of the "What if's??" so it's just not possible for us to have an actual friendship. But every blue moon he will "like" something I post and I know that is his way of saying hi. It also shows that the connection is still there. And everytime he does, I still get butterflies and think of the night we met and everything that we shared. And I still hear my heart ask, "Man....What if..."
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