Starcana's Tarotscope Reading For Jan 2013

Hello all, I know it's been forever and 2 days since I blogged on here. It's nice to be back since on the blog where I am 100%, unapologetically Krysten. I've been trying to do more with my CreoleMoon.blogspot.com blog (I'm not as raw, nor is it as personal. If you know about this one, please check that one out, but I'm not publisizing this one over there. If they trip over this one, whatever.) Then there was the shit show that was Nov 27-Dec 24! Omfg! What a fucking nightmare! The short version, oral surgery! Dear Lord Baby Jesus the pain. Cliff Notes: a piece of drill bit from a root canal done 15-20 years ago was left on the root of my lower left molar. Yes.... You read that correctly. So after all these years my body took notice and decided to reject the foreign object. That caused decay very quickly that made the root unsalvageable. Thus necessitating an extraction. And that resulted in the particular brand of hell known as dry socket, pain that my oral surgeon said is on par with kidney stones and child birth. I've only had of the two of those and I must agree. It is mind-numbing-want-to-kill-yourself agoney! And of course she said mine was one of the worst she'd ever seen. Nice... It is basically exposed nerve and bone marrow. I will never use the term "getting on my damn nerves" so casually ever again.

But! I was able to eat something besides soup and apple sauce just in time for my birthday! The night before I was taken to a fabulous birthday dinner by my dear friend Michaelle and her significant other.I took a chance and ordered the fillet and it was tender as a Mother's love! What a wonderful Christmas Eve!

(I do not know what the fuck I'd have done without Michaelle throughout that month long experience in a scene from Hellraiser. I now refer to her affectionately as "my wife". Also eternal gratitude to Willow, Xan, Vernon, Richard, Jay and Levi, Michael, my oral surgeon and her staff of angels, my neighbors, and the recreational drug users who saved my life by contributing to the cause in my time if need before I could be seen by the endodontist and oral surgeon and get my Rx. Do I agree with recreational drug use? Hell no. Am I grateful I know folks who do? Hell yes.)

Another wonderful and amazing thing has been working with the unbelievable TarotDame, Kiki! OMG she has been amazing! I am forever grateful to the life changing skills she is teaching me through our personal coaching sessions! If you want to learn how to manifest the life you are meant to live, don't delay any longer! She is so nurturing, compassionate, and her teaching tools GET RESULTS! And she has the patience of St. Jude! I am so very Lucky to have her! *big smile*

Now to the business of tarot.

I decided to give Starcana's Tarotscope reading a whirl. To do this spread, you need to know your birthchart info. Try Cafe Astrology to get your natal chart done.

1. First card- Use your Ascendant to explain what you already know

2. Second card - Use your Moon sign to explain what is challenging you

3. Third card - What is being created in general

1. Queen of Cups - My ascendant sign is Aquarius. So the face I show to the world or how people see me as is outgoing, very likeable, a weirdo, eccentric, and a person who sees all of humanity as equals and believes it's my duty too be a humanitarian. As Michaelle would say, I "see the spark of God in even the worst of us". So with this QofC it seems that this month I will be even more nurturing and loving to the masses. The stork on this version also shows the fact that I've been having those crazy baby notions again. At 41! WTF. (and I got some pretty crazy signs today that flipped my wig man! A child came into the shop where i work who was a carbon copy of the child I'd had a dream about a week ago! Oh, and her mom's name was Dreama! Come on now, could I make that shit up?!) Aquarians are also planners and know-it-alls. Funny thing is, they usually do know it all lol. They also come across as fearless and are folks who take action and cut through bullshit. They don't talk about it, they be about it. So I perhaps the person that people will also see is the Me who Kiki is trying so hard to give the skills to take action and get shit done and how sincere I am. I also notice how at peace this queen is. This also has to do with me working with the Lwa LaSirene so much.

2. 3 of swords - My moon sign is a funny one. It's basically on the cusp of Pisces and Aries. Nice huh? So I'm either non confrontational but wish I'd just deal with shit head on, or I nut the fuck up and feel bad that I hurt the other persons feelings lol. I am proud to say I've gotten so much better with this. So what is challenging me emotionally is being kinda sad because I don't have a partner (Really y'all, what word does one use at my age? I mean, boyfriend just sounds ridiculous as shit after 25!) The 3ofSw almost always shows up as infidelity when I do readings. But since I am not with anyone, I'd say it has to do with direct and less than pleasant communication and clearing the air (swords) with the person I was dating for a couple of months. The one who didn't my birthday. He didn't forget. He just didn't do it. He "didn't get any gifts this year for anyone else either." So you want me to be your girlfriend (and he truly did!) but I'm no more important than "anyone" else?! Dude, did you fall and hit your head or are you huffing paint? Do NOT play with me about my Christmas birthday! But not a card, a cupcake, a flower from somebody's yard? I almost never drink, but I do so love St. Germain/soda with lime. Not even a birthday drink from him. BECAUSE YES, I BOUGHT THAT MYSELF WHEN WE WENT OUT! After my friend and her man took me for fine dining. Needless to say,that was the last straw.

I think I need to explore the fact that I left my ex back in 2004 when he broke up with me on my birthday. Until this clown, I'd never broken up with anyone. So this was a huge step for me to take a stand and put my own needs, feelings and worth above someone else's. I'm so glad I finally started to wake up, to take a stand. To not tolerate bullshit because of my bleeding heart and allowing sympathy and/or empathy for other's issues to prevent me from setting boudaries and demand that they are respected. So I guess this card is telling me I need to speak my peace honestly but without going batshit crazy on the other person. Clear, direct communication when my heart has been hurt.

3. High Priestess - God I love tarot lol. Y'all know this is my all time favorite card in tarot! What I'm creating in general is the woman I most admire and strive to be. A woman who is poised and graceful when appropriate yet a force to be reckoned with. A woman that others are drawn to because of my depth and wisdom I've gained through learning from my experiences. A confident, gifted tarot reader who allows Spirit to flow through me via my intuition. I notice how both of these regal ladies who have mastered the art of being comfortable in their own skin have far more important things to focus on than this triad of confusion, suffering and sorrow. One is focused in peaceful mediation (dear Jesus, Isis, and Freyja Kiki, OK, OK lady LMAO). The other is focused on self-reflection. Both are focused on how to be of service to others. This is also the card I associate LaSirene with more than any other. I am we'll and truly blessed. My card for the year is The Wheel is saying that January will start 2013 rolllin' along quite nicely!

 

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You don't know how to start
Just look inside your heart
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I don't know what to choose

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And find out who you are
You better make a plan
'Cause this has gone too far

When we went to the wishing well,
We thought we saw the light

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I don't know what to do
To make it right for you
You tell me I'm no good
I feel misunderstood
I'm sick of taking blame
Playing the same old game

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We thought we saw the light
But even though we took that trip,
It never came out right

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I Have Another Blog!

I'd like to start off by saying thank you to all of you for reading this blog. When I first created it, it was designed to be a journal, a means of catharsis. I wasn't sure if I was going to make it public. I'm glad I did and I want you to know that it really warms my heart when I look and see all of the places you all check in from. Life is a busy, crazy thing and I thank you for taking time out of yours to come visit with me here.

Because I am reading tarot professionally, I have started another blog, Creole Moon Tarot. I'm still working out what the format/content will be but it will not be the personal tales of Krysten like Violette Kitty is. As soon as you see it you will notice the stark contrast.

 

So I invite you to come visit the other blog and leave feedback. And I thank you all.

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Owning My Own Epic Greatness

I decided to try Lisa's Owning Your Own Epic Greatness spread. Elementally I see I am odds with myself because fear (cups) extinguishes my enthusiasm (wands). I'm not grounded enough in the mundane world of logic and cutting the bullshit (one earth, no air)

1. My greatest fear about owning my own epic greatness? - Rx 10 of wands - my greatest fear is how to break out of the prison of fear. This also shows my fear of hurting my back again. Also the fear of having to assume responsibility and getting overwhelmed.

2. Challenge to overcome this fear- My glorious Rx High Priestess II - I have to push past the boundary of indecision, that constant nagging fear of "getting it wrong". I need to trust myelf more and see myself as the powerful woman that so any others see me as. So many people are drawn to me, tell me their deepest, darkest most sacred secrets. Things that could change or even ruin life as they know it.

3. Let go - The World XXI - At first this threw me for a loop, but I realize it is the negative people or situations that are around me at times. If we are all mirrors reflecting the people in our lives, then that means those negative aspects that are within me. My being stubborn and ridged in my approach. My being focused on what why things will go wrong and not why they will go right. My ego and its many bruises. Not believing on magick, especially my own. And not celebrating my accomplishments. Anyone who mirrors this I need to remove from m orbit. Even if they are really good people that I care about.

4. New channel of support - Rx Princess of Cups - Waiting, ever so patiently, with so much kindness and love are brings in both the mundane and the esoteric realm. They are committed to supporting me in any creative, intuitive, or emotional means of expression. And to learning to have consistent inner peace, regardless of what is going on around me.

5. Leadership responsibility - Ace of Wands - Wowww. A whole new way of living and leading others from the darkness of fears similar to my own. Spiritual liberation born from creating hope.

I need to marinate on the depth of this...

But I can say that I have taken steps toward all of this in the past week. Lets see

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Happy Birthday Amy

I just traipsed home after spending time in my favorite den of debauchery. I decided to take a nice hot shower to unwind. For some reason Amy Winehouse came to mind, and then I remembered that she is a Virgo so her birthday must have just passed or be coming up soon. So after slipping on my jamas I Google to find out when her birthday is. It is today! September 14th. Now I haven't listened to Amy in forever, so I have no idea why it was made clear to me that today is her birthday. Nor why it is important for me to make a post about it since I haven't made any posts on here since July. But it is, and so I am. I was also called to use my Dark Angels tarot. Perhaps because Amy is a beautiful dark angel.

I have chosen to select the Ace of Cups. I pray that Amy has transitioned to a beautiful new state of being that is filled with peace, contentment and love. That she realizes how deeply she touched so many hearts, and that she is missed both body and soul. RIP sweet Amy.
Since either iPad sux or I'm just not tech savy, I am not able to post the video I want to, so here is the link to a beautiful duet she performed with Tony Bennett as well as a link to the post I made last year when she passed.

Litha 2012

Today is Litha, or Midsummer in the Northern hemisphere. It is the day that the sun is at its most powerful, the longest day of the year. After today, the days wil gradually begin to grow shorter. The Oak King will loose his poer and the Holly King w

ill begin to gain his. A lot of very interesting and less than pleasant things have happened in the past week or so. Particularly the past day or so. Goddess do I wish I didn't have to always experience things painfully in order for me to do what I need to and tell Fear and Doubt to kiss my ass. I looked at a few posts from the Tarot Bloghop. Since my beloved Apple MacBook Air was stolen 2 weeks ago, I didn't want to commit to joining the hop and not be able to make a post. So I am going to do a spread that the ultra cool Arwen created for the last bloghop, Beltane. I need to reignite my passion.
Magickal Graphics Tinder: this card shows you what small things you can do to ignite your passion. Kindling: this card shows you what you must keep doing to fuel your passion. Fuel: this card shows you the major actions you must take to allow your passion to burn on a steady basis. *I used the very pretty Incedental Tarot. I have a new iPad and there is a bit of a learning curve in making posts. I pray I can figure out how to make some adjustments because as of now, I can't seem to add photos nor my usual bright colors I love so much. Rats!* 1. Tinder - The World Rx - Ok, for a small thing this sure is a big card lol. I heard in my head, "the sky is falling!" This card is telling me stop limiting myself. Expand my vision of what inspires me. And when I hit a road block, it's not the end of the world for heaven's sake! Go with the flow more on the smaller everyday things and they will generate bigger results. Stop limiting mySelf due to fear of failure! *I need to make a post about The World. It is basically stalking me at this point* 2. Kindling - The Rose Queen - This one is clear as day; nurture mySelf and do NOT allow mySelf to be drained by the emotional needs of others. I tend to get all caught up in helping others sort out their own mess. It is because I am an extremely compassionate and empathetic person. It is also because it is a perfect distraction from facing my own! This includes my interaction with one particular QofC. It is imperative I maintain healthy boundaries with this person. Passion is fire. We all know what happens when fire is in the presence of too much water. The Rose Queen also says in a lovely British accent, "Keep calm and carry on". 3. Fuel - The Sun - How synchronous that I get The Sun on Litha! This Sun says that not getting burned out is key to allowing my passion to burn on a steady basis. It's face has the same vibe as the Rose Queen. It also is telling me that getting back on my physical health plan will assist with any depression issues. Keeping myself active with the things I am passionate about and being in positive and healthy environments and like minded people will keep my soul's light burning brightly. This lil' light of mine. I'm gonna let it shine! 4. Bottom Line - 9 of Arrows - Stop inhibiting my own power from moving me forward! This card says that i am so much closer than I think I am to a whole new beginning. Of living with a lust for life. If I follow the advice of the previous cards , I can avoid the 10 of Arrows and just go straight to the Ace! http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fbWzlfdmbUQ&sns=em

A friend asked me to do a reading for her. She has the desire to start writing again and wants to know what the cards have to say about her perusing this as a career. I know she really likes the Sweet Twilight so I have chosen that deck for her reading.

What is your greatest strength as a writer? -  7 of pentacles -  Ok, how cow, the first thing I notice right off the bat is that all of the cards except one are pentacles! So I definitely see this having the very strong likelihood of being a viable career choice that will bring financial reward.
 I see this card saying that you have a gift  of strong character development. You know how to step aside and allow your characters to  tell you who they are, not just you create them. You can see the whole of the story in advance. It's like you are able to write so that there are details in chapter 1 that you remember, but have no idea what an integral part of the story they are until chapter 9, or book 2.
I see you writing stories where your readers will love all of your characters, not just the main character. Each of them will be very dynamic and have their own unique personality and style of self-expression. And when you put all of those unique personalities into one creative work, it will be like this card. A cast of crazy characters that form one cohesive unit. I see the one cat in the middle with the polka-dot hat, looking all sullen and so deep inside his own head. Is your main character very heavy and dark, a very unique individual in some way? And I see the girl with the guitar looking over at him sympathetically. Is there one person who really "sees" that character? The only one who is allowed inside? Or is this you and a particular person who is one of the special few who is allowed to knowing you on a very deep level?

How can you enhance that? - Rx Queen -  You need to nurture the gift you have for writing. The huge moon or pearl is behind her. So before you can do that, you have to truly see it how gifted you are. How much wisdom and life experience you have. Both from your own personal experience as well as your keen powers of observation. How you might be sitting somewhere silently, perhaps even unnoticed,yet you are taking in every detail. I also feel like your dreams will give you so much to assist in your writing. Find out what flower essence and crystals helps with dreams.
I also see this as saying that you need to create a designated time and space that is exclusively for your writing. This queen is earth of water. If you wish to manifest tangible results, you must nurture the process as well as the part of you who is the gifted writer. You will be tapping into some deep emotions and that part of you will need know she is in a safe environment to be so vulnerable and to work through the heavy emotions. The pearl says that the greatest irritations or sore spots are what will lead you to create a beautiful piece.

What weakness do you need to address if you wish to pursue this as a career? - Knight of Pentacles - I heard "being out of your element". He is the Knt of P, but he is flying, over water. He is not grounded. Is he not comfortable with who he is? Or is it where he is? Does this come back to not having the proper environment to nurture your creativity? And he is looking back behind him. You need to move past the fear or previous criticism. You can rebuild after the emotional wipe out you experienced.
I also feel like this is reiterating that need for a secluded, safe place to navigate through your emotions that may be turbulent and run quite deep.
Another thing I feel this card is saying is that you have to find a way to not be discouraged if this takes longer than you'd like. Enjoy the process in and of itself, not just the vision of a specific outcome.

How can you turn that weakness into a strength? - The Wheel of Fortune - The first thing I heard is "take that leap of faith". I feel like this is saying you need to do healing work with your root chakra. Heal money issues/poverty consciousness and feeling safe in the world. That no matter what happens the Universe will support you. And with this card and so many positive ones around it, Lady Luck is on your side. You may want to look into what stones or crystals you can work with to balance all of your charkas.  The Knt of P has to do with the root chakra, so for that one, ruby, garnet, obsidian, and hematite come to mind.

What is the first step to making your dream a reality? - 9 of swords - Spending time alone to clear your head. Healthy self-analysis is a benefit of charkra work. Meditate. Again, the theme of what your dreams have to tell you. Do you want to write horror stories that scare the crap outta people like Wes Craven lol?Pray for your angels to make you aware of negative thoughts and doubts that will cut your connection to your creative side. I'm not if depression is an issue for you or not, but there is a lot of fear of the worst case scenario. You have to find a way to remove yourself from negative people or situations. I also see this as saying that you have to see yourself as being completely worthy of having your dreams become a beautiful reality. It's saying to me that you need to make a declarative statement to The Universe. State exactly what you want, don't ask.

Blessings to you my friend. I can't wait to see your name on my iPad or Kindle!

A New Dawn, A New Day

Today marked the definitive ending of a very long, very unpleasant situation, and I am happier than words can say that this chapter is now officially a part of my past. (Thank you Jesus, Mary and Joseph! And Freyja, Tyr, Odin and The Buddha too because I damn sure was assisted by all of you through this!)I have learned a great deal during this process, including learning how to stop asking the question "Why?" and start asking "What?" "How?" I swear "Why?" is a Capricorn thing, a huge part of our mission in this incarnation. I have discovered that why can be quite debilitating and how and what tend to be far more empowering.

So when I did my daily draw with my Tarot of Vampyers  for meditation I was not at all shocked but so pleased to get the confirmation from the Universe of the theme of the day. I usually do one card and write about it in my journal, but I was guided to do a 3 card RockStar. Here is what the Goddess had to tell me.

Lead Singer - Ace of Scepters (Wands) -  My face lit up when I saw this card and a sense of accomplishment came over me. Today was all about a new beginning that has been fueled by many things. That fierce red signifies a whole lot of pain as do the thorns of the rose bushes. The pain of my spirit being weighed down by a whole lot of heavy burdens as well as actual excruciating physical pain. That cross shows the pain of my faith being TESTED! And I have no shame in being totally honest in saying there where times when my faith was burned to a crisp. Times when I had lost any kind of hope. But those bright crimson roses signify power, excitement and the vitality of life.I have grown so much through all of this. Everyone has their own proverbial crosses to bear. I am beyond grateful for the love and encouragement I have constantly gotten from the many wonderful people in my life who love and believe in me. Who never lost faith in me, even when I did. The AofW is like that first  spark of this suit, the flame at the tip of a match. So I have to remember to continue to breath fresh air filled with excitement for the new possibilities it holds for me.

Back-up #1 - Daughter of Knives (Page of Swords) -  This card is also spot on. Today did involve very direct communication and signing legal documentation. I love this version of the PofSw. She is a serious kick-ass babe with her Doc Martin's on. And again, pages are represent new beginnings. The glow in the forest behind her is shining from the bright glow of that Ace.

Back-up #2 - 10 of knives (10 of swords) - Yet another dead on card (ok, bad pun lol) Today's date is the 10th. It is done! O-va! Stick a fork in it! I see her Gemini glyph. Again the theme of communication and finding balance before you loose your damn mind. Combined with the Sun carved into the bedpost shows new light and new life shed. It looks like the Daughter of Knives is looking over and this card. That'd be me thinking of how I really thought at times that this shit was gonna kill me! I often see this card as a person having 3 choices. #1. You can be a victim in the situation. A lot of times we actually are the victim. The question is if we are going to choose to stay in that frame of mind and be a victim. Then there is #2, the choice of whether we are going to adopt the behavior of the assassin. Are we going to allow our own pain, anguish and resentment to fester and lead us to behaving like a bitter victim. When we don't learn how to transform suffering into enlightenment we live in the life condition of Hell. That bitterness is toxic and can cause us to find false power in becoming an assassin. Both of those usually have a whole lot of "Why's!?!" attached.
The other choice is to recognize those options and realize that both lead to self-torture. So that leaves us with the choice #3, of accepting the nature of the number 10. It is a transitional phase between the ending of the 9 and the fresh new start of a 1/Ace. This choice means we ask "How can I transform mySelf, my Life. Both in spite of AND because of this situation?" "What can I do in spite of how fucked up things are that will give me even a slightly better result than the one I got right now?"

*I took this picture at least 7 times with several different settings. I have no idea why it is so crappy because it is NOT showing the true beauty and vibrant colors of this deck *

Drummer - The World XXI - I mean really, what more need be said. But in case there is anyone who is new to tarot, I shall explain a bit. This is the end of the major arcana. It is about having gone through a tremendous amount of major life lessons that are now behind you. Many of which involved circumstances beyond our control. When this card comes up, I find you get a minute to breath. See how she is reared back holding the serpent? She is far more flexible in how she sees life and she has learned to face her fears and use them to her advantage. She's sitting on top of the World right now basking in the cosmic energy that surrounds her and runs through her. The bite mark on her neck says she is no victim. She has gone through a massive transformation. Whether she chose the conditions of how it came about is of no consequence to her. That would be a "Why?" Her focus is on being blissfully content with who she has become.
The flowerless vines beneath her remind her/me that there is still much more work ahead. Through this situation that the reading speaks to, I have really come to accept that there is no ending to bad, unfair, or unpleasant situations. But there is no end to the wonderful, inspiring, joyful, blissful ones either. Maybe even the fact that there is no "good" nor is there "bad" Like this 10ofSw. It is usually seen as a "bad" card. One of the worst in the deck fact. And here it signifies a very welcomed ending. Maybe the Buddhists are right. There is no bad. There is no good. Shit just.... is. I think that this gorgeous Vampyress has figured out this key mystery of this life and that is why she was chosen to grace The World card. Maybe she knows that this is what it means to truly live in The World. To have reached Nirvana.