I decided to use my Crowley deck today. I've had it for years, like, over 10, and as beautiful as it is, as much as so many readers absolutely love it and think it is one of the greatest decks ever created in the history of tarot, and as much as I respect it, it just doesn't grab me like it does so many readers. For some odd reason, today it did. Which is a really great thing because I made up my mind quite some time ago that while I will have my favorites, I want to be able to read any deck I put my hands on. For me, it's all about letting go of fear and doubt in my capabilities as a reader.
I don't usually do reverse cards, but some decks I do. It's like different decks are like different people and want to be treated differently based on who they are and how they roll. Crowley, he rolls with Rx cards.
The Star XVII Rx, The Devil XV, The Hanged Man XII Rx
Of course my ole buddy The Devil stands out the most, but for some reason I am not afraid of him today, which is really cool considering this card is all about fear. I see that goat standing there looking all confident and expressing his Capricorn stubbornness, or more to the point, the flip side of that word which I think is tenacity. He says that my Capricorn ass needs to not be trapped by fear and doubt and allow it to hold me hostage any longer. When I see the people in the bubbles below him it looks like they are trapped. The bubbles look like cells that are going through meiosis or mitosis (I'm not a Bio major folks lol) which is about changes that are imperative for growth and maturity at a very basic level. The goat's third eye is wide open, telling me to tap into my inner voice and wisdom on how to do this, not what others think of me. (It's also telling me to trust in myself as a reader!) Which I needed to hear since I have had my panties in a major wad because of a conversation with a dear friend last night and her opinion of how I am in the very fucked up state my life is currently in. The Hanged Man Rx is just confirming that is it is time for me to wake up and take action and not get stuck in my ways or cut off my nose to spite my face, a major Capricorn thing to do! It is reminding me that God helps those who help themselves, so I need to be more active in freeing myself from the lack of faith that is keeping me stuck in repeating cycles that get me pretty bad results. That Rx Star is kinda saying the same thing, reminding me to keep the faith and not to give up hope because I can heal my life, the power is at my disposal. This trio is Air/Earth/Water = Having the desire to create stability but not needing to create the proper mind-set to take necessary action/not letting negative thoughts cloud your heart's desire from becoming reality.
The Card at the bottom is the 5 of Swords. This is that nasty cardI got yesterday and last week that involves shit-talking and harsh thoughts and words about you from others. I like Crowley's take on this card. He has titled it "Defeat". If I let others opinions of me in my head they will feed my own negative thoughts about myself and I will be defeated. Note how he has used the reverse pentagram. This symbol gets such a bad rap from those who don't know any better. When the single point is facing upward it IS positive. When it is not, as he shows it here, it shows the more negative aspects of the symbol. That's a lesson for another post, but for now, just know that this way it shows putting pleasures of the flesh or earthly desires above Spirit. Which goes in perfect sync with that Devil card who is all about earthly desires. And please understand, there is nothing wrong with earthly desires! It is when we put them above our spiritual needs and common sense that we get ourselves in trouble. It makes me think of Charlie Sheen: "Winning!!" Naw sweetie, "Defeated!"
Another bit of confirmation on these cards is the Astrological associations of this set. Aquarius the humanitarian represents The Star. I met with my g/f who is one of the biggest humanitarians I've ever known and has done more than I can even begin to explain to help me rehab my back and my life in general. She is a an Aquarius. And then I end up seeing an old friend I haven't seen in a couple of years who was telling me all about how he had let his earthly desires dominate his life to a really dangerous point. He went to rehab and has been clean and sober for over a year and looks and sounds so grounded and so on top of his life! I am so proud of and excited for him. And yes, he is a Capricorn! lol In fact I'm on my way to meet him and go to an AA meeting with him. If you've never been to one, do yourself a huge favor, go! Am I an addict To drugs/alcohol no. To my own negative behavior patterns that keep me in a dark, negative state? You bettcha. You'd be amazed at the skills you will learn that can help you get your shit togther even if you ar a T-totaler! (Note: DO NOT speak, just SHUT UP and be present and NON JUDGEMENTAL!!! Some folks will welcome you with open arms for being open-minded or supporting a loved one. Others might rip you a brand new ass for your non-drug or alcohol addicted ass in their safe place! Ask me how I know!)
*Again with proof my tarot Spidey senses are spot on, how crazy is it that this song by one of my all time favorite groups came on my Pandora. I don't usually do reverse cards, but some decks I do. It's like different decks are like different people and want to be treated differently based on who they are and how they roll. Crowley, he rolls with Rx cards.
The Star XVII Rx, The Devil XV, The Hanged Man XII Rx
Of course my ole buddy The Devil stands out the most, but for some reason I am not afraid of him today, which is really cool considering this card is all about fear. I see that goat standing there looking all confident and expressing his Capricorn stubbornness, or more to the point, the flip side of that word which I think is tenacity. He says that my Capricorn ass needs to not be trapped by fear and doubt and allow it to hold me hostage any longer. When I see the people in the bubbles below him it looks like they are trapped. The bubbles look like cells that are going through meiosis or mitosis (I'm not a Bio major folks lol) which is about changes that are imperative for growth and maturity at a very basic level. The goat's third eye is wide open, telling me to tap into my inner voice and wisdom on how to do this, not what others think of me. (It's also telling me to trust in myself as a reader!) Which I needed to hear since I have had my panties in a major wad because of a conversation with a dear friend last night and her opinion of how I am in the very fucked up state my life is currently in. The Hanged Man Rx is just confirming that is it is time for me to wake up and take action and not get stuck in my ways or cut off my nose to spite my face, a major Capricorn thing to do! It is reminding me that God helps those who help themselves, so I need to be more active in freeing myself from the lack of faith that is keeping me stuck in repeating cycles that get me pretty bad results. That Rx Star is kinda saying the same thing, reminding me to keep the faith and not to give up hope because I can heal my life, the power is at my disposal. This trio is Air/Earth/Water = Having the desire to create stability but not needing to create the proper mind-set to take necessary action/not letting negative thoughts cloud your heart's desire from becoming reality.
The Card at the bottom is the 5 of Swords. This is that nasty cardI got yesterday and last week that involves shit-talking and harsh thoughts and words about you from others. I like Crowley's take on this card. He has titled it "Defeat". If I let others opinions of me in my head they will feed my own negative thoughts about myself and I will be defeated. Note how he has used the reverse pentagram. This symbol gets such a bad rap from those who don't know any better. When the single point is facing upward it IS positive. When it is not, as he shows it here, it shows the more negative aspects of the symbol. That's a lesson for another post, but for now, just know that this way it shows putting pleasures of the flesh or earthly desires above Spirit. Which goes in perfect sync with that Devil card who is all about earthly desires. And please understand, there is nothing wrong with earthly desires! It is when we put them above our spiritual needs and common sense that we get ourselves in trouble. It makes me think of Charlie Sheen: "Winning!!" Naw sweetie, "Defeated!"
Another bit of confirmation on these cards is the Astrological associations of this set. Aquarius the humanitarian represents The Star. I met with my g/f who is one of the biggest humanitarians I've ever known and has done more than I can even begin to explain to help me rehab my back and my life in general. She is a an Aquarius. And then I end up seeing an old friend I haven't seen in a couple of years who was telling me all about how he had let his earthly desires dominate his life to a really dangerous point. He went to rehab and has been clean and sober for over a year and looks and sounds so grounded and so on top of his life! I am so proud of and excited for him. And yes, he is a Capricorn! lol In fact I'm on my way to meet him and go to an AA meeting with him. If you've never been to one, do yourself a huge favor, go! Am I an addict To drugs/alcohol no. To my own negative behavior patterns that keep me in a dark, negative state? You bettcha. You'd be amazed at the skills you will learn that can help you get your shit togther even if you ar a T-totaler! (Note: DO NOT speak, just SHUT UP and be present and NON JUDGEMENTAL!!! Some folks will welcome you with open arms for being open-minded or supporting a loved one. Others might rip you a brand new ass for your non-drug or alcohol addicted ass in their safe place! Ask me how I know!)
