Birthday Message for a Friend

Someone asked me to do a reading based on the question: What does the Goddess want me to know for my birthday?" I used the gorgeous Shadows & Light oracle cards. Here is what the Goddess had to say:

1. Ghosts From the Past- Make peace with the past, whomever hurt you or you have hurt, past mistakes ect. Let it all go. Forgiveness is key for you to move on, it is what is causing you apprehention about being yor true self. No more fear of the past or of being your true self that you know you are meant to be.

2. The Witch At the End of the World ( my fav card in the deck!) Again the same theme of endings and new beginnings, no more delay, change is eminent. Do not be afraid, you are protected and much better things will come from this change.

3. Fairy of the Highlands- the time for truce is over. You may not want to fight, hope for things to just be ok, But she says you have to go kick some ass b/c someone is fucking with you and not resepcing you, you need to set very clear boundaries, cut ties with those who have mistaken your kindness for weakness. Do not back down!


I have noticed this deck seems to want me to add up the numbers on each card and come up with the sum. So I added 42+45+20 = 107 = 8. So I felt like She wanted me to grab the card from a traditional tarot deck that corresponds with the number 8, thus Strength VIII. (I know, I know. For some folks it's Justice. I see Justice as XI. And no, I do not care what is drawn/written on the card, not one little bit. So no, I didn't accidentally write the wrong number. I wrote what I associate Strength as, what works for me, what my guides and intuition tell me is right for Me! Do what works best for You) I felt drawn to the ultra gorgeous Tarot of Vampyres. 

You have to acknowledge your own personal power and harness it. The roses say to me that you need to present yourself in such a manner that other see your beauty inside and out, but also see that you will defend and protect yourself. It also says to me that you may get a better result if you don't look at things from the perspective of right vs wrong or good vs bad, but rather cause and effect. That removes 
judgement or blame on others as well as yourself.


*by the way, don't ask me why the color isn't taking right now lol 

Relationship Reading: Chuck and Sparkle

A friend asked me for a reading on a love interest. I decided to try Rhiannon's relationship spread using her deck the Faulkner Tarot. She has a fabulous YouTube video on how to do it. This spread involves a lot of cards, 16 of them. I had a hard time trying to figure out how I was going to take picture of the cards. Should I break it up with several pictures in groups? I chose not to and to do a shot of the entire spread so we could actually see the cool way she lays the cards out. I just put it in the middle of the reading. If you click on the picture it will enlarge it so you can see the cards in more detail.

1-3. What does Sparkle bring into the relationship? Well, all three cards are swords, so right off the bat that tells me that Sparkle is very stressed about realtionships and that she may need to work on her communication skills. Perhaps she can be a bit cold or use her words as weapons. First card is the 9 of swords- aka "the nightmare card" which reiterates the stress and often times actual nightmares. Being right next to Justice XI this shows her recent divorce is still very fresh in her mind. It seems she was in a relationship that was extremly painful and her heart is still very heavy. Next to it is the 4 of swords, the card that says you need to rest and take care of yourself. All together, this group is telling me that she needs to take time to heal from a whole lot of nasty shit from the past that still haunts her. Letting go of old ghosts that still haunt her. Everything is energy and the energy of her past relationship or her ex is still clinging to her spirit, which makes all the sense in the world. Even though we know it's best to leave a situation it doesn't take away the pain. Right now, I see her bringing a lot of old wounds and a need for self-care and nurturing. It's great to see she has learned to set boundaries, but I fear she has set up walls.

3-6. What Chuck brings to the reationship? He seems to bring a lot more emotion and openness than Sparkle, but he still has his own apprehention and fear. The first card is the 3 of cups. I think Chuck wants a good healthy relationship, commitment, something where he feels safe and supported, but also fun and happy times they can share together. The next card, the Ace of Swords, shows he is still scared a bit shitless but wants to take the plunge, break out of his comfort zone. Is he afraid of loosing his personal freedom if he gets into a relationship? And this next card is the Queen of Cups. Who is she? Is she the woman from his past who may have been emotionally manipulative? Did she not treat him as an equal or does he have some "mamma's boy" tendencies?

7. How Sparkle sees Chuck- Page of wands- Chuck seems like his ass is a whole lot of fun! She sees him as wild, adventurous, and sexy as hell! Chuck really makes her all tingly in naughty places lol! She sees him as a break from the monotony of life and a fresh new start.

8. How Chuck sees Sparkle- 6 of Swords- This makes me think that the Qof C we jsut saw is someone from his past. He sees Sparkle as moving on to a less stressful time. Someone he can do fun and romatic things and who will appreciate him for it. But he also sees her as hiding something. He sees that wall she has up.

9. How did Sparkle first see Chuck? When they first met, what did she think? - The Hanged Man XII- She saw him as a very strong possibility she wanted to pursue, but she saw his apprehention, his need to take things slowly and in his own time. I like how this shows that she has learned from her past to see a person as they are, not who she wants them to be.

10. How did Chuck see Sparkle when they first met?- 2 of pentacles- He saw her stress and trying to find her footing and balance in her life. He saw she needs to take things slowly as well. I also think he saw that she is the type of person who is such a giver and that she gave so much of herself in the past yet never had it balanced out with recieving from her ex that she is just tapped out at the moment and needs to continue working on her own needs. I like that, it shows he thinks about others and not only himself.

11. What are Sparkle's fears that could block this relationship? 9 of pentacles- Well Chuck ain't the only one who fears loosing his independence huh. The 9ofP is all about someone who has worked long and hard to get to wear they are. A person who has learned to love themselves and is very independant. They like the company of others, yes, but they do not need anyone else! Her fear of loosing herself in the relationship in another person could block thngs.

12. What are Chuck's fears?- Knight of Cups- I think he fears getting all caught up in the romance of it and I also think he fears rejection. Is there a shy aspect of Chuck? Or is it again that QofC from his past who kicked his ass emotionally and made him insecure? This man needs a lot of emotional reassurance.

13. Outside influences in Sparkle's world- The Lovers VI- I feel this goes back to her divorce since this card often has to do with marriage. It also has to do with choices and balancing the head with the heart. Are there issues other than the ones already mentioned that are major choices in Sparkle's world that are making her have to choose what road to take?

14. Outside influences in Chuck's world? The Knight of Pentacles- Is work or money making and planning for the future in a slow methodical way a major factor in his world that would infuence him? Or does he see that this relationship would be a lot of hard work and he is trying to go very slowly to see if it's worth it. Not in a cruel way or that he is seeing Sparkle in a negative light, just a mature assement of of his life and what is best.

15. Outcome- 5 of swords- I hate to say it, but I have to be honest in my readings. The 5ofSw is just a nasty card that really doesn't have a good side to it. I see the two of them just rubbing eachother the wrong way and things getting nasty and stressful, bringing out the worst and not the best in each other. The 5ofSw is about gossip, and shit-talkin', and empty victories. Shit hits the fan and the gloves come off and people fight unfairly.

16. So I jsut had to check another card to see if there was anything else we could find out. I did the card at the bottom of the deck which sums it all up, the bottom line of it all.--Damn... 10 of Swords. I hate like hell to say it, but it does not look very promising to say the least for this relationship. 10ofSw is another one of the most nasty cards in the deck. It shows starting over, but from a place of a lot of pain and stress and emptiness. Which I guess kind of comes full circle from the first cards we laid out to begin with.

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Living Tarot Phone Class- Intuitive Reading Level 1

If you have not checked out Ferol's page on FB called Living Tarot, may I suggest you do so. She is such a wonderful and talented reader who is so passionate about helping others cultivate their skills. I know I have grown leaps and bounds over the past few months from doing the exercises she posts most every night for us to participate in with the most unique and fascinating questions. She will be doing a series of phone classes on intuitive reading starting Sunday Nov 13 @9:00-11:00 pm EST and go through Dec 4. The fee is jsut $80 for all 4 of the 2 hour long classes. Or here is the link that takes you directly to the event page for the class.  I am so excited to be able to have this opportunity!

I think the cards I'd have to choose to represent this are  8 of pentacles  flanked by the Ace of Wands and The High Priestess II and chose my gorgeous Tarot of the Vampyres and fire/earth/water make for a very good set up for elemental dignities. The central theme is the 8ofP, learning, education, fine tuning your skills. The AofW is a new opportunity with regard to somthing you are passionate about or are expending energy on and it is full of promise to give birth to a glorious new creation. And my beloved HP II in this deck has her book of shadows levitating in front of her. She is the keeper of esoteric knowledge, wisdom that can only come from life experience, which is how we cultivate our intuition.

I am torn on whether Ferol is the Queen of Cups or Pentacles, but I'm going go with the Queen of Pentacles and chose thee version from my Sweet Twilight. She is so nurturing, patient and sincere. She has a very grounding effect and she gives so much encouragement yet helps us find our own answers ourselves. I so look forward to the day I can meet her in person.

Should I Drive Today?

I didn't realize that my drivers license has been exprired for quite some time now and I'd forgotten to renew it. Well I figured I'll just do the limit or 5 miles below and if I should get stopped I'll just play dumb or play the girl card. (don't act like you haven't played the girl card and won't again lol!) I heard my guides tell me clear as day "don't drive today". I was going to blow it off but then I remembered my cousin's b/f told me to be really careful. We are like 45 min outside of New Orleans and there are so many little towns where the speed limit changes from 35 to 50 to 45 to 55 then 45..... WTF?!?!  They are just setting you up for failure! And that they could actually put me in jail for that! And being a black woman out here??? Shhhit! But jail, that is beyond extreme to me! I mean for real!?? Fucking jail?? It's a piece of plastic that needs two of the numbers that make up the year to be changed! It's not a damn DUI due to a fifth of Kettle One and a lit blunt! And from the state that has DRIVE THROUGH DAQUARI STANDS!! That's a frozen beverage with rum and you choice of additional alcohol!!!  Are you kidding me!?! 


 Then I heard, "Ok tarot reader, go pull a card.  So I did.


This is what everyone who reads means when they tell you to listen to your guides and your intuition and they will speak to you." So I ask, "Should I drive today, will it be ok?"--- 4 of Swords. I was like dang, ok. But let me just pull 2 more out of habit. The fucking 3of Sw and The Tower  XVI for Goddess' sake!!! I kept my ass out of any driver's seat that day and didn't drive today. May not tomorrow either lol! 

Yes, I'll have my arse on a plane next week to give the state... excuse me, the common wealth of PA their $60. Yes, 60 freakin' dollars because I have a motorcycle endorsement! Damn thieves! But the staying out of jail?? Priceless!

I Popped My Cherry!

I DID IT!!!
 I did it damnit all to hell! I FINALLY carried my ass down to the French Quarter (FQ) to Jackson Square (JSq) and read cards!
I was so nervous, but I finally made up my mind because it was just before Halloween and what better time  and place for Goddess sake!?! New Orleans, LA in The FQ, on Halloween! If not then, WTF man! I went to my cousin's room and told that ballsy Leo chick to kick my ass. And she did lol! I had no idea how the frick I was gonna get me and all my shit from A-B. It hit me, *ding* use your rollerboard flight attendant! So I packed up candles, put newspaper and prayer in and around the glass holders, my pillow, blanket, cards inscence, 3 decks of cards, and pretty cloths for my table, shoved a wad of bread and a Motrin 800mg down my gullet, slapped on my screaming whore red MAC Russian Roulette lipstick and rolled on out the door. My cousin had gotten the cloth fold up chairs out for me. I threw it all in the back of his beat up pick up truck his wife The Leo named The Green Goblin and carried my ass to the store to get a table. I'd looked it up online, called and they said they had it. I drive to the FQ and decide to go to pay to park so I knew I'd find a  space. I knew I could not have even the slightest thing be even a remotely possible reason for me to punk out! I drag my shit to JSq and start to set up and stop short. WTH.... The freakin' table is  SO NOT the one I saw online!! It barely came as high as my knees and was like 1' X 1'! Was this intended for a 3yr old's tea party?! My heart sank a bit, but I was just so proud I had even got this far. I was jsut about to pack up when the husband, Xan, of the nice couple I have become friends with comes over and is looking at me like WTH is that LOL? He then goes over and Willow, his wife who gave me a wonderful reading a couple of weeks ago and encouraged me to come out there, was so kind and let me use one of her tables! They are the nicest people, I'm really happy to be building a friendship with them! Long story short, no sooner than I lit the candles did a woman come and sit down. I was so so nervous, that I was too nervous to remember I was nervous LMFAO! I ended up doing 3 readings. I'd set a goal of leaving by midnight and not without $100. Well, by 11:30pm, I had exactly $100! I'm so pissed I forgot to take pix of my first big night because I had a ball! I've done readings before, but not anything like this. This was the most brave I may have ever been about my tarot career. I'm still in shock. I have had the most f*kd up stomach flu so I haven't been back yet. But on Oct 30, 2011, (the birthday of my mother who would so not approve- tee-hee-hee!) I popped my tarot cherry LMFAO!

So my inner "Yeah But....." is all like, "well... what if that was just a fluke and you totally suck next time hmmm??"
So my I'm going to pull some cards to address that. I will use my Faulkner Tarot since all 3 peeps chose that one out of the 3 decks I had to choose from. (I just knew someone would want The Tarot of Vampyres on Halloween for Pete's sake, but nope)

This is so direct and to-the-point it's as ridiculous as I am about being such a chicken-shit LOL! We got 2 Major arcana and one face out of 3 cards. The elemental dignites are water/water/air. Which in this reading I'd say are perfect; intuition and emotions mixed with logic and communication. Bam.

1. How do I need to see myself as a professional reader now that I did this?- Queen of Cups- This is water of water. She is the nurturer, the compassionate woman who's intuition is almost always spot on. If you ever wanted a card to represent who you are with regard to anything in the psychic realm, other than the mighty High Priestess Herself, this is it!


2. What is blocking me from seeing myself that way?- The Hanged Man XII- The first thing that came to mind was the word " bullshittin'!" As in wasting time, hanging out, not being direct and waiting until I'm under the gun to do shit while I'm all stressed out. This card is ruled by Neptune. Many of us involved with the spiritual side of life tend to not be successful because we get stoned on the big pink smoke machine and glitter of the esoteric like a bunch of 1930's jazz musicians. We just float along and don't remember that time is money, so use one wisely and you will create more of the other one! --- Omg--- It's 00:10 and someone's alarm clock jsut went off, surely by accident, but while I am looking at this card! Talk about your wake up call! Wake up and get my shit together! Treat this as the real profession it is and not like a hobby to pass the time!

3. What card should I focus in whenever I start to doubt mySelf as a professional reader?                         The Magician I Ruled by Mercury, planet of speed and communication. Card that is the Godsmack of a golden opportunity. It says you have everything you need right at your hot little hands to create the result you want. Just focus, believe with every fiber of your being and make the shit happen. It means an amazing new job opportunity. I have amazing chemistry with people more often than not. I make them feel at ease and not judged and am very easy to talk to. I see the path and the bend in it. I don't know where this will take me, but if I don't keep moving I'll neer find out. And the brightness is almost like I'm really outside in the sunshine. There is the path, the boat, the bridge; this will all lead to numerous opportunities that far reach what my narrow vision can see right now. It will take work, but it will be SO worth it!

Blessed Samhain 2011

~Magickal Graphics~

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Barbie Tarot

I am 39 and I am still a sucker for cool Barbie dolls. Tonight I remembered the coolest deck that I guess will forever remain unpublished given legal red tape and copywrite laws and whatnot. *sigh* Which totally sucks because I would love to own it. It was a labour of love that someone did called The Barbie Tarot and you've got to check it out!



So I decided to follow the link that allows you to get a computer generated reading and ask about my husband that I don't have but would like to. It ended up being really cool! Sounds  like he's going to be even better than Ken! LOL

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