New Moon in Aquarius Spread

I thought I'd try a New Moon Spread. I found this one from a Google search that took me to a blog I'd never seen. It uses the four directions and Spirit to tap into how to best use the energies at this time. It is a new moon in Aquarius.

New Moon in the North - 10 of wands - Don't take on more than I can handle, and damn sure what is not mine. I also see the wands in her hands like weights. I need to work out and build my physical strength. I also need to somehow stop stressing about money. It looks like her eyes are looking down at the next card.


New Moon in the East - The Wheel of Fortune - Brainstorm new ideas. Aquarians just love to plan. I need to write out lists and set  plans into motion about the direction I want things to go in. I see the noon phases above her head. Since this is a new moon spread I really think something significant will happen by this time next month. I think I will make new connections with people who will help spin the wheel in my favor.

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New Moon in the South - 9 of swords - As soon as I pulled the card I heard "Quit being such a scaredy-cat!" This is the nightmare card and in this position it is reminding me that when I give in to anxiety and fear the way I so often do, it keeps me stuck, trapped. I need to use my fears to my advantage and feed the flames of creating the things I desire.

New Moon in the West - 7 of wands - I need to put myself and my own needs first.  I have got to realize that this does not make me selfish!! It makes me smart and a person who values and loves herSelf. It will also make me happier.

New Moon at its Core - King of Wands - If I tap into this new moon in Aquarius energy I can really make some serious headway. I can find success in the things I am passionate about and that will inspire and energize me. Look at how confident and brave this King is. I can hear The Cowardly Lion in The Wizard of Oz say "Courage!" which ties right back in with the message from the 9ofSw in the south.

What are you hoping for in next month or so? Do any of you have a New Moon spread you like?

Happy Birthday to Me and Merry Christmas to You! 12/25/10

I wanted to make another post, but I am fighting a cold, and I intend to win! So I will just leave you with some pretty pictures as my Birthday and Jesus', as well as Christmas come to an end today. I pray all of you had a wonderful holiday, whatever you celebrate. I wish you all health, wealthy, and true joy!

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No Rain On My Birthday Eve

Today is Dec 24th. Tomorrow is my birthday. I really wish I was more excited about this. Right now, I really am not.

I decided to do two birthday spreads. This first one in this post I found on a ladies blog from a Google search with those two key words.

1. Body and Health - 6 of wands- The butterflies coming from under her hat remind me of how I have been thinking of the transformation I have made with regard to the issues with my back. I really believe that transforming my mindset has gonna very long way in my healing it. And look at how happy she is, feeling on top of the world and proud of what she has done or overcome. This card is telling me that my ass needs to get back on the workout wagon! It gives me so much more energy and vitality. It seems it will be very important to me accomplishing the things I want to, starting with feeling accomplished lol!

2. Mind and Intellect - 3 of swords - I have had several very painful experiences that broke my heart this past year with regard to friendships. But I see how big the person's heart is on the card and that he still shows it proudly. Though he guards it a bit, he is has by no means locked it away. He put a Band-Aide on the wound, but that's not what he is focused on, nor the three swords. He is focused on the three candles. To me they are faith, hope and clarity. His skirts look like a patchwork quilt. My experiences are all what make up the fabric of my life. Some positive, some crappy, but all serve a purpose. I have a bit more healing to do, and the quilt also says to me that I need to  do a bit more work on taking care of and nurturing mySelf. His somber countenance reminds me that though I do a very good job at keeping the daemon of depression at bay, I need to be sure to keep my thoughts positive. Thoughts become words, become actions. become results. Free ya mind, ya ass'll  follow.

3. Heart and Relationships - The Empress III- This is such a lovely version of this card. I notice that there is a lot of green - healing and growth. And being the archetype of the mother, this makes all the sense in the world to me give the situation with my mother and the healing that is slowly taking place with us. The little blue eggs in the nest on her head make me think of my precious little 7 month old cousin Kade. I have never really liked babies. Sorry if that sounds mean or harsh, but I don't. Too much hollering and pooping but other than that, what do they do? Who are they? But this kid won every inch of my heart! He has changed my mind a lot about babies in general. More specifically about me wanting one (?!?!?? yikes!) In terms of the future, does this mean that I will have one within the next year?? If I'm gonna do it it damn sure needs to be soon! At 09:45- exactly 7 hours to the minute from now, I shall be 40.  I ain't no spring chicken LOL! And I just love the skulls on her dress!  So me! Reminds me of this site I tripped over called Baby Goth. OMG!! The coolest kids clothes ever man!

4. Spirit and Evolution - Page of Wands- I freakin' love this interpretation of the PofW! He is happy as a clam! (or a happy bunny) and wants to announce it to the world! I need to remember that HAPPINESS IS A CHOICE. I have been hearing that phrase in my head for several days now. Even though I have always been a very optimistic, 1/2 full kinda gal, I have fought depression for a long time. Again this shows that I need to be mindful of my thoughts and take action to work toward things that will bring me true joy, not subjective happiness. This bunny is doesn't give a poop what anyone thinks! He totally makes me think of one of my favorite videos ever with little girl is in the bumble-bee costume and is searching for other bees like her. I can never remain down after I see that video! He is telling me to live for mySelf and inevitably others will   benefit and be happy. He wants me to be excited about life and get out and experience it! This is Phase II! Stop  bullshittin' and do all the thongs my souls is crying out for me to do and experience. There is NO MORE TIME LEFT TO GIVE IN TO FEAR! Glad I  took the financial risk and bought those flight lessons for my birthday. This bunny rabbit totally took flight lessons! Skydiving too! And he is not afraid to toot his own horn. Self confidence is not being pompous. It is pride in ones acquired wisdom---- where the hell did that come from LOL!? No idea, but I like it!

5. Special Birthday Wish from The Goddess - 10 of wands- Wowwww. She said, put my burdens down! Stop giving myself more work by stressing and working harder not smarter. That way I won't be so overwhelmed and fearful of living life to the fullest. She is also saying that I need to learn to say "No." much more often. And stop feeling driven to explain why all the time. Just politely but simply, "No." I take on too much, don't have a plan, and get burned out. Stop that She says.


I am really liking the Joie de Vivre tarot more and more. It had just the right blend of honesty mixed with its gentility that I need today on Christmas/My Birthday Eve.

First Reading with Joie de Vivre Tarot

Two days ago I got one of my birthday presents to Me from Me, the Joie-de-Vivre deck by Paulina Cassidy. You all know how much I love my dark decks, but I need one that is a little lighter, a little softer. It's got a zany, fun, child-like feel to it, yet still has slight touches of the macabre. The fine, wee little details are not something that I usually go for, so I've been a little unsure about it. But the more that Kiki posted with it, the more I wanted it. So I went through and started to familiarize myself with each card last night. Then this morning I decided to take it for a test run. I decided that for now I will not read Rx with this deck. I set the very clear intention of asking the deck, "What can you tell me about this morning?" Since I'd only been awake about 2 hours, this was asking it to be pretty specific. The first thought I had was about the horrible cramps/stomach pains I was having at that moment. (Uhh, wth? No cycle, but cramps?? Are you kidding me!?) I wondered if The Chariot VII would show up.  It is ruled by the sign Cancer and is associated with the stomach in readings that deal with health. If it gave me the Chariot, I knew we were a perfect match and that communication between us would not be a problem. Here are the cards I pulled:

1. The Chariot VII- LOL! Disco! We have a connection folks!  And notice how she is holding her lower abdomen and looking very disgruntled, just like I was lol!

2. Queen of Cups- I had thought about my mother this morning and the beautiful birthday card she sent me that I read again when I woke up. She is a Scorpio, Queen of Cups.

3. Ace of Cups- The card of renewed love and healing. Again, the Mom situation. Letting me know Arch Angel Raphael is working his magick. And this card is so beautiful. Just looking at it makes me feel soothed and peaceful and safe. The little faerie has her lotus blossom to pour her healing water out into Source. Something about her reminds me of Tori Amos.  She also makes me think of how when doing a spell, you call in the Quarters, the guardians from each cardinal direction. She looks like the perfect vision of the Keeper of the West. And the lotus flower reminds me of the Nichiren Buddhist law of cause and effect. Nam-Myho-Renge-Kyo. The very short interpretation means dedication to the mystic law of the simultaneity of cause and effect  through sound. Renge means lotus flower. It represents cause and effect since it is one of the only flowers that has seed and bloom at the same time. The easiest way to sum all this up is that it is a reminder to me that I can NOT change anyone, starting with my mother. I can only change myself. Choose to act and not react. When you change from the inside, your environment and all that exists it  on the outside will change. I am changing the dynamic between us by the fact that I have chosen to not react, but to choose how I act. Very hard, but I think will be very beneficial.

4. 5 of Wands- I pulled the card at the bottom of the deck and had to laugh out loud! I am NOT a morning person!! I was awakened at 8:15 by my two little cousins being SO loud and arguing! I was upstairs doing the reading. The were downstairs, directly below me!

5. 8 of Swords - the very last thing I thought of while I was shuffling was how there have been so many things holding me back from completely committing to the move to New Orleans. Several things that were stressing me out and I kept over analyzing and thus had me trapped in the fear of making the wrong decision, but there is only one thing now that is still holding me hostage. I think this is crystal clear that the Joie de Vivre is listening to me and speaking with crystal clarity!

Leave Behind, Move Toward Re: Scorpio Mamma

This afternoon I asked "What do I need to leave behind? What do I need to move toward?" I felt drawn to my Deviant Moon Tarot (I so need to do an interview with it and give Lisa a proper thank you. Slacker, I am)

Leave Behind- Empress III Rx- I have only used this deck two or three times since I got it. If I had any questions about how well it will connect with me, those are gone. This is crystal clear that the issue with my mother and I is the answer to the question. I am very slowly, but at long last coming to accept and trust that stressing over things DOES NOT HELP! GUILT DOES NOT HELP ANYONE OR ANYTHING! In fact, it makes things worse if anything. If you knew how much hair has fallen out of my head due to stress your jaw would hit the ground. My doctor's did. This card is telling me that the unhealthy situation of emotional control has got to end. (For the love of God I am 39 years old for 3 more days! Really??) I have  prayed on this and made it part of my Yule Celebration to bring healing and shed light on how we can best have a positive, healthy, happy relationship. Now, I have to trust and allow that to happen and not worry. Easier said than done. Damn Scorpio woman. Agh!

Move Toward- Ace of Pentacles Rx - The first thing I noticed was the pentacle in the dragon's hand. I have wondered why it is Rx when the card is upright?? Pentacles are growth and stability. The pentacle is upright, but only when the card is Rx. I feel like this is saying to me that sometimes things have to happen bass-akwards in order to turn themselves around. This will be a long and ongoing process of healing our relationship. We love each other more than words can say, but we are very very different people who tend to rub each other the wrong way. It makes both of us very very sad. The dragon represents how scary this is for both of us, as well as how scary we can both seem. The dragon's hands on the pentacle say to me to hold onto my faith. I did a spell on this, Let it go and let the Goddess do her work. (Dear God, my mother would drop dead if she heard those words. After she killed me lol. Oye vey)

Bottom Line- Temperance XIV - This card is total confirmation that this deck will speak to me very clearly and that I need to spend some time getting to know it better. The lovely blue angel is pouring her healing love into the bowl. That makes me think of a momma's chicken soup when you are sick. I always see the angel on Temperance as the Arch Angel Raphael, the angel of healing. And he is letting me know that the other cards are confirming how I need to handle this and that he is at work and hear for me and for her. Thank you dear Raphael so very much.

Does anyone else who is a grown woman have Mamma issues?? Please feel free to comment if you have any words of wisdom. I could use all the support I can get on this one. Thx

Yule 2011 Spread

I decided to do a Yule reading and found an interesting spread on YouTube. I made a of of my own modifications since I do not have a Goddess oracle or my Universal Goddess Tarot with me. It is mean to reflect from now until Feb 2, which is Candlemas.



1. Elemental power that is accompanying me? - Rx Page of Coins- Earth is the element. Today marks the transition from autumn to winter, a time of the final harvest to the time of harsh endurance. Reading tarot out in the square is toughest now. The weather keeps people away. It will rain for the next several days here, which totally sux because I sure was hoping to make some very much needed cash. And I haven't heard back from the lady who wanted me to work a party of the 30th. So I am stressing money and times are very harsh right now. I hope that the girl's had on that pentacle means that money will be forth coming and being Rx means keep my head up because the element of earth is with me, so security may be hard to see but it is present. Or will be soon.


2. What is most important lesson form recent past?- 7 of swords- This says to me that I have been through some very stressful times, but I always land on my feet. Do not let anyone or anything steal my joy.

3. Central theme of Yule Night- Rx Queen of Wands- Tonight is about me facing my fears and focusing on how this night of rebirth is an opportunity to reignite my passion about my life, my tarot business for example. Especially as I am about to turn 40 in 4 days. I'm calling it "Phase II".

4. What do I leave behind now?- 2 of swords- I leave behind indecision. (God I hope so!) This card always makes me think of New Orleans and Mardi Gras. It is telling me to leave the fears I have about committing to moving back here to NOLA. My emotions are keeping me from getting a grip on how to best take action.

5. What will be born anew?-  Ace of Cups- Gotta love this! I think it is actually speaking to several things. I think it means as I am starting to love myself more and love this Phase II I am opening myself to being able to receive and give love. Until very recently it has been a real long time since romance was on my mind. I think a new romance is headed my way. I also think that healing and a new way for my mother and I to relate to one another will be "born". I sure hope so.

6. Which present do I receive now?-  The Star XVII- Oh wow!! What a magnificent card! Hope and lightness of my spirit. My angels are with me and will guide me. I just did an amazing mediation I learned from Rowan and I know I was interacting with so many loved ones on the other side, including my dad, my grama, and so many of my pets. My beloved German Shepherd Sasha who died when I was 13, my cat Kat who was the most awesome, coolest cat ever. He died in my arms when I was like 21 or so. Spunky, Autumn, Missy, Jr., Vixen. So many of my pets throughout my life. My Grama, Maddie was her nick-name (pronounced Mo-dey. It's Creole speak, don't ask lol) told me how much she loves me and always asks God to protect me and asks the angles to watch over me. She also to me to tell that to my cousin Dana. And my dad gave me the biggest hug and let me know that everything is going to be alright. He really wants me to move to NOLA. Seeing and actually feeling the presence of all of them so clearly was truly a wonderful present! Thank you!!

7. Which present do I give the world?-  The Chariot VII Rx- Uhh... Huh?? ...... I think it is telling me that the best gift I can give the world is for me to focus in nurturing my own Self. To be decisive in the direction I want to take my life and set that course on my souls GPS. STOP TRIPPIN' ABOUT HOW I AM GOING TO GET THERE! Just set the destination firmly in my mind's eye and the road will be shown to me. I also think it is saying I will be doing some serious traveling in June with regard to what gift I have to offer the world. Hmm...

8. & 9. Which major arcana forces stand by my side now?-  The Lovers VI and The Chariot VII- Ok, so you think the Chariot is trying to tell me something lol? I think the Lovers is speaking to that AofC and speaks very much toward the fact that I want to get married to someone with whom I am extremely compatible. That will happen because I have given a lot of thought on how to make better choices. I have been feeling that whoever "he" is, He is not far away at all. And this second Chariot says again that travel in this time period is definite. If I get The World XXI then I know for sure and it will be international. To stay focused! It's like his bow and arrow is pointing back at the Lovers, like one hell of a kick-ass Cupid lol.

10. Under which Ace does this time period stand?- Ace of Cups Rx-

11. What Ace does that the Universe wants to alert me to? - Ace of Wands- Get yo shit together with your tarot business damnit woman! And send out a few more flight attendant resumes!

12. Message from the Goddess via Shadows & Light Oracle- The Angel of Time #40 ~ "Working to hard!"- This deck always speaks to me with numerology and this tough chick is #40, the age I will be on Christmas. At first I was like, "Uh working to hard?? Is she kidding me?" Then I read the booklet. In short, she said I need to spend way less time on the computer, meditate, do yoga and eat right. And she said to "do this Now!" 

December 21st Blessings

Blessed Yule, Merry Christmas, Happy Kwanza, Happy Chanukah, Happy Holidays to you all and your loved ones!







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