Hello all, I know it's been forever and 2 days since I blogged on here. It's nice to be back since on the blog where I am 100%, unapologetically Krysten. I've been trying to do more with my CreoleMoon.blogspot.com blog (I'm not as raw, nor is it as personal. If you know about this one, please check that one out, but I'm not publisizing this one over there. If they trip over this one, whatever.) Then there was the shit show that was Nov 27-Dec 24! Omfg! What a fucking nightmare! The short version, oral surgery! Dear Lord Baby Jesus the pain. Cliff Notes: a piece of drill bit from a root canal done 15-20 years ago was left on the root of my lower left molar. Yes.... You read that correctly. So after all these years my body took notice and decided to reject the foreign object. That caused decay very quickly that made the root unsalvageable. Thus necessitating an extraction. And that resulted in the particular brand of hell known as dry socket, pain that my oral surgeon said is on par with kidney stones and child birth. I've only had of the two of those and I must agree. It is mind-numbing-want-to-kill-yourself agoney! And of course she said mine was one of the worst she'd ever seen. Nice... It is basically exposed nerve and bone marrow. I will never use the term "getting on my damn nerves" so casually ever again.
But! I was able to eat something besides soup and apple sauce just in time for my birthday! The night before I was taken to a fabulous birthday dinner by my dear friend Michaelle and her significant other.I took a chance and ordered the fillet and it was tender as a Mother's love! What a wonderful Christmas Eve!
(I do not know what the fuck I'd have done without Michaelle throughout that month long experience in a scene from Hellraiser. I now refer to her affectionately as "my wife". Also eternal gratitude to Willow, Xan, Vernon, Richard, Jay and Levi, Michael, my oral surgeon and her staff of angels, my neighbors, and the recreational drug users who saved my life by contributing to the cause in my time if need before I could be seen by the endodontist and oral surgeon and get my Rx. Do I agree with recreational drug use? Hell no. Am I grateful I know folks who do? Hell yes.)
Another wonderful and amazing thing has been working with the unbelievable TarotDame, Kiki! OMG she has been amazing! I am forever grateful to the life changing skills she is teaching me through our personal coaching sessions! If you want to learn how to manifest the life you are meant to live, don't delay any longer! She is so nurturing, compassionate, and her teaching tools GET RESULTS! And she has the patience of St. Jude! I am so very Lucky to have her! *big smile*
Now to the business of tarot.
I decided to give Starcana's Tarotscope reading a whirl. To do this spread, you need to know your birthchart info. Try Cafe Astrology to get your natal chart done.
1. First card- Use your Ascendant to explain what you already know
2. Second card - Use your Moon sign to explain what is challenging you
3. Third card - What is being created in general
1. Queen of Cups - My ascendant sign is Aquarius. So the face I show to the world or how people see me as is outgoing, very likeable, a weirdo, eccentric, and a person who sees all of humanity as equals and believes it's my duty too be a humanitarian. As Michaelle would say, I "see the spark of God in even the worst of us". So with this QofC it seems that this month I will be even more nurturing and loving to the masses. The stork on this version also shows the fact that I've been having those crazy baby notions again. At 41! WTF. (and I got some pretty crazy signs today that flipped my wig man! A child came into the shop where i work who was a carbon copy of the child I'd had a dream about a week ago! Oh, and her mom's name was Dreama! Come on now, could I make that shit up?!) Aquarians are also planners and know-it-alls. Funny thing is, they usually do know it all lol. They also come across as fearless and are folks who take action and cut through bullshit. They don't talk about it, they be about it. So I perhaps the person that people will also see is the Me who Kiki is trying so hard to give the skills to take action and get shit done and how sincere I am. I also notice how at peace this queen is. This also has to do with me working with the Lwa LaSirene so much.
2. 3 of swords - My moon sign is a funny one. It's basically on the cusp of Pisces and Aries. Nice huh? So I'm either non confrontational but wish I'd just deal with shit head on, or I nut the fuck up and feel bad that I hurt the other persons feelings lol. I am proud to say I've gotten so much better with this. So what is challenging me emotionally is being kinda sad because I don't have a partner (Really y'all, what word does one use at my age? I mean, boyfriend just sounds ridiculous as shit after 25!) The 3ofSw almost always shows up as infidelity when I do readings. But since I am not with anyone, I'd say it has to do with direct and less than pleasant communication and clearing the air (swords) with the person I was dating for a couple of months. The one who didn't my birthday. He didn't forget. He just didn't do it. He "didn't get any gifts this year for anyone else either." So you want me to be your girlfriend (and he truly did!) but I'm no more important than "anyone" else?! Dude, did you fall and hit your head or are you huffing paint? Do NOT play with me about my Christmas birthday! But not a card, a cupcake, a flower from somebody's yard? I almost never drink, but I do so love St. Germain/soda with lime. Not even a birthday drink from him. BECAUSE YES, I BOUGHT THAT MYSELF WHEN WE WENT OUT! After my friend and her man took me for fine dining. Needless to say,that was the last straw.
I think I need to explore the fact that I left my ex back in 2004 when he broke up with me on my birthday. Until this clown, I'd never broken up with anyone. So this was a huge step for me to take a stand and put my own needs, feelings and worth above someone else's. I'm so glad I finally started to wake up, to take a stand. To not tolerate bullshit because of my bleeding heart and allowing sympathy and/or empathy for other's issues to prevent me from setting boudaries and demand that they are respected. So I guess this card is telling me I need to speak my peace honestly but without going batshit crazy on the other person. Clear, direct communication when my heart has been hurt.
3. High Priestess - God I love tarot lol. Y'all know this is my all time favorite card in tarot! What I'm creating in general is the woman I most admire and strive to be. A woman who is poised and graceful when appropriate yet a force to be reckoned with. A woman that others are drawn to because of my depth and wisdom I've gained through learning from my experiences. A confident, gifted tarot reader who allows Spirit to flow through me via my intuition. I notice how both of these regal ladies who have mastered the art of being comfortable in their own skin have far more important things to focus on than this triad of confusion, suffering and sorrow. One is focused in peaceful mediation (dear Jesus, Isis, and Freyja Kiki, OK, OK lady LMAO). The other is focused on self-reflection. Both are focused on how to be of service to others. This is also the card I associate LaSirene with more than any other. I am we'll and truly blessed. My card for the year is The Wheel is saying that January will start 2013 rolllin' along quite nicely!
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